Have any of you experimented with drugs and it made your ocd worse? I’ve had anxiety since I was very little. I remember being in 3rd grade and having intrusive thoughts, (though I didn’t realize that’s what they were until learning more about OCD more recently.) I would go to my mom crying/panicking that I didn’t know if I was gay or questioning whether I had sexual feelings for my dad or brother. I always thought of OCD as compulsive hand washing and the more stereotypical OCD symptoms. So, now I’m starting to realize that I thought I had just generalized anxiety but it’s actually ocd. I’m 25 and felt like for the most part I had gotten my anxiety under control or more manageable at least, it didn’t consume my life like it did when I was in high school. Then one day with my friends I tried ecstasy. It’s not even like I had a bad time on it or anything but literally a week after doing it, I started obsessing over how I felt while on it and how intense it was. I couldn’t stop obsessing and eventually told myself that the ecstasy forever messed me up and my brain will never go back to normal and of course went to google where I read some very scary things. I guess it was just panic attacks I was having. My doctor said that while she can’t diagnose me after one visit, this did sound like ocd and that my obsessions most likely aren’t a result of the drug and it was already a part of me, but the drugs brought it out in me. I am doing so much better than I was a year ago right after I took the drug but still some days I question if ecstasy made me go crazy and how would I know if it made me crazy

And if I didn’t tell her every single thought I would feel like she didn’t have enough info to determine if I was a bad person so if I forgot something I would call her back in my room to finish the thought then ask “so now that I’ve told you the whole story, now do you think I’m a bad person?”. I have a psychiatrist that I’m seeing but you know how that’s mainly just for quick med checks. She was the one who told me that the ecstasy didn’t create this problem but just brought it out

I smoked a joint on vacation back in September with my guy. Holy damn... My anxiety and rOCD went crazy. It was like panic attack number two. Intrusive thoughts were on over drive. And they were ridiculous thoughts! I knew they were but they felt so real. I also thought I'd never come out of that high. I was freaking out. The interesting thing is is that I've never had anxiety from weed before- but i also barely smoke. It's like once in a blue moon. And now... I will say- I will never smoke a joint ever again (sadly). It was a terrible time. I hated every second of it. I never wanna go back to that. I think it was the THC compound that really set off anxiety and ocd.

ive never done ecstasy but i smoked weed recreationally from like 22 until recently im now 28 and in the past few years i used weed to like help with unwinding at home after stressful days at work then i was using it to help me fall asleep when i had more stress going on and i believe ive had ocd since i was at least 12 but didnt realize it and it would come in waves but yeah my life got very stressful and depressing this year and weed stopped calming me down and started making me more anxious until one time the next day i woke up and had anxiety attacks all day and that continued on and off for like three days until i went to patient first and got something to regulate me and it was non stop intrusive thoughts like i couldnt turn my thoughts off if i tried i couldnt sleep i couldnt eat it was bad and scary and thats what actually got me to get diagnosed so i definitely think drugs can make people with anxiety or ocd and other things like that worse its just weird that id never had that experience before with weed and now im never going to smoke again ive had bad ocd moments since then not caused by weed but i do think that smoking like intensified everything anyway hope that helps also there is an episode of the ocd stories podicast where they talk about someone whose ocd started after getting high once and his theme became obsessing over how do you know if youve become psychotic or "lost your mind" his fear was he was going crazy and didnt know it all from that one experience and that its actually pretty normal hopefully i can find the episode for you

I did the SAME thing in 3rd grade... I would tell my mom everything I was thinking or that crossed my mind because I felt so distraught over these thoughts... All my life I have delt with similar thoughts like yours, I would have obsessions over things. I’m actually 20 and I completely understand. I’ve never tried drugs, so I’m not sure. Are you seeing a therapist or a psychiatrist??