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- 4y ago
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- 4y ago
I’m 14 and it started 2 months ago too but now I feel like I have less symptoms it scares me😣
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- 4y ago
yess omg i used to have so many symptoms (magical thinking, thought blocking, caring about if i looked gay to other ppl, rumination, confessing, etc) but now it’s basically just rumination. i feel like i’m losing the ocd part it’s so scary
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- 4y ago
It’s so annoying because now every time I want to wear something that many lgbt use I feel like people at egonna think I’m gay/bi
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- 4y ago
Most people don't show symptoms until 14-16. However, childhood is a trying time and I wouldn't jump the gun. I didn't get diagnosed until I was an adult and my symptoms didn't stop. When I was a teenager, I had intense HOCD. I had all the trimmings: a complusive porn watcher to test myself to different porns, I stared at people of the same sex, etc. I would have anxiety attacks about this. I started to pick my face excessively and I used to do other shit like bring nail polish to school so I could paint in class when I peeled it off. It was crazy making and when I got older I transitioned to complusive cleaning. The point is for you I would bank on "weird phase" because you don't want this. Here's the question for you: do you have unwanted repetitive thoughts that are totally outside of your control? Do you do something unhealthy or strange in response? That's the warnings.
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- 4y ago
yea i have a lot of the symptoms of hocd right now so it probably is ocd but then again there are a lot of atypical things about my hocd, like i can’t remember a specific start, i had the thoughts pop into my mind from time to time before my hocd, i was thinking about it and feeling scared of being bi a couple months before it started, etc so i always am scared that this isn’t hocd and i try to look for more evidence to reassure myself that it is ocd, which i know is probably unhealthy haha. i do have unwanted repetitive thoughts, they are the first thought in the morning and the last thought before i fall asleep, i react by confessing on this app sometimes, ruminating, checking, and researching. i just bring up that phase bc it’s strange to me and it seems like the most ocd thing i’ve experienced during childhood, but it could just be me being weird too. thank you for your response:)
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- 4y ago
Me too. It’s when it is first happening you look into it more but I think the more it’s in you it settles in and just goes around and a round “naturally”
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ugh i hate it
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- 4y ago
i’m worried that this ocd because i don’t think i have ocd symptoms from before now (like in childhood)* also would like to add at the end “it feels like i don’t have as many symptoms as when this first started”
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- Date posted
- 4y ago
A strong thing about having symptoms that seem like OCD is that even though those urges are strong, you can stop when needed. You can't do these anymore with OCD. For me, the symptoms that appeared at the beginning (i got diagnosed with OCD at 13) were things like, not being able to stop, feeling like something bad is going to happen if I don't go through with the compulsion, not being able to get rid of certain thoughts even if they extremly bothered me. But please remember, everyone has other symptoms, so look out! (Sorry if there are any grammatical errors, english is my second language)
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- 13w ago
Trying not to seek reassurance, but rather connect the dots on my OCD and possible reasons as to why I am the way I am. I have severe OCD (or at least I hope I do) mainly surrounding POCD. I've had symptoms of OCD the majority of my life but this theme has come up more recently. When I was a kid, and i'm talking 6-7, I was first exposed to some really gross adult content online. It was introduced to me by a friend of mine around the same age of me. I saw some really disgusting things that a 6-7 year old should definitely not see. This was not a one time occurrence, as I had been exposed to taboo topics online years to come after that, such as the same friend introducing me to Omegle... And i'm sure you can imagine how that went, theres a lot of genuinely disgusting human beings on there. Coming back to the reason for making this post; is it possible to early exposure to this content could be one of the reasons I struggle with POCD? It genuinely scares me to death because you hear that real p*dos dealt with simular situations when they were kids, so thats kind of making me feel that this could be more than OCD, and I could be a genuinely bad person. My POCD feels so real, that at times i'm fully convinced its not OCD. Sometimes I can't even distinguish the feelings of attraction between a younger person and an older person, except for the feeling of anxiety and fear. Its really hard to explain without going into detail, but it just feels so real. Some feedback on this would be great, thank you all.
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- 12w ago
Hi, I’m new here!! I’m praying I don’t get judged for this. But, back in late May of 2022 ( literally right before I graduated high school), I added this one random girl from my school on Snapchat. She posted something about a graduation party , so I swiped up on her story basically saying how I can’t believe we’re almost graduated. She replied and we had a really short and simple conversation. The next day ( i believe) , we started talking a lot , and I just so happened to see her at the highschool when we were grabbing our graduation outfits and doing the rehearsal. When I saw her irl, I kinda got turned off ( I heard she was kinda crazy) , and on top of that , she was a little ugly irl. I remember seeing her Snapchat bio , and she was close friends with my female cousin ( a year younger than me) , who I happened to experiment sexually with when I was 10-11 years old. I remember going to work later that day and having sort of a lightbulb flick thought ( it wasn’t a good thought though) , what if my cousin told her about what happened when we were younger? So I started to kind of panic and immediately distanced myself from that girl. I also experimented sexually with one of my female friends when I was 10-11 , and from that day onwards, I’ve been pretty much living in paranoia and a little bit of guilt about someone finding out and my life being ruined . On top of that, It’s gotten worse to now sometimes I wonder if a girl I added off of quick add ( Snapchat) is underage even if they told me they were 18+ or had 18 and above in their bio, and I get so much guilt and anxiety about that. I even had a quick thought last February on what if I did something inappropriate with my younger cousin when I was 15-16 but I just can’t exactly remember when it happened , and it still eats me alive when I think about it, because I don’t know if it happened or not. I’m sorry for the long vent, I just wish I felt normal again. No matter how much I try to do things that old me used to do, life always feels “ off”. I always kept the top part about when I was younger a secret up until early (ish ) 2024, then I vented to one of my best friends and he told me that that’s a normal thing to do at a young age. Since then, I have told multiple friends and they all say they did similar stuff, but my brain just can’t accept that. Please help me, I quite literally overthink everything nowadays. 2021 was the last full year that I felt normal ( coincidentally, the best year of my life so far) . It’s not just about sexual related things either, sometimes I’ll wonder if I messed up something at work or hit a car while driving/hit someone and drove off. I just wanna live my life how I was supposed to live it after highschool ( carefree and happy) before whatever it is ( I think it’s ocd) hit me unexpectedly. Thanks to anyone who read this , I just needed to pour it out regardless of how negative I felt typing this, I hope someone can relate , because I feel so alone in my head at times.
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- 9w ago
(20f) I have been dealing with severe OCD symptoms for as long as I can remember. I recently got diagnosed about a year ago, and even though I know that these thoughts are probably my ocd, I still cant shake them. Growing up I was always very sexually curious. I was sheltered from a lot of things, as I went to a private school and things like sexuality and sex were never talked about. I remember doing some weird sexual things growing up (never affecting another person), looking up taboo sexual things, etc. I always seemed to become aroused no matter what the situation was, even if I just saw someone getting changed. I have no recollection of being SA'd, so i'm wondering where this all came from? Was I just curious and wanted to experiment and try different things? Or am I really a pervert, pedophile, etc. I have all these thoughts racing through my head and it's killing me. Everything I did as a kid I look back on and am disgusted, as those don't align with my views at all today. I never thought growing up thinking these things were wrong, or actually realize what they were until I got older. I'd like to think it was just my curiosity, but i'm not sure. What if i'm in denial and actually do like these things? I just need to know if theres something wrong w me, I cant keep going on like this. Could really use some advice.
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