Hey everyone!! So I’ve been diagnosed with moderate ocd. Sometimes when a new symptom arises with my ocd, I don’t how to combat it. Since I have ocd, sometimes I get scared that it might mean somethings else. So basically I have this weird thing where I need to pull my hair or rip it out. I thought it was trichotillomania but I’m not sure. I was gonna talk about it in therapy today but I forgot. When this happens I usually get a feeling in my scalp where I have to pull or rip my hair out to feel better. It is weird. Sometimes I don’t need to pull my hair out, I can get that satisfaction just from tugging of it and feeling the hair being tugged . The feeling of needing to pull my hair even shows up no only on my scalp but my shoulder muscle and I have to pull my hair or stretch it to feel better. I’m not sure if it is Tourette’s. Can someone let me know if they have had this or similar to it. What if so what is it? Is it just plain ocd. Help!!

I need to know if someone else experience this because I think this may be the root of some of my ocd themes. So basically even when I don't really have a theme going on I get intrusive thoughts of different topics. For example if I'm reading an article about a person with ADHD my mind tells that maybe I have adhd and because if I had I'd be different, and it feels like I want to even though I don't do because I know how destressing it is to live with such disorders and who would ever want to develop a disorder like that. I get intrusive thoughts like about illnesses, identities and other things and my mind says that I have to have those things because they would make me different and my mind wanted me to be different in that way. And it felt like I wanted those things even tho I know how terrible they affect people and didn't really wanted to have them. Now it tells me the same thing about gender and sexuality that I have to be different in that way while I don't and it's causing me hocd right now. I guess this is my final answer but I wanted to know if somebody else experienced something like this. Like sometimes I get depressive episodes because of my anxiety and ocd but once I became obsessed with the idea of having chronic severe depression and I got so anxious but then felt relieved when I didn't but then my intrusive thoughts would pop up here and there

Hey everyone. This is my first post here and it’s probably going to be a long one because I guess I feel comfortable enough to be open here. I need help. When I first got diagnosed with OCD, I figured it only impacted a small part of my life. I thought I was only affected with compulsions and obsessions that dealt with contamination, tangible perfectionism and the obvious intrusive thoughts and that’s it. Well, I’ve come to realize that most of my thinking has been impacted by OCD. At this point the only way to describe how it feels to me is a forest of thorny vines growing in place of my mind or maybe through and around my brain constantly growing every-time I give into this type of thinking (which is basically all the time because I wasn’t aware this was OCD). I’ve definitely felt it more recently, but I know it’s always been there from what I recall from past memories. I got diagnosed not so long ago with OCD and I was happy to because it explained this thing I knew was wrong with me but I didn’t know how much it will and has impacted me in the past. So, I think I’ve created a matrix in my mind or strengthened the OCD thought patterns because now I feel like my OCD impacts everything I do. And I guess I’m saying I need help here because maybe you guys will be able to see it, maybe validate me and point me where I can get help. I’ve been telling the people around me, I think my thinking is disordered and I need help but I don’t think they really understand the amount it’s affecting me or grasp what I meant when I say “I Need Help”. I did have a therapist before but because of a insurance change, she can’t work with me anymore and I’m not sure when I’ll get another (just to clarify). Back to the matter, the past couple of months I’ve been in my head just thinking and thinking. About everything. To the point where my head starts to hurt or until I feel sick of thinking about it but I can’t. I find that’s my obsessions and compulsions (other than the need for order [which can also be mental]) are very mentally based and I find myself ashamed of them so I hide them so maybe that’s why the people around me don’t feel my need for getting help as much as I do. Anyways, examples of this have been, -constantly thinking about what’s the purpose of all of life and the hidden messages in life -feeling like if I don’t do everything perfectly then what the point or being very mad at myself -being obsessed with how I present to the rest of the world sometimes even in close relationships -having calculated movements and actions (having to move my body a certain way or it doesn’t feel right) -obsessing over an absolute truth -questioning friendships and other relationships - obsessing over achievements or failures -obsessing over people -obsessing over decisions and outcomes because I want to make the perfect decisions I could go on and on but basically it’s just a lot of thinking and ruminating and obsessing to the point where people tell me I look like I’m some where else all the time. And I’ve started to feel like I find comfort in it now. I’m also diagnosed with depression and anxiety and I feel like it’s all just OCD. And same goes for my dissociation. I feel like they all root from my OCD. I’m so tired of feeling like this all the time and without my therapist I feel like I’m stuck here. I can’t make decisions, I’m never present, I can’t make or keep friendships/ relationships, everything impacts me deeply because I create a emotional obsession to it, I can’t just be without questioning everything and I’m constantly in my head. I’ve also started getting high all the time because I feel like it’s the only way to escape my brain but I’ve felt like it’s getting out of hand. I’m starting to lose in any type of hope of getting better. Does anyone have an advice for working on OCD by yourself or identifying when it’s OCD (especially mental obsessions and compulsions) so I can start to chip at this boulder that’s weighing down my life and energy?

Hi, my name is Grace and I am a 17 year old. For the longest time my brain has been very hyper focused on little things. I always just thought it was small ADHD because my mom and sister have it. Although, these past two years it has become unbearable. I will be up all night with intrusive thoughts of a variety of things. I always feel wrong trying to figure out what’s wrong because I know some people really suffer from bad OCD. Although, i find myself focusing on small things in life and not being able to stop. For a small example, I play softball and I have to wear my hair up. Although, if there is literally the smaller bump and I feel it, i won’t be able to stop thinking about it. Every. Single. Time. this happens. It’s gotten to the point where I realize I can’t stop thinking about it and try to remind myself it’s not that big of deal, but every time I always end up redoing it. I understand that my hair isn’t a problem, and I can live with it. It’s just that I find it also happening in other circumstances. If something is messed up, i will smack the hell out of myself to forget about it. I know that’s wrong but it’s the only thing that’s helping me. In the end, I don’t even know if this is OCD. It’s might be very light OCD or some sort of ADHD sign but it’s exhausting and I want some things that can help.