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And if I didn’t tell her every single thought I would feel like she didn’t have enough info to determine if I was a bad person so if I forgot something I would call her back in my room to finish the thought then ask “so now that I’ve told you the whole story, now do you think I’m a bad person?”. I have a psychiatrist that I’m seeing but you know how that’s mainly just for quick med checks. She was the one who told me that the ecstasy didn’t create this problem but just brought it out
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Oh my gosh... you literally sound like me.. I did that exact thing where if I didn’t tell my mom then I would feel this tremendous guilt that I was lying to her, or hiding stuff away from her. It’s so weird to actually hear that someone felt and did the same things as you... I’m glad you’re seeing someone because that’s your best bet to get better. I just started seeing a therapist today and I’m going to see my psychiatrist tomorrow because I just feel SOOO anxious and depressed lately...:/ just know you’re not alone
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@Animallover065 I feel like that when i dont tell her things now and i have to tell her everything and she has to pay full attention or i start again and i tell her every detail and its annoying and if i dont i stress out like mad and i annoy most people by doing it
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I smoked a joint on vacation back in September with my guy. Holy damn... My anxiety and rOCD went crazy. It was like panic attack number two. Intrusive thoughts were on over drive. And they were ridiculous thoughts! I knew they were but they felt so real. I also thought I'd never come out of that high. I was freaking out. The interesting thing is is that I've never had anxiety from weed before- but i also barely smoke. It's like once in a blue moon. And now... I will say- I will never smoke a joint ever again (sadly). It was a terrible time. I hated every second of it. I never wanna go back to that. I think it was the THC compound that really set off anxiety and ocd.
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I was freaking out for 4-6 straight days. Dudes.... It was a nightmare. CBD ftw
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ive never done ecstasy but i smoked weed recreationally from like 22 until recently im now 28 and in the past few years i used weed to like help with unwinding at home after stressful days at work then i was using it to help me fall asleep when i had more stress going on and i believe ive had ocd since i was at least 12 but didnt realize it and it would come in waves but yeah my life got very stressful and depressing this year and weed stopped calming me down and started making me more anxious until one time the next day i woke up and had anxiety attacks all day and that continued on and off for like three days until i went to patient first and got something to regulate me and it was non stop intrusive thoughts like i couldnt turn my thoughts off if i tried i couldnt sleep i couldnt eat it was bad and scary and thats what actually got me to get diagnosed so i definitely think drugs can make people with anxiety or ocd and other things like that worse its just weird that id never had that experience before with weed and now im never going to smoke again ive had bad ocd moments since then not caused by weed but i do think that smoking like intensified everything anyway hope that helps also there is an episode of the ocd stories podicast where they talk about someone whose ocd started after getting high once and his theme became obsessing over how do you know if youve become psychotic or "lost your mind" his fear was he was going crazy and didnt know it all from that one experience and that its actually pretty normal hopefully i can find the episode for you
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Yes please if you find it, send it! I cannot handle weed! It gives me the weirdest thoughts and major anxiety. That is weird that you went all that time smoking without those symptoms. Did your doctor say anything about that? I had done ecstasy a handful of times prior to this occasion but I think this time I just did too much cause it was so much more intense this time. I think it’s safe to say I do not handle drugs well and I am staying far away from them now!
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@Kingston4 yes i mean im not sure why that time it happened but i had bad events in my life happen before i smoked and i think instead of easing my anxiety it made it worse ... couldve been the strain or couldve been that my life hasnt been this stressful until recently ocd can be episodic for some people and get worse at different times my therapist never examined that she actually didnt care too much about the weed i mentioned it in my first appointment then we did diagnostics and mainly focused on themes and doing my erps which was probably for the best because it might not be helpful for my therapist to help me over analyze why something happened when i do that too much anyway lol but yeah when i find the episode ill post it here
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@Kingston4 lol and i feel the same way about drugs now too
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@Kingston4 the podcast is called "the ocd stories" and its episode 211 called John Grayson and Bob Cianfrone - the fear of going crazy ... hope it helps :)
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@Anonymously Thank you!
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I did the SAME thing in 3rd grade... I would tell my mom everything I was thinking or that crossed my mind because I felt so distraught over these thoughts... All my life I have delt with similar thoughts like yours, I would have obsessions over things. I’m actually 20 and I completely understand. I’ve never tried drugs, so I’m not sure. Are you seeing a therapist or a psychiatrist??
