anonk
- Date posted
- 6y
SoniclenSoniclen
- Date posted
- 6y
Congratulations first of all. Did the spiking start after you found out about your pregnancy? As in got worse or was it escalating before hand? Chances are that it got worse because your brain knows you will have a child which naturally drives that fear circuit.
I eat boysI eat boys
- Date posted
- 6y
Do you reckon maybe it’s worse because you’re pregnant? I heard during menstruation and pregnancy it becomes worse
anonkanonk
- Date posted
- 6y
This is the worse it’s ever been in the years I’ve had it so quite possibly :(
I eat boysI eat boys
- Date posted
- 6y
I would talk to your therapist about it just to make sure
anonkanonk
- Date posted
- 6y
I had pocd for seven years before seeing a psychologist and it’s been up and down since. Last year was mainly ok then all of a sudden around 20 weeks it was the worst it’s ever been. The last 3 weeks have been absolutely hell, crying everyday and barely functioning. My psychologist has said I may need to visit a psychiatrist / outpatient clinic as “she’s given me all the answers” have done a bit of ERP therapy with her. Feeling so so hopeless. Soniclen sorry for reassurance question do you find you get an intrusive thought and straightaway feel like you enjoy it?
SoniclenSoniclen
- Date posted
- 6y
You know I can’t answer that Anonk. I’ve run these same questions. Are we really proving to the brain that these thoughts are not relevant? Let’s say the worst happens and there is SOMETHING, that no matter how small COULD pose a threat - do we need to see it as so bad or can we simply redirect towards our values and trust our brain and all it’s drives etc will follow? We know why we got stuck on such a terrible topic. I remember the day my brain broke for God’s sake. So why not trust in what we want and value ourselves on and pride ourselves by, and not by some horrible thought that then become over learned? Anonk - it is technically possible to develop such interests. But that just means the chance of you liking this is greater than 0%. I absolutely loathe it, but it was hard for my brain to ignore it because it was so scary. As I write this I am getting triggered, and no answer will provide 100% certainty. So I’m after self trust, understanding that I’m biologically wired one way and should not pay heed to interference from obsessions. I’ll leave you with this: A good while back a friend of mine was talking to a young niece of his. When she walked away he turned to me and said ‘she’ll be really fit when she’s older’. I spiked a bit as I thought it was inappropriate at the time, but even though she was young, he could recognise that she was pretty, and would grow into a potential very sexually attractive woman.he didn’t get stuck on thoughts. Maybe we should understand that having an answer is fine, and to stop looking for THE answer (whatever the fuck that is).
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Anonymous
- Date posted
- 24w
Relapse
I'm 20 weeks pregnant, have suffered with ocd since 16. Had a mental break down over a year ago. Here I am feeling like I am relapsing and the thoughts are out of control, and even worse now that I feel guilty I am causing my baby stress when it's not his fault.
Anony1314
- Date posted
- 22w
Someone help me please
Please help me. I need support. I just need someone to be up front with me. Tell me the truth. I want to get past it all. I'm struggling STRUGGLING today. My mind is telling me I'm the only one who is dealing with something like this. Idk why I did my biggest fear. I was put on a new medication when this happened which caused me to spiral, my thoughts to be more often, and have insomnia. I have been diagnosed with POCD as well. I woke up in the middle of the night when my child was laying completely cross my chest. I was breathing and having groinal sensations. My mind told me that I assaulted her by this, and I was going to prison for it. My thoughts started going like this, "you're already bad might as well do something else", "no sense in stopping now" "you can finally do what you've always wanted", "what would you do if you could do anything to cause harm" So I had to think of what to do in the moment. The only thing I could think to do was move my elbow towards my child's groin. In the moment it felt like I really wanted to do this. I proceeded to do so, and my elbow touched her groin. I immediately told my child to move off me. I then went back to sleep. When I woke up, I began panicking, confessing to a family member what happened, and crying immensely. I feel like I failed as a mother. I'm in such distress since I started sleeping on the floor to avoid it from happening again, and I got off the medication. I'm so much better OCD wise since I got off the meds. I was the BEST mom months ago before this happened. The thoughts have always bothered me, and I was always scared I would give in and act on them. I'm living my worst nightmare. I feel alone. Felt so wanted in the moment and SO real. Ugh. Could someone just give me some support? (edited)
Anony1314
- Date posted
- 22w
Please someone comment. Struggling POCD mom.
Please please help me. I need support. I just need someone to be up front with me. Tell me the truth. I want to get past it all. I'm struggling STRUGGLING today. My mind is telling me I'm the only one who is dealing with something like this. Idk why I did my biggest fear. I was put on a new medication when this happened which caused me to spiral, my thoughts to be more often, and have insomnia. I have been diagnosed with POCD as well. I woke up in the middle of the night when my child was laying completely cross my chest. I was breathing and having groinal sensations. My mind told me that I assaulted her by this, and I was going to prison for it. My thoughts started going like this, "you're already bad might as well do something else", "no sense in stopping now" "you can finally do what you've always wanted", "what would you do if you could do anything to cause harm" So I had to think of what to do in the moment. The only thing I could think to do was move my elbow towards my child's groin. In the moment it felt like I really wanted to do this. I proceeded to do so, and my elbow touched her groin. I immediately told my child to move off me. I then went back to sleep. When I woke up, I began panicking, confessing to a family member what happened, and crying immensely. I feel like I failed as a mother. I'm in such distress since I started sleeping on the floor to avoid it from happening again, and I got off the medication. I'm so much better OCD wise since I got off the meds. I was the BEST mom months ago before this happened. The thoughts have always bothered me, and I was always scared I would give in and act on them. I'm living my worst nightmare. I feel alone. Felt so wanted in the moment and SO real. Ugh. Could someone just give me some support? (edited)
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