My therapist who isn’t familiar with all the types of OCD said that there’s something wrong with me and that this isn’t ocd. He said ocd shouldn’t tell you to do things like hurt people. I’m scared.

Hey so my therapist doesn’t know a lot about ocd and I think I might get a new one but she told me that during this time it’s normal to question “my morals” and now I’m scared I’m actually questioning my morals. I haven’t actually thought any questioning thoughts and now I’m scared that I am. I’m scared that I’m going to be okay with harming people, pedophilia, rape, etc. not to ask for reassurance but this is really hard. I’m constantly scared that I’m going to all of the sudden think those things are okay.

just a couple days ago i experienced this for the first time from watching the new DAHMER series. Im having intrusive images and thoughts of me harming or killing my loved ones and its so scary because i would never do it. It has me questioning if im crazy and im having severe panic attacks over 3 times a day. Im mentally and physically drained, i’ve told my mom about it and we are going to see a therapist tomorrow. Im scared to because idk if they specialize in OCD and if i tell them my thoughts they are gonna put me in the mental hospital or say im crazy and don’t have OCD, can any therapists on here or fellow people with Harm OCD let me know if you think im showing signs of it, i just want it to go away and to be able to sleep at night without severe overthinking.

TW: taking human rights away, people misunderstanding your OCD - - Note: this wasn’t anyone at NOCD It was very hard and I’m worried that they’ll do something like lock me away just in case my thoughts are real or something like that. They did reassure me that they’ve heard thoughts like that from people before and they made it clear they understood what OCD and intrusive thoughts are… but they also ‘had to’ (their words) ask if I have ever acted on my thoughts etc (which I of course said no) but it still triggered me to feel doubt and like maybe I was lying to them. And also, since I’ve got to this stage of telling professionals, I feel a diagnosis may come soon and I’m worried about what if I’m not actually OCD. If I’m not I don’t know what I’d do (do as in figuratively, I’m not saying I might do something)… Can the intrusive thoughts still be not real if they’re not OCD? Also though, I told them about my mental compulsions but after they still asked if I do anything like have a physical routine I have to do (no) which makes me worried maybe they’re not familiar with mental compulsions being a thing.