- Username
- Anonymous
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Awe I’m so sorry as I know this pain but mostly towards my wife. I left my family for one night when my ocd started and I didn’t know it was ocd because I felt like something was gonna happen even though I know I didn’t want to hurt her or anyone else. I cried like a baby. This condition can suck the life right out of you. That was a few days shy of a year ago. You have to face your fear to be able to get to the other side . It’s the last thing you wanna do but it’s what helps us to move on with living our life in spite of ocd.
Don't let it spoil all the good times your gunner have with your daughter Ive had this with all my family its shit but its not real good luck👍
Just know that ocd is a liar and you can be reunited with them . I know it seems impossible but people with ocd don’t do what they are afraid of. They do compulsions you leaving is a compulsion. You have to fight the ocd your life isn’t over treatment could be just beginning. Your family needs you
Avoidance is a compulsion I meant. I know you feel like a monster. Ocd feels so real I thought I was a pedophile and future murdurer but actually I’m a beautiful person who is an artist and daughter. I have overcome screaming in tears at my thoughts I would hurt children someday. I heard god in my heart tell me that it was ocd and to listen to my therapist that was may 27 two years ago and I have been free from the thoughts. I’m praying so hard for you . You can literally ask me anything I want to help
You guys are amazing . Thanks for the kind words. I will be reuniting very soon. I just wish it was that easy. Last time I was around my daughter my mind was running bad and I thought I was really going to hurt her. Also I know I love her but some reason I dont feel happy around her. It makes me feel so detached which scares me more!
It’s okay be easy on yourself as you didn’t ask for this and it’s not your fault. One day last summer I had a day where my was going frantic and had the obsession that I was gonna kill my wife that day and I was saying it out loud cause it was on repeat in my head and I was crying my eyes out. It sucked but I got through it and you can too!
Just know that you so love her even if you don’t feel like it I’m so proud of u even tho I don’t know u I know ocd is so hard that’s why bcuz ur fighting
I'm so scared right now, I don't think my intrusive thoughts are intrusive anymore. I feel completely numb and disconnected from everything and everyone. I feel like I'm insane. I don't feel reassured by anything which makes me think I want the thoughts. for example I have harm ocd thoughts about my daughter and always have since she was born, she is now 9. I've suffered terribly with mental health since she was born. and an intrusive thought I have just had is "if I killed her i wouldn't be anxious anymore" can thoughts become this distressing? this can't be normal, please someone help.
My heart hurts so much right now. I am a mother of two and I am afraid to be near my children. Two weeks ago, everything was fine. I never had an intrusive thought about them at all. My mother recently told me that my father SA’ed me and I do not remember it because I was too little to remember. Well, while trying to cope with that information… I had a terrible intrusive thought. “What if I become like my father?” “What if you’re attracted to you kids?” I instantly felt sick, I threw up and then I could NOT stop thinking. I keep getting this horrible sinking feeling near them. I keep crying and missing how simple it was before. I love them so much and it’s only pure mother love. I don’t even have any urges it makes no sense why I can’t let this thought go. I just want to go back to being their mommy. I was looking at videos of when they were tiny babies or even from a few weeks ago and just crying because it was just simple and life was amazing and I cherished my children… now I am afraid to be near them. I told my boyfriend because I was having such terrible anxiety from this and I’ve been in a dark place. He knows I’ve had other obsessions and panic attacks so he is being very helpful through this. He says he trusts me and knows I would never harm our kids. But I keep feeling so guilty for even having this thought at all.
Just know im going to be pumled with intrusive thoughts the moment i step through that door and were alone, The thoughts and feelings that hit me are so real and frightening. I cant live like this Feels to real like i could listen and do it I hate the feeling of the realness it gives me i feel sick that i think im capable of such horror 😓
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