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- 6y
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- 6y
I have contamination OCD. It’s a tough one. Does anyone have a “clean” world and a separate “contaminated” world? I am hoping clinical trials will help bring some relief.
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I struggle with this! I carry hand sanitizer wherever I go! I wash my hands so often they bleed. I also have to wash my belongings ALL THE TIME. It’s so embarrassing and no one quite understands the level of discomfort caused when you encounter a triggering thought/situation. Delaying works in some instances with my contamination fears. I try and cope with the subsequent panic caused by triggers by delaying my washing rituals for a couple of minutes. It’s really, really hard but hopefully it’ll get easier :)) Hopefully you’re feeling better soon! d a i s y
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for me, it got worse before it got better. i tried a lot of things because i was washing my hands for too long and too many times each day. my doctor told me to count how many each day and try to get the amount of times down by one each week. she also showed me the back of soap and it says to use two pumps for 15 seconds. that worked with me because i knew that if the packet said that was the right amount then it will be safe. it was hard but i got there in the end and i’m much better now. never give up, good luck and i’m here to talk.
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- 6y
NoleGuy...yes i have ‘safe’ and ‘non safe’ objects. Good luck with the trials!!!
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- OCD Conqueror
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- 6y
I am sure there are more people out there that have separate worlds-clean and contaminated. Goal is to merge the two and always feel that nothing is contaminated. Or if things are dirty, that’s okay.
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It would be so amazing for the two worlds to be able to interact. Hopefully we’ll get there some day! d a i s y
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Do you see therapy for ocd?
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@NoleGuy Yes!! I’ve never found anyone that can relate to that! It’s really hard living between “clean” and “contaminated” worlds, because if they collide it’s sends me into a frenzy of panic. d a i s y
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Thank you guys for replying! I also have the clean world and the contaminated world and it is so frustrating to always avoid things every where I am, including my own room. Thank you guys for your help!
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- 23w
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