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Having any kind of curiosity about something that is really dark does not mean you would like it. That’s your misinterpretation. Do you think psychological profilers like what offenders do? No, but clearly the subject interests them. Not because they like the content either. My friends wife loves reading about serial killers because she’s fascinated about what makes them do what they do. She’d loathe to do the same thing of course.
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Curiosity is not necessarily a problem. The intention is important. Some people have asked the same questions. For example the more horrific it is the more draw we are to know about it. Why do you think child abuse scandals make headline news? People want to know if though they don’t want to know. Your interpretation of this event is what is wrong, and since you have a bunch of themes it is fair to say your alarm system is ringing in everything. Anyway I dare you and will send you £100 if you go and kick your brother next time he moans and shout ‘Ffs stop doing that because I think about doing shit with you when you do!’ Massive exposure and a pay day! I mean wel by this BTW, will I get banned?
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I actually saw kiddie porn with my own two eyes and read the disgusting fantasies those sickos put in the captions. It makes me scared because I’m not sure if I actually like looking at it, and my brain tells me I do, and that I’m in denial. That if it wasn’t illegal or socially stigmatized, I’d probably enjoy it. I don’t know what to think anymore, just that there might be a little truth in my thoughts.
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No you didn’t!!!! You saw a Japanese styled picture that depicted this. The inference will be that you downloaded actual live illegal footage and you did nothing of the sort!
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I saw both it started with the Japanese styled pictures and then I remembered seeing. Child porn on tumblr and it made me think :(
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i could use the £100 haha but thank you for that, what do you mean my interpretation is wrong though?
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- 23w
I’m a csa survivor which made me develop hypersexuality while actually being a asexual individual. (Where I did CP and talked to groomers and sexted, ect ect) A few months ago I’ve started to heal, but the fact that I’ve seen so many private parts since I was idk, young? I imagine them everywhere, it’s really frustrating and sometimes I also get intrusive thoughts about other kids or my siblings. It’s deeply distributing but I also kind of think of it from a curious kind of aspect which I despise too. Honestly I have a hard time with any kid in underwear, my intrusive thoughts have been ALOT the last months and they’re really really overwhelming. I also easily go into overanalysing them or even trying to figure out more clearer the thoughts to “test myself”. I think, I hope. Idk it’s scary
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𝕊𝕔𝕒𝕣𝕪 𝕚𝕟𝕔𝕚𝕕𝕖𝕟𝕥 😞𝕋𝕎𝕋𝕎𝕋𝕎 ℙ𝕃𝔼𝔸𝕊𝔼 𝔻𝕆ℕ'𝕋 ℝ𝔼𝔸𝔻 𝕀𝔽 𝔼𝔸𝕊𝕀𝕃𝕐 𝔻𝕀𝕊𝕋𝕌ℝ𝔹𝔼𝔻 𝔹𝕐 𝕋ℍ𝔼𝕄𝔼𝕊 𝕎𝕀𝕋ℍ 𝕂𝕀𝔻𝕊 hi everyone, I am really struggling with something disturbing and I'm so afraid I'm a PDF. So my sis came to visit with my nephew for the first time. So the other day we were taking pics with the baby I was already feeling kinda nervous cuz I never held a baby before. Anyway it was my turn and I like I wonder if this would sexually stimulate him( not exactly the thought but the of thought was more graphic and I don't wanna disturb anyone). And I can't remember if I thought that while I was bumping him on my stomach (like how people bump babies on their hips) or before I started doing so. Anyways I can't really remember what my reaction to that thought was or if I started bumping him before or after I had that thought... So I tried not to think much of it but over time I started to spiral really bad and wonder why I thought that and why then I would bump him on my stomach after having that thought or during. I just feel so disgusted. Like was I curious about it? Did I disregard the thought because my brain thinks disturbing things? Ik right now away from that situation that ofc I have no sexual interest in my nephew at all. I played with him and helped changed diaper and everything and never had the urge to do anything inappropriate to him besides that one weird instance. So like I'm so disturbed like did that mean something? I have P OCD but that didn't really feel like an intrusive thought? I also can be very impulsive, and if it was impulsive does that mean I had a desire? Now I'm terrified of having kids even though I wanted some or to foster some. I mean I know but myself I'm not sexually attracted to kids but then why would I think that I am so disturbed really and feel so sick. 😞😞😞😞 I don't know what to do I'm so scared about what my motivation was I feel so bad and scared😞😞😞😞
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