Hey everyone. Feeling worried about judgment but at least I know I'm among friends here. My worst obsession by far, and since childhood, is sexual OCD. Particularly, my obsessions relate to incestual relations. Sometimes the thoughts include children and even animals. It's absolutely horrific and puts me into a short but severe state of what I might call shame-induced shock. It's like this overwhelming sensation to crawl out of my skin and just not exist. It was very validating for me to be put on Zoloft for my OCD after 10 years of mis-diagnoses. The Zoloft pretty much stopped all of those obsessions in their tracks and for the first time I felt like a normal human being. Not to mention, the fact that the Zoloft was effective helped me to realize that those thoughts had NO basis in reality or my actual feelings, and were simply a product of the disease. Lately, they've been coming back. Idk if it's my meds stopping working or maybe not having been in therapy for a while or something else entirely but I'm becoming more and more disturbed. It's to the point where I feel uncomfortable with and even resentful towards the idea of spending time with my parents because I don't want to think those thoughts around them and want them to stay away from me. I have no where else to talk about this to. I know it's only a symptom of OCD but I feel like disgusting and it's really getting to me. This is the kind of thing that caused me to drink and use drugs in the past. I'm now almost 2 years sober and I'm worried that these thoughts will effect my recovery. Thank you for listening. Means more than you know.

Keep fighting. Possibly going back to therapy might help set you back into the recovery process. Or maybe just a trip to the GP might provide the best path for you.

Every day is a different set of battles. Today I’m exhausted from the anxiety I’ve been experiencing over Christmas with regards to my pocd. So hard. I’m receiving therapy. Only scratched the surface at the moment. I’m hopeful it’ll help in the long run. Stay strong!!!

I’m so sorry. I would definitely try to go back to therapy, maybe just a few sessions to get you in the right mind set. Or maybe a medication change! Keep fighting you can do this!

I'm on 200mg now but I was told it's possible to hit the ceiling for amount, like they need to lower you to let the medicine work again. Last time I went to doc they put me down to 150. Symptoms seemed to worsen then get better. But now they're back again (and I started taking my 200 again) so I should prob go back to the 150 and stop playing pharmacist lol

Yes definitely go to your doctor and try to see if they recommend a different med or changing dosages, you can find a solution to feel better!

I’m also on Sertraline and Quetiapine to try to dampen the thoughts and feelings of depression. X

Thank you. I'm in contact with a possible new therapist which I'm looking forward to. I have a probably irrational fear of discussing my OCD symptoms with GPS, but it's certainly worth considering. I appreciate your words.

Thank you. It feels so good to have people be supportive instead of judging me or thinking I'm a pervert because of these thoughts. I agree about therapy and am waiting to hear back about an appt with psych. I will keep fighting

Welcome :) also what dosage of Zoloft? I just started zoloft and my therapist told me that ocd often need high dosages, looks like ocd dosage can go up to 200mg of Zoloft. Maybe you need an increase