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Awe I’m so sorry as I know this pain but mostly towards my wife. I left my family for one night when my ocd started and I didn’t know it was ocd because I felt like something was gonna happen even though I know I didn’t want to hurt her or anyone else. I cried like a baby. This condition can suck the life right out of you. That was a few days shy of a year ago. You have to face your fear to be able to get to the other side . It’s the last thing you wanna do but it’s what helps us to move on with living our life in spite of ocd.
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Don't let it spoil all the good times your gunner have with your daughter Ive had this with all my family its shit but its not real good luck👍
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Just know that ocd is a liar and you can be reunited with them . I know it seems impossible but people with ocd don’t do what they are afraid of. They do compulsions you leaving is a compulsion. You have to fight the ocd your life isn’t over treatment could be just beginning. Your family needs you
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Avoidance is a compulsion I meant. I know you feel like a monster. Ocd feels so real I thought I was a pedophile and future murdurer but actually I’m a beautiful person who is an artist and daughter. I have overcome screaming in tears at my thoughts I would hurt children someday. I heard god in my heart tell me that it was ocd and to listen to my therapist that was may 27 two years ago and I have been free from the thoughts. I’m praying so hard for you . You can literally ask me anything I want to help
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You guys are amazing . Thanks for the kind words. I will be reuniting very soon. I just wish it was that easy. Last time I was around my daughter my mind was running bad and I thought I was really going to hurt her. Also I know I love her but some reason I dont feel happy around her. It makes me feel so detached which scares me more!
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It’s okay be easy on yourself as you didn’t ask for this and it’s not your fault. One day last summer I had a day where my was going frantic and had the obsession that I was gonna kill my wife that day and I was saying it out loud cause it was on repeat in my head and I was crying my eyes out. It sucked but I got through it and you can too!
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Just know that you so love her even if you don’t feel like it I’m so proud of u even tho I don’t know u I know ocd is so hard that’s why bcuz ur fighting
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- 22w
Please read this. I’ve had ocd pretty much a lot of my life but never knew what it was until my senior year of highschool. I’m 21 with 2 kids and i believe i’ve had pocd a little bit before my daughter was born (which was 8 months ago). It made me start looking at all kids differently and i hate it. But it really started triggering me about 3 months ago. I’ve been thinking if i’d intentionally touched or harmed my kids the wrong way, or any kids for that matter. This started giving me false memories (or at least hope they are). I’ve been having panic attacks, yelling at myself, punching walls, praying, and even thoughts of ending my own life. I grew up in a severe toxic household throughout my childhood and teenage life. I’ve never wished that on my kids since i became a dad. I wanna give them the life i never got. I look back my photos of my children and i feel like i’m a complete fraud of a dad. I cannot look at my kids or be around them a lot of times. I can’t hold my daughter right. I can’t change their diaper when they need it. Even my son came and was hugging on me the other night while i was watching tv and i acted like a stranger to him. I can very little do this stuff sometimes because it’s either i get relief or i push my thoughts as far back as i can. I get scared if i did something to not just my kids, but any other kids in the past. I have such a a great life and such a beautiful family. It was hard and stressful at first being young with a family but i couldn’t be more thankful at all for them. I’m just so lost and stressed right now that i just don’t know what to do anymore
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Please comment. Just say if follows along the OCD pattern or not. I don't need reassurance per se! My daughter was laying across me and every time I breathed a certain way I was getting a groinal sensation. I kept breathing like that anyways (ugh idk why), and then my mind told me I had hurt/a**aulted her that I might as well do something else to hurt because what's more. So idk why or what overcame me other than the thought of doing it because my mind told me I had hurt her already ("my mind literally made me question what to do and I guess the only thing I could come up with was using my elbow) and causing another feeling but it came across my mind to elbow her, and I elbowed her crotch or side/thigh area. Which caused another very unwanted groinal sensation. Then I began FREAKING smooth out. And I've been stressing since. I feel like as a mom I don't deserve to be hers anymore. Idk what overcame me but my therapist says it's all OCD. I was doing SO well! Is this really OCD? This has all caused me a great amount of anxiety. I feel like a terrible person and mom. I just need help knowing if this is OCD. Not wanting reassurance. Just wanting to know if this lines up with the POCD I've been diagnosed with by my current therapist.
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- 12w
My child was laying across me and every time I breathed a certain way I was getting a groinal sensation. I kept breathing like that anyways (ugh idk why), and then my mind told me I had hurt them that I might as well do something else because what's more. So idk why or what overcame me other than the thought of doing it and causing another feeling (I literally had to question what to do during this and the only thing I could come up with was to move my elbow towards her groin area) but it came across my mind to elbow my child, and I elbowed their crotch or side area. Which caused another unwanted groinal sensation. Then I began FREAKING smooth out and asked my child to move. Then I've been stressing since. I feel like as a mom I don't deserve to be theirs anymore. Idk what overcame me, and in the moment, it felt like I wanted to move my elbow, but I know that can also be my OCD speaking. Right? I clearly regret it all and hate myself. I would never intentionally hurt my child; I don't know what happened in my head when this happened. I was doing SO well! Is this my POCD that I've been diagnosed with by my OCD specialized therapist? Just a struggling mom who used to be the best of the best. I'm very depressed by this. Idk what to do with myself. I live in regret now, and I just wish it would've never ever happened. I can't stop ruminating and being depressed thinking I don't deserve anything.
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