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Don’t worry @cinnamongirl22 . I’ve had the same thing my whole life I’m 40 now. Step one never seek reassurance but soemtimes u might need it. *You will never act on those thoughts. If u were crazy and did want to do those they wouldn’t cause u immense anxiety. That’s ocd attacking your most loved things your life, the people you love etc. I’ve had these thought for over 7 years. My first major episode left me helpless I didn’t know I had ocd just thought it was anxiety attacks. Once I started to do erp I was scaired to even try it. My first therapist made me carry a cardboard knife around because I was scaired shitless of knives. I promise you will see the ERP is hard very hard for all of us but once you do it after sometime you won’t be scaired anymore and that’s the key. We’re all just scaired of these thoughts. Everyone gets them even my wife but for them it goes away because they know it’s dumb useless for useless it repeats like a broken record. But it’s ok. ERP is the best for defeating ocd. 1) ERP 2) Exercise 3) meditation - mindfulness, Deepak’s Chopra app is very good.
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Hang in there and be positive Focus on getting better and doing the homework. It’s a mind game you need to do the exposures as hard as there are even if they drive your anxeity up the wall they only help in the long run. Listen to the therapist and believe in yourself that you can do it. The ocd doesn’t define you as a person it’s just an angry bully trying to take over your amazing life!! Keep working I promise it gets better. If you ever need tips message me. Mike
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Ugh gurl. It's the process. Stay tough
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Jenna Overbaugh mentions an Instagram post regarding “extinction burst”. It tends to fight back while you re-address your habits.
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Thank you guys so much for your replies and advice!💖 I actually have been doing daily meditation for around a year now, and it's been so freaking helpful! I'm not currently taking an SSRIs bc they had some pretty bad side effects that outweighed the positives for me. And Mikeb63, I'm trying to hang in there, thank you for sharing your experience with ERP💖
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- 21w
I am so scared that my *undiagnosed* OCD is going to make me harm someone close to me in my family. I’m afraid of knives, I’m afraid of things that COULD be a weapon like pens, forks or anything like that. My sister is my BFF and my thoughts have latched onto her. I’m so afraid!! I don’t know how to make them stop. How do I stop and will it eventually subside? How do I work on compulsions? I’m on Zoloft 50mg as well for 3.5 weeks and a lot of my other worries have subsided except this one. I feel like a crazy person :( Also does this sound like OCD?
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I’ve recently been struggling a lot with OCD. I have had OCD for a long time I just didn’t realize it until more recently. About seven months ago I developed panic attacks one day randomly at work. I thought I was having a heart attack and went to the hospital where they told me it was just a panic attack and I assumed I would snap out and be better within a few days. However it didn’t. Here’s where it gets scary, I was staying at my then boyfriends house while dealing with blurry vision, anxiety attacks everyday, and more (unsure of what was going on). But at some point I saw my bfs (pew pew 🔫) on his table and it sent me into an anxiety attack after sudden thoughts that I was going to hurt myself with it. I begged him to put it away when I’m not looking so I didn’t know where he put it. He did. These thoughts lasted for about four days but began to go away. (I thought that was it and I would be back to normal). Unfortunately though I ended up moving back in with my family when we couldn’t get my panic attacks under control in time for me to get back to work and pay bills. However, coming home brought up a lot of trauma from when I was kid. My anxiety got worse but I didn’t have those thoughts again. About two and half months ago though, I got sick and went to the hospital where they gave me steroid pills and a steroid shot but sent me into some kind of psychiatric event. Ever since then though, I have been suffering from harm OCD, I have had moments of intense anger that I usually have to completely walk away and go on my own because of how intense they are, and it feels like it’s getting worse. Today I felt fine until about and hour and half ago where I started to dwell on the fact that my suicidal thought was influenced by my OCD and at the moment my OCD is at the worst it’s been. This caused me to get suddenly really depressed and I started crying thinking about how I can’t handle this. I then saw a post talking about how suicide rates are high for people with this form of OCD and it made me question if I am mentally strong enough to pull through this. I fear that at times I’m getting worse. I have good days but I have a lot of bad days. Unfortunately this sent me into such a bad panic attack I went over to my nanas crying about how I can’t deal with this. I took a 0.25 mg Xanax which helped calm down the panic attack portion of it but my brain is still uncomfortably active. I guess I just need hope. I’m so saddened by this. It’s like my life took a total 360 in 10 months and got even worse since the steroid shot. Idk what to do about it. I can’t stop the spiral. I talk to two different therapist weekly and start more next week, making it 5 times a week. I feel no improvements…
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I'm new to NOCD and have been dealing with harm/suicidal, and Pure OCD for some time now. It started off being healthy related anxiety that led to compulsion where I would research information on an uncommon illness or something I thought I had. Now it has snowballed into intrusive thoughts and images of me killing myself in various ways or my wife. The former is what has been the most debilitating and hardest to shake. Recently I seem to find triggers almost every where I look. "What if I killed myself this way" if I see a kitchen knife or a bottle of pills. A friend talked about going to a gun range a while back and an image popped up of me being there and turning a gun to myself which is something I dont want to do. I love life and its so painful to go through thoughts that try to tell me otherwise. That particular image/thought has really stuck with me. I know about ERP and my therapist said I could rip the bandaid off and go to a gun range but it terrifies me. I don't own any weapons but I often think, "what if I buy one and im actually suicidal?" Just typing it makes me anxious. I'm wanting to start a low dose of Prozac which opens up another can of worms about worried my "overdose thought" will come true, on top of potential side effects. This is long winded but im looking for any advice to get through this. I know others are worse off than me but considering I've never been like this and it only started 6 months ago, I'm really struggling. Thanks everyone.
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