- Username
- Lleonesss
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Hey! This is completely normal with SOOCD (HOCD in your case)! I think that going down the path of finding out whether other people experience your symptoms can be a little bit stunting to your progress though! I know how rewarding it can feel to know that you’re not alone, but understanding that OCD can’t be treated with this knowledge should hopefully encourage you to dig deeper and get ERP! Virtually anything that relates to homosexuality can be triggering to someone with this theme, the words you listed are just some of the many that may trigger people. You’ll hopefully address this with ERP! You’re not doomed to this form of OCD, and it says NOTHING about you or what you desire (which may be reassurance, but you should know this before you enter ERP)
Thank you so much!! I'll definitely try some self ERP
@Lleonesss Good! ERP will feel worse before it feels better btw! It’s challenging to say the least, but it really helped with my OCD.
@Ellie So are you off hocd now?
@Lleonesss I’m very close to the end of it. I guess you could say I’m recovered, but the intrusive thoughts are still sort of an issue for me, but I feel CONSIDERABLY better than I did a couple of weeks ago, and I’m just so happy.
@Ellie That is so great! I hope to be able to say that someday....rn it seems never ending
@Lleonesss Do some research on ERP, and then try and use the option on here (it was really helpful, but I had a therapist so I can’t vouch for everyone)
@Ellie Thanks
OCD wants you in the trap of ruminating. I know it has me ruminating all the time. I just had a massive trigger tonight for my SOOCD, so I know how you feel. I always feel like I should just admit it or something, but I don’t want to admit anything becuase I don’t wanna be anything but straight. There’s really nothing for me to admit anyways. Don’t read so much into things, that’s what your OCD wants. Try and let those thoughts pass without judgment. Use the calm app to help you stop ruminating; https://apps.apple.com/us/app/calm/id571800810 Also try the SOS function on this app for HOCD. 💕
Thank you!! I wish the same for you...it's just that I'm so so tired of being scared all the time...it's just eating away at me
@Lleonesss I feel you, it gets really tiring. Some sense of contentment would be nice for all of us. If I’m not anxious about something, I’m anxious that I’ll be anxious soon. Are you seeing a therapist for ERP?
@BeachedMermaid No I haven't even been diagnosed yet..I'll have to tell my parents if I need to see a therapist and I don't think I can explain it to them as of now...
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=yF_0bnzEUCE this will help you get some insight on what you’re going through. I went through the same thing and this truly helped me.
I'll surely check it out... thank you so much!
I dont get triggered by much anymore which is making me feel gay in denial.. I look for reassurance all day and feel like its just a coverup for my denial.. I too feel like i faked my attractions to women...
I feel like I’m starting to deny my sexuality. Before this I never really thought about girls that way. Now I am and it terrifies me. It feels like I just don’t wanna accept that I’m lesbian. I’m so damn lost. It feels like I know I’m lesbian. But I just can’t be. Anyone feel this way? Probably reassurance but if any of you think I am or it seems like I am please tell me.
I'm now obsessed with the idea that I'm somehow repressing my true sexuality and that I have to "accept it", but the acceptance part isn't real acceptance it's digging and prying at my brain and trying to find proof that I'm a lesbian, when I know in reality that I'm not. My brain literally feel like it's going on a witch hunt and destroying everything in it's path. What do I do? I wish I had a better way to put this into words, but I'm really bad at that.
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