Hi, I don’t really know how to start this. But anyways, I’ve literally just downloaded this app Cus i was YouTubing some ocd content. Basically for as long as I can remember I have suffered with this, all the intrusive thoughts, hand washing, CONSTANT routines and exhausting rituals and things I have to do in order to stop myself from feeling like something terrible is gonna happen. I have good days and bad days, but my bad days are really bad to the point I just want to cry all day. Only thing is I haven’t even been diagnosed. I just freak out about going to the doctors because when they diagnose me I’m gonna have to tell my boyfriend/family and it’s just too much to even think about. I don’t want them to overthink it and fuss over me and tell me ‘just stop doing it nothing bad is gonna happen’ cus that’s all well and good but I can’t stop it and I so wish I could. I recently opened up to my sister in law about it because I just couldn’t deal with it anymore after years. And she was so understanding, she had been diagnosed with depression and paranoia so she slightly understands, she called the doctors for me and they arranged a day to go in. I just really don’t know what to do. I so badly want help and so badly want to feel better I’m just stuck wondering what happens after, will I ever get better? A lot of my family suffer with mental health and are medicated and I never wanted that:( i just don’t want this anymore. This app seems amazing and I’d love some advice if anyone had anything, Sorry it’s so long, thank you for taking time to read it. Also merry Christmas

It’s ok hun. I know how you feel. It took me 7 years to go to a GP but taking that first step is you’re halfway there. A professional will guide you through treatment, and you will get better. I live with my parents and they know I see a psychologist although I chose to tell them I had OCD that’s it. They don’t know the content etc. as hard as it was to take that first step it was the best step.

Thank you so much, I appreciate that so much! Definitely gonna seek help for sure

Thank you so much, that’s exactly what I meant because a lot of my family are medicated and really relay on them and I never wanted that but sometimes it’s the best option, my New Years resolution is to get help and finally do something about it after all these years, thank you so much!:)

Thank you, i really appreciate that. It’s just the scary thought of being diagnosed and it then becoming even more real and it’s like I have to start all these years of suffer over again being told I really have it, because I’ve always talked myself out of it like ‘na you’re just being dramatic or weird or just worried’ but i know I’m not if that makes sense, but thank you!

No you’re not being dramatic or weird! ocd is a horrible thing to have but it doesn’t have to define you, and it’s worse to suffer alone. A good therapist who understands ocd will be invaluable to you.

I definitely know what you mean and you will get better. I think getting help and talking about it helps so much. I felt the same way about taking medication because my my mom and aunt are on medication but I finally came to terms that I needed help and the medication does help me. There’s no shame in taking pills. Some people really need it and taking that step is so brave. You can do it :)