Can someone please help me! It's been more than a month or so but for some reason I'm extremely triggered by the words "IN DENIAL" "DENYING" "DENY" etc. And since the time that I've been triggered by them...it seems like I'm coming across them more often than ever . I can't help but think that it says something about me . That it is some sort of message or signal from the universe or God that I'm in denial and I should just accept that I'm a lesbian. Does anyone feel like this too?

Hey! This is completely normal with SOOCD (HOCD in your case)! I think that going down the path of finding out whether other people experience your symptoms can be a little bit stunting to your progress though! I know how rewarding it can feel to know that you’re not alone, but understanding that OCD can’t be treated with this knowledge should hopefully encourage you to dig deeper and get ERP! Virtually anything that relates to homosexuality can be triggering to someone with this theme, the words you listed are just some of the many that may trigger people. You’ll hopefully address this with ERP! You’re not doomed to this form of OCD, and it says NOTHING about you or what you desire (which may be reassurance, but you should know this before you enter ERP)

OCD wants you in the trap of ruminating. I know it has me ruminating all the time. I just had a massive trigger tonight for my SOOCD, so I know how you feel. I always feel like I should just admit it or something, but I don’t want to admit anything becuase I don’t wanna be anything but straight. There’s really nothing for me to admit anyways. Don’t read so much into things, that’s what your OCD wants. Try and let those thoughts pass without judgment. Use the calm app to help you stop ruminating; https://apps.apple.com/us/app/calm/id571800810 Also try the SOS function on this app for HOCD. 💕

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=yF_0bnzEUCE this will help you get some insight on what you’re going through. I went through the same thing and this truly helped me.