Help me, POCD gets triggered when I hear news or words associated with it. Recently, I saw a news where in a guy raped an 8 year old month baby. And because of curiosity and the disbelief on how .. idk people DO THAT to children, it made me sad and disgusted but also curious? How do they make their genitals fit? Images came up in my head and it disgusts me but why do i feel like i need to see or my brain tells me i have to visuals just for me to understand or stop being curious about it? Even with kiddie porn, i never want to see one bc those shit are supposed to be STOPPED, :( i love children, i love my baby cousins, it makes me sad there are people exploiting their innocence but my curiosity is making me overthink. it makes me think somehow, i do wanna see? Maybe i actually do? Out of curiousity? Like i dont want to google it because its wrong and i dont wanan give them more audiences but its just really, how? How do they do that? Where do they get the children? Are there ways we can also save them from that environment? I dont know. Imm so scared. I feel so wrong and bad for being curious and wanting to see but also torn because i also dont wanna see, i just want those perverts to burn in hell. But what if im one of them? Im a pervert? Its just so controversial :( someone please help i feel like a mean person and im horrible

Having any kind of curiosity about something that is really dark does not mean you would like it. That’s your misinterpretation. Do you think psychological profilers like what offenders do? No, but clearly the subject interests them. Not because they like the content either. My friends wife loves reading about serial killers because she’s fascinated about what makes them do what they do. She’d loathe to do the same thing of course.

Curiosity is not necessarily a problem. The intention is important. Some people have asked the same questions. For example the more horrific it is the more draw we are to know about it. Why do you think child abuse scandals make headline news? People want to know if though they don’t want to know. Your interpretation of this event is what is wrong, and since you have a bunch of themes it is fair to say your alarm system is ringing in everything. Anyway I dare you and will send you £100 if you go and kick your brother next time he moans and shout ‘Ffs stop doing that because I think about doing shit with you when you do!’ Massive exposure and a pay day! I mean wel by this BTW, will I get banned?

I actually saw kiddie porn with my own two eyes and read the disgusting fantasies those sickos put in the captions. It makes me scared because I’m not sure if I actually like looking at it, and my brain tells me I do, and that I’m in denial. That if it wasn’t illegal or socially stigmatized, I’d probably enjoy it. I don’t know what to think anymore, just that there might be a little truth in my thoughts.

No you didn’t!!!! You saw a Japanese styled picture that depicted this. The inference will be that you downloaded actual live illegal footage and you did nothing of the sort!

I saw both it started with the Japanese styled pictures and then I remembered seeing. Child porn on tumblr and it made me think :(

i could use the £100 haha but thank you for that, what do you mean my interpretation is wrong though?