Can anyone share their experiences with ROCD please ? I’m suffering

I have had OCD almost my whole life but just began having ROCD mid last year. I have an intrusive thought that I cheated on my boyfriend in the beginning of our relationship. My biggest fear is losing him as I am head over heels in love with him. I get random thoughts and get triggered by random things that make me think I did cheat on him and it can be debilitating. However, my therapist has been helping me through it and my boyfriend is actually aware of my ROCD. He has been supportive too. I still have long ways to go in my recovery but I am trying everyday

so my last relationship partially ended bc of my ROCD. my current relationship is a million times better and i’m crazy about my current boyfriend, which just makes it even scarier that my ROCD could start acting up again. every once in a while i’ll get feelings of “why don’t i feel the same way i did at the beginning” or “he said something that slightly annoyed me so i’m unhappy and we should just break up”. but he knows about my thoughts, and he knows how to help me through my worries. it’s a tough thing to bring up because you don’t want to hurt their feelings, but if your partner is open and understanding then that’s honestly the best way to handle it it my opinion. just let them know how you’re feeling, let them know that your feelings are just intrusive and not actually representative of your feelings for them. and by vocalizing that to them it’ll help you as well. hope that makes sense:)

Hey! :) I can offer some insight. My ROCD began a while ago when my mother (who is diagnosed with BPD) criticized my boyfriend about his neurological condition (it is called CMT, it's a condition that affects his balance but he is otherwise healthy). It sent me spiraling (because overbearing mothers have terrible effects on their children). At the time, I had no clue what ROCD was. But I posted to a subreddit about CMT and wow! I wish I hadn't haha. I was told to break up with him and that I'm a bad, ableist person that should burn in hell lol. The truth was that I had a mental illness. I was scared. I was seeking reassurance. All of this fueled my OCD. For months, it dragged on and on. I was worried about everything: did I love him? Is he attractive to me? Why doesn't sex or intimacy feel right with him anymore? Do I really care about him? What is love? What do I really want? Etc., etc. It wasn't until I moved out after college and began my own life that I realized it was OCD. I'm happy to report we are getting married in May, and I can't tell you how much I love that man. It took a hell of a lot of work, but my ROCD is in remission. I now deal with SOOCD, but I am making slow progress with it everyday. Bottom line: there's always hope and a silver lining. It does get better. You'll have good days and bad days - progress is not linear. Keep fighting. :)

You’re so right ! I’m going to look into the ocd specialists. I was so in love with my BF and then all of a sudden my brain flipped a switch before my period and is making me believe that all that warmth is gone and I don’t want to believe it and I don’t understand how it could be true ? How can it just change in a second for NO reason. I love him and the thought of leaving him completely ruins me