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Trying not to seek reassurance, but rather connect the dots on my OCD and possible reasons as to why I am the way I am. I have severe OCD (or at least I hope I do) mainly surrounding POCD. I've had symptoms of OCD the majority of my life but this theme has come up more recently. When I was a kid, and i'm talking 6-7, I was first exposed to some really gross adult content online. It was introduced to me by a friend of mine around the same age of me. I saw some really disgusting things that a 6-7 year old should definitely not see. This was not a one time occurrence, as I had been exposed to taboo topics online years to come after that, such as the same friend introducing me to Omegle... And i'm sure you can imagine how that went, theres a lot of genuinely disgusting human beings on there. Coming back to the reason for making this post; is it possible to early exposure to this content could be one of the reasons I struggle with POCD? It genuinely scares me to death because you hear that real p*dos dealt with simular situations when they were kids, so thats kind of making me feel that this could be more than OCD, and I could be a genuinely bad person. My POCD feels so real, that at times i'm fully convinced its not OCD. Sometimes I can't even distinguish the feelings of attraction between a younger person and an older person, except for the feeling of anxiety and fear. Its really hard to explain without going into detail, but it just feels so real. Some feedback on this would be great, thank you all.
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Hi, I’m new here!! I’m praying I don’t get judged for this. But, back in late May of 2022 ( literally right before I graduated high school), I added this one random girl from my school on Snapchat. She posted something about a graduation party , so I swiped up on her story basically saying how I can’t believe we’re almost graduated. She replied and we had a really short and simple conversation. The next day ( i believe) , we started talking a lot , and I just so happened to see her at the highschool when we were grabbing our graduation outfits and doing the rehearsal. When I saw her irl, I kinda got turned off ( I heard she was kinda crazy) , and on top of that , she was a little ugly irl. I remember seeing her Snapchat bio , and she was close friends with my female cousin ( a year younger than me) , who I happened to experiment sexually with when I was 10-11 years old. I remember going to work later that day and having sort of a lightbulb flick thought ( it wasn’t a good thought though) , what if my cousin told her about what happened when we were younger? So I started to kind of panic and immediately distanced myself from that girl. I also experimented sexually with one of my female friends when I was 10-11 , and from that day onwards, I’ve been pretty much living in paranoia and a little bit of guilt about someone finding out and my life being ruined . On top of that, It’s gotten worse to now sometimes I wonder if a girl I added off of quick add ( Snapchat) is underage even if they told me they were 18+ or had 18 and above in their bio, and I get so much guilt and anxiety about that. I even had a quick thought last February on what if I did something inappropriate with my younger cousin when I was 15-16 but I just can’t exactly remember when it happened , and it still eats me alive when I think about it, because I don’t know if it happened or not. I’m sorry for the long vent, I just wish I felt normal again. No matter how much I try to do things that old me used to do, life always feels “ off”. I always kept the top part about when I was younger a secret up until early (ish ) 2024, then I vented to one of my best friends and he told me that that’s a normal thing to do at a young age. Since then, I have told multiple friends and they all say they did similar stuff, but my brain just can’t accept that. Please help me, I quite literally overthink everything nowadays. 2021 was the last full year that I felt normal ( coincidentally, the best year of my life so far) . It’s not just about sexual related things either, sometimes I’ll wonder if I messed up something at work or hit a car while driving/hit someone and drove off. I just wanna live my life how I was supposed to live it after highschool ( carefree and happy) before whatever it is ( I think it’s ocd) hit me unexpectedly. Thanks to anyone who read this , I just needed to pour it out regardless of how negative I felt typing this, I hope someone can relate , because I feel so alone in my head at times.
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Hey friends, I hope you all are well. I just wanted to check in and ask people's experiences about being on medication. I have had OCD pretty much my whole life, just got recently diagnosed 4 months ago and my therapist recommended that I get on meds for it so I have a psychiatrist appointment set up. I'm a little apprehensive about getting on them, but I've realized that I do have some sort of chemical imbalance in my brain that plays a part in my OCD and anxiety. I would love to hear anyones experiences or words of encouragement. Thank you, I hope you all are well.
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