Anonymous
- Date posted
- 4y
Dre83Dre83
- Date posted
- 4y
Awe I’m so sorry as I know this pain but mostly towards my wife. I left my family for one night when my ocd started and I didn’t know it was ocd because I felt like something was gonna happen even though I know I didn’t want to hurt her or anyone else. I cried like a baby. This condition can suck the life right out of you. That was a few days shy of a year ago. You have to face your fear to be able to get to the other side . It’s the last thing you wanna do but it’s what helps us to move on with living our life in spite of ocd.
egg101egg101
- Date posted
- 4y
Don't let it spoil all the good times your gunner have with your daughter Ive had this with all my family its shit but its not real good luck👍
Baby999999Baby999999
- Date posted
- 4y
Just know that ocd is a liar and you can be reunited with them . I know it seems impossible but people with ocd don’t do what they are afraid of. They do compulsions you leaving is a compulsion. You have to fight the ocd your life isn’t over treatment could be just beginning. Your family needs you
Baby999999Baby999999
- Date posted
- 4y
Avoidance is a compulsion I meant. I know you feel like a monster. Ocd feels so real I thought I was a pedophile and future murdurer but actually I’m a beautiful person who is an artist and daughter. I have overcome screaming in tears at my thoughts I would hurt children someday. I heard god in my heart tell me that it was ocd and to listen to my therapist that was may 27 two years ago and I have been free from the thoughts. I’m praying so hard for you . You can literally ask me anything I want to help
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 4y
You guys are amazing . Thanks for the kind words. I will be reuniting very soon. I just wish it was that easy. Last time I was around my daughter my mind was running bad and I thought I was really going to hurt her. Also I know I love her but some reason I dont feel happy around her. It makes me feel so detached which scares me more!
Dre83Dre83
- Date posted
- 4y
It’s okay be easy on yourself as you didn’t ask for this and it’s not your fault. One day last summer I had a day where my was going frantic and had the obsession that I was gonna kill my wife that day and I was saying it out loud cause it was on repeat in my head and I was crying my eyes out. It sucked but I got through it and you can too!
Baby999999Baby999999
- Date posted
- 4y
Just know that you so love her even if you don’t feel like it I’m so proud of u even tho I don’t know u I know ocd is so hard that’s why bcuz ur fighting
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- Date posted
- 25w
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- Date posted
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- Date posted
- 25w
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