Does anyone else use weed either legally medically or self medicate. I want to know what your experience has been. I have smoked for about 5 years everyday multiple times a day and I have stopped self harming but I don’t know if it’s actually had benefits or not. Maybe I should just stop smoking lol. Am also on 150 mg of Effexor and I’m not sure if that has truly helped

Oh, I fully believe that the cannabis is actually helping you. It’s the only thing that will make my mind shut up...or at least quiet down and chill out. A former psychiatrist of mine had me on Xanax for 6 years and it did a nuuumber on my brain chemistry, to put it *lightly*. Now, my anxiety and OCD are pretty ludicrous and debilitating, and now I absolutely refuse to touch benzos because I am quite literally terrified of them. Cannabis, though! Cannabis has legit saved my life. And the best part? I can full-stop cold turkey, with nothing more than some mild irritability.

I did until I couldn't get the kind a need. Sativa strains make me worse, but the right indica makes the world a better place.

indica is a class of weed, specifically the kind with a higher cbd to thc ratio, which lends itself to a more calming effect, as opposed to sativa, which is the opposite, and tends to be more energizing (but can also increase anxiety, hence why it wasn't good for cwgrlup). Both types can be smoked, baked/eaten, made into oil, etc).

In my experience, it just kinda makes me "floaty" enough to kinda forget to do (some) of my compulsions? (And then when I do remember, the reduced anxiety helps me either resist the compulsion, or at least finish it more easily/calmly). However, I have to be really high for that to work, and if you smoke too much too often, and you can build up a resistance (your brain grows back its endocannabinoid receptors relatively quickly, but.) For me, it's a crutch, not a solution; for you, it may or may not be different.

Man, *that's* a mood. Do you feel like it's a crutch that helps take some of the weight so that you can take the rest yourself, or one that keeps you from learning to carry that weight on your own? From how it sounds, you're not particularly satisfied with the habit?

I think of it as a crutch as well.

I think I’m just making excuses. I just need a good reason to stop bc I truly don’t have one

I could definitely possibly actually be helping me. I just get really anxious when I don’t have it. Maybe it’s something I should experiment with. Take a break and come back to it if I feel necessary. There are benefits to cannabis and I should consider those as well

Can someone please explain what indica is and how could I get it in the Uk. Do you smoke it or can you get it as an oil?