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I’m currently suffering badly with this theme.. along with paranoia fears, and maybe any other mental illness that’s more ‘severe’. Wondering if conversations in my head mean I’m having people talk to each other in my head, wondering about my inner voice, wondering if the antibiotics I’m taking are triggering paranoia... i don’t know what to do anymore. It seems obsessive rather than schizophrenic but I still have so much fear!!
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I still think about it occasionally, and sometimes I freak myself out, but I typically come to this conclusion; it is, what it is. I had similar thoughts, I also became very apparent of my surroundings, what I was seeing, what I was hearing, and what I was thinking. I was trying to find specific things to justify my fears. I mean shit I still am bothered by it. But at the end of the day, just accepting that you don’t know if or when it can happen has just giving me a weird zen. Don’t get me wrong I still think and worry about it, but like anything related to OCD, everything we think of is closely observed and very much criticized. I started with Harm OCD (still do), POCD, and now Schitzo (Health) OCD. OCD is a Pain in the butt. You got this!
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- 5y ago
I’m dealing with almost all of these now. I can’t stop checking to see if the things I see out of the corner of my eye are actually there. I can’t stop doing it because it happens to instantaneously!! How do I stopp?
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- 5y ago
Do you get the thoughts of the different kind of symptoms and start worrying about if you have schizophrenia?
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- 5y ago
@Jerry Yep I do. Working on my imaginal exposures now for it
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- 5y ago
@Ellie0630 Likewise, it’s a pain in the butt. But I wish us both luck!
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Honestly, people like your family member is why it’s so hard to talk about mental illness. :( hang in there - a good way to get over your compulsions is to slowly limit them over time. Eventually it will get easier at least.
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I know this is an old post, but do you still deal with these symptoms? Thank you also for sharing... your post seriously helped me tonight.
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- 5y ago
How are you guys? I’m going through this
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Hey, still occasionally dealing with it, but I keep telling myself, it is what it is. That attitude has helped me work through it and well it’s a good exposure at the same time. It allows the uncertainty.
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Hi this is my current fear .. everything u described I do! I just can’t get over it .. to the point I tell myself what I really do have this what if I really do hear voices.. I’m just really trying soooo hard
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It’s a pain in the butt, mainly because just like OCD it’s completely involuntary, unless street drugs play a roll.
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@Jerry Nope never did any drugs I’ve always had health anxiety always think something is wrong w me.. now I’m currently facing this fear fear of schizo it’s been 2months.. I’ve a seen a psychiatrist and doing therapy man it sucks.. I tried to erp and I was good for a minute for idk it’s just hard .. makes me feel like what I do schizophrenia and not ocd because I’m constantly obsessing over it why am I so infatuated on it
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@ bp224 I agree, I do that too sometimes. Between that and HarmOCD are my reoccurring themes. Keep working towards the ERP and with a OCD therapist. It helps the longer you continue with it!
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@Jerry When you were scared of it did u feel live u developed symptoms of it
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@ bp224 More so scare of developing symptoms, so much that I would be over observant
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@Jerry Same
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@Jerry Did meds help u
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- 5y ago
@ bp224 I mean meds help with the aniexty but nothing else really. Meds in my experience doesn’t stop the ocd thoughts
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@Jerry I just want too stop obsessing over it so much .. I tried erp watching videos and it caused so much anxiety.. like today I seen someone on top of a building maybe working ? But Usually I’ll pull my find out to insure it was really real and because I didn’t this time all I can think about is was that a hallucination or really real .. it’s killing me that’s all I can think about ?
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@ bp224 That’s how obsessed I am I will chase the sounds
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@ bp224 I suggest you continue with ERP.. that’s the best way to help with the intrusive thoughts. I don’t want to reassure you either, because that won’t help. It just gives temporary comfort. Are you talking with a therapist?
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@Jerry Yes .. also just joined a ocd support group ..
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@ bp224 Good! That’s great then! It gets better! It’s hard but it’s gets better!
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@Jerry As someone who’s going through this right now I can say it gets better too. I took meds had a bad reaction so I quit. You can go through erp. But the biggest biggest thing here is cutting out compulsions. Live with uncertainty. Do things you would do if you didn’t have ocd. It gets better. I’m typing this as I’m alone in my room. I couldn’t be alone a month ago. I couldn’t shower without my gf over fear I would somehow hallucinate if someone wasn’t with me. Ridiculous I know but nothing about ocd isn’t ridiculous. Start by stopping your research and reassurance. Accept the weird things/thoughts and try you best to live what you think a normal life is. I was at a point where I was questioning if some guy that walked by me was a hallucination. Everything I heard must’ve been a hallucination too. But it wasn’t. It hasn’t been yet and I can’t control if it ever will be. I’m still recovering so it’s hard to remind myself of all of these things but it’s part of recovery. Meds can help take the edge of anxiety off but it will always be up to you to put In the work to be able to handle intrusive thoughts. It’s entirely possible.
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@lulu23 You can see I posted on this very thread 53 days ago because I was severely obssessed with this theme. It’s was one of many but top 2 in terms of fear.
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@lulu23 Wow you described me so well! I’m so scared I haven’t been home I’ve been sleeping at my moms literally with her because of strong of a fear this is.. today I seen something on top of a building and I didn’t take a picture of it and it’s killing me inside as all I can think of is rather or not it was a hallucination it’s really eating me alive that I can’t go back in time . I even had thought about driving back pass the building
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@lulu23 That was awesome! Thanks for telling me that. I seriously appreciate it! I agree, the hardest thing to stop is the comoulsion/reassuring seeking
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@ bp224 Ocd wants you to drive back and check. Anything ocd wants you to do don’t do it. Stay strong guys we can get through this shit stronger than we were before it happened.
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@lulu23 Last comment, repeating what I’ve said here already. I can’t stress this enough!!! Resist compulsions. Stop checking stop asking you loved ones if they heard that noise too. Coming from someone who feared every noise and every person it gets better if you stop compulsions. Compulsions aren’t always physical either.
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@lulu23 Yeah it’s really killing me that I couldn’t reassure myself and now I’m stuck with the if ..
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@lulu23 Yeah I’m trying so hard I realize it’s making this a lot harder
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You are amazing and so brave! Sending lots of love
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that was a huge theme for me in high school. i was horrified to be a “violent” or “crazy” person. i remember i wouldn’t listen to a cd that a friend gave me, because a friend of hers had listened to it, and that person was mentally ill. if i listened to the cd i was sure that their schizophrenia would seep into me and i my life would be ruined. it’s little things like that. everything you describe is ocd, and non of it is schizophrenia. people without mental illness experience hallucinations of all varieties, the brain can be tricked! if something like that happens, it’s not proof that you are “crazy” that’s for sure. i’m sorry about your family though. i think that when you make a joke and they comment negatively, that you tell them what you’ve said here. that joking helps you take yourself less seriously, and makes you feel better. it can be a useful tool!
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Yes. Do not worry, because if you really had schizophrenia, you wouldn't have been able to write such a post.
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god i feel this so much :( i know it’s been a while but how’re you doing? i struggle with this more than anything, and it’s extremely difficult. i even physically feel it sometimes it’s so strange.
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This.
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