Anyone out there have ocd where everything you do throughout the day involves a ritual? I have a ritual for laying in my bed, if I touch the covers a certain way I have to continuously touch them with my left and then my right arm and then touch them to each part of my clothing. I have a ritual for getting out of bed, washing my face, getting dressed, going to the bathroom, showering, you name it. Lately I began liking a boy and the uncertainty and anxiety I feel about it has me spazzing out with excess ritualistic behavior. The type of compulsions I have are things such as - touching the cabinet 7 times or doing everything with my right ring finger touching the object ( such as putting the keys in the door, applying makeup, anything has to be with my right hand with my ring finger touching) this has been going on since I was 8 and I’ve gone to countless therapists and am currently on Prozac which has helped to an extent, but I’d like to see if there’s anyone out there with similar rituals or any advice? Also, every time I try to stop my rituals and like quit my ocd cold turkey SOMETHING BAD HAPPENS and just further perpetuates my fear and makes the OCD stronger ;(

Touching/rubbing/redoing an action until it feels right is one of my most long running compulsions. I would classify it as Just Right OCD, but mine isn’t necessarily attached to a specific obsession or worry that something bad is going to happen: it’s just an urge that I feel the need to do, but I definitely do it more often when I’m more anxious.

Omg yes, I tell myself fuck it. I’m not going to be hurt. Also, do not cold turkey your meds. That is very dangerous and can put you in a lot of harm. Talk to your doctor as soon as possible and tell them your concerns. I’ve gone cold turkey bc I was out of refills or just wanted to but me doing that is allowing the ocd to win. So don’t go cold turkey bc that’s a compulsion in itself, trying to avoid the anxiety by thinking you have control over the situation by withdrawing fully from your meds, when you don’t at all. You must me strong, by trying to be resistant to the ocd. I have had compulsions where everything feels like a compulsion/intrusion but I have to ground myself. Is this worth it getting worried over? Am I thinking realistic about this?

Sorry I should’ve specified, I didn’t mean going cold turkey on my meds - I meant trying to quit all my rituals cold turkey.. like waking up and saying f that I’m not succumbing to it and trying to withhold my compulsions :/ @cassepag I do see what u mean tho! @m.a.d. Precisely! While creating my profile on here I noticed that my ocd did not really didn’t fit into any of the categories because, I don’t have “intrusive thoughts” other than the ongoing belief that if I do not act on my compulsions when anxiety spikes then something bad will happen (for example, my boyfriend dumping me, getting a poor grade on an exam, a family member dying, anything that is subjectively negative from my perspective) it has been especially bad recently because I like this new guy and I’ve noticed that because things are going well I repeatedly find myself doing the same ritual over and over assuming that I didn’t “get it right” and it’s driving me insane but I suppose it’s just because I don’t wanna ruin things with this guy even tho I know my ocd has noooo correlation to it! I’m on Prozac tho, 60 mg and it helps for the most part and I would never just quit taking them out of the blue. Especially with how much they have helped. I’m still bad but I’ve come a long way. I used to not even be able to leave my bed

Ya that definitely sounds like Just Right OCD to me! But I totally get it about the new relationship, because change is one of the biggest triggers for my anxiety/OCD. It sounds like we’re at the same stage: not quite great but not confined to bed either. But it’s progress!! I wish you luck:)

@alyb ok good!!