Is this reassurance or research? So as a Christian I try to do what pleases God but I have OCD and it gots my vision so sometimes I want to look up stuff like for instance as a Christian should I make art or spend my time on something else like ministering to the homeless. If I looked up peoples opinions would that be seeking reassurance?

Also another thing I have this issue where I will for example give a donation to charity or something and then I’m like I could always give more and then feel bad for not doing more for God

Yea I’m praying God will put someone in my life like this

Remember God loved you first and then you loved Him. We could never do enough to pay God back for all the love He has given us. We can’t earn His love! And to answer your reassurance or research question, if you are doing it to “clean up” “fix” or “forget” scary, bad, or dirty thoughts then yes your research is reassuring. If you just want to look something up because you want to then it may or may not be reassurance.

Remember that God wants our hearts. He also created us to enjoy His creation and to enjoy this world. It’s doesn’t have to be either or...it can be both. We are called to serve others but we are also called to love ourselves correctly. If making art helps you to relax and enjoy life, that’s great! This is always a great reminder to me: Upward - Love God completely Inward- Love myself correctly Outward - Love my neighbors compassionately.

Do you have a therapist? Or a good friend or mentor who understand your OCD issues and can help you sort through questions like these? I think one-on-one conversations with person who really know you would be good; they can help catch it when you switch from asking a question to obsessing about it.