- Username
- alyb
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Touching/rubbing/redoing an action until it feels right is one of my most long running compulsions. I would classify it as Just Right OCD, but mine isn’t necessarily attached to a specific obsession or worry that something bad is going to happen: it’s just an urge that I feel the need to do, but I definitely do it more often when I’m more anxious.
Omg yes, I tell myself fuck it. I’m not going to be hurt. Also, do not cold turkey your meds. That is very dangerous and can put you in a lot of harm. Talk to your doctor as soon as possible and tell them your concerns. I’ve gone cold turkey bc I was out of refills or just wanted to but me doing that is allowing the ocd to win. So don’t go cold turkey bc that’s a compulsion in itself, trying to avoid the anxiety by thinking you have control over the situation by withdrawing fully from your meds, when you don’t at all. You must me strong, by trying to be resistant to the ocd. I have had compulsions where everything feels like a compulsion/intrusion but I have to ground myself. Is this worth it getting worried over? Am I thinking realistic about this?
Sorry I should’ve specified, I didn’t mean going cold turkey on my meds - I meant trying to quit all my rituals cold turkey.. like waking up and saying f that I’m not succumbing to it and trying to withhold my compulsions :/ @cassepag I do see what u mean tho! @m.a.d. Precisely! While creating my profile on here I noticed that my ocd did not really didn’t fit into any of the categories because, I don’t have “intrusive thoughts” other than the ongoing belief that if I do not act on my compulsions when anxiety spikes then something bad will happen (for example, my boyfriend dumping me, getting a poor grade on an exam, a family member dying, anything that is subjectively negative from my perspective) it has been especially bad recently because I like this new guy and I’ve noticed that because things are going well I repeatedly find myself doing the same ritual over and over assuming that I didn’t “get it right” and it’s driving me insane but I suppose it’s just because I don’t wanna ruin things with this guy even tho I know my ocd has noooo correlation to it! I’m on Prozac tho, 60 mg and it helps for the most part and I would never just quit taking them out of the blue. Especially with how much they have helped. I’m still bad but I’ve come a long way. I used to not even be able to leave my bed
Ya that definitely sounds like Just Right OCD to me! But I totally get it about the new relationship, because change is one of the biggest triggers for my anxiety/OCD. It sounds like we’re at the same stage: not quite great but not confined to bed either. But it’s progress!! I wish you luck:)
@alyb ok good!!
I’m having a really hard time doing any exposures whatsoever. Does anyone have any tips? I have been living with ROCD for 20+ years and only recently got diagnosed and seeing a therapist - so my rituals are pretty deeply ingrained. I see how bad it’s screwing up my life but I feel powerless to stop myself.
First post, new here. I’ve always thought that I have OCD since I was in 7th grade. I am 22 now and actively trying to take steps to treat it myself because I don’t have money for therapy and my parents don’t believe I have it. I think I suffer from Magical Thinking. A (stupid but true) example would be how I collect phone cases. I buy really cute ones and then I put one on and the whole day no one texts me so I take it off because I think it’s the case doing it and it gives me anxiety so I switch back to this main one that when I use it I get texts and it makes my anxiety go away. I do this with a lot of my things so for years I just haven’t been able to wear or use certain things or even take a different way home for fear that abc or d might or might not happen. It’s very debilitating to feel like I can’t change anything about myself or my life because it gives me anxiety thinking that if I change this or that then I might die, or I might not have a good night, or so and so won’t text me, etc. Sorry if this doesn’t make sense, I’ve never told anyone about it just something that consistently eats away ate my brain and has been forever. Any advice or comments would be appreciated.
I’m confused. I don’t know how this is supposed to work. Can anyone relate to this??? I don’t have anyone who understands just what my ocd is. I barely understand it. No matter what I do and where, my thoughts hit me. I can be blinking the wrong way and I have to blink until it feels right.. same for swallowing, touching things, light switches and setting down cups. I have to sit and stand up multiple times until it feels right. Step on certain things like cracks in sidewalk as many times I feel is needed. Wash my hands multiple times. Even when texting, I can type out a whole paragraph and my mind tells me to delete it all and start again because it’s not right. When something isn’t right my mind tells me that someone I love is going to die or get hurt. And for some reason I obsess over certain days, like a day someone I love it born. I will sit there and flip a light switch with that date in my mind and a bad thought that something will happen and I can’t stop until I feel that person in my head is safe and everything is fine. In a way I feel that I am saving them and myself from something bad. Can anyone relate? And maybe share how you’re dealing with it all? Please and thank you.
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