really struggling here. i actually accepted the uncertainty for once about experimenting and now that doesn’t even bother me anymore i’m just letting myself be open to whatever 🤷🏻‍♀️ i was also trying to be so perfect with my sexuality and stuff and it really took a toll on me and i kind of let myself go and just said hey i’m not 100% straight but i would like to identify that way and i was fine!!!! but the main things i’m struggling with right now are: 1. because i accepted myself as 100% not straight i feel like i need to label myself as bi 2. i’m struggling with a false attraction 3. i think i’m in denial i feel like a lot of people are going to come at me and say i’m bi because i’m more open and not so “OCD” about being 100% straight anymore and that im open to the idea of experimenting even though i have no idea if i would even like that because i genuinely don’t know 🤷🏻‍♀️

I feel you, I have been going through the same thing and right now I am struggling again with this uncertainty even though I can handle it better than last time thanks to all the knowledge and practice I have accumulated about ocd, ERP and mindfulness. It's like, hey I already accepted that I might be bi or curious, why do I still feel scared when I already felt ok with it?! I guess for us it is best to stop trying settling into a label and try to accept and even embrace the ambiguity,uncertainty and messiness of sexuality. It is such a complex and subjective thing, we will never find the certainty that OCD bullies us to get. It just doesn't exist, that is why the questions and doubt never stops. I am doing best and feel almost cured when I manage to just leave my sexuality unlabeled and stop analysing it. So what if it is not a 100% figured out? We don't have to be sure about this even though OCD tells us otherwise. But I know it's hard. I am facing a huge change in my life right now and this makes it harder to accept the uncertainty and resist seeking reassurance. But we will get through this💖

Keep accepting the uncertainty and let go of trying to figure it out. Easier said than done, I know, but it REALLY helps. I just am like “ok, I’m just not gonna figure it out” and let go of the concern. It feels uncomfortable but eventually it passes out of my awareness when I’m not ruminating about it. And if it pops back in that’s ok, I’ll refrain from solving it again.

This is exactly how i feel right now! I was really thinking if i really did have ocd because i kind of got over the thought for just 2 months and i was beating myself up that i dont have ocd and im really just in denial. even if i was ok with experimenting and finding myself, i stilll wasn't comfortable with the idea of being bi but i always fear that I'm just lying to myself because my ocd convinces me that I've always been bi. the thought don't give me anxiety anymore, but the fact that i need to find a label for what i feel makes me so confused