- Date posted
- 4y
- Date posted
- 4y
Don’t worry @cinnamongirl22 . I’ve had the same thing my whole life I’m 40 now. Step one never seek reassurance but soemtimes u might need it. *You will never act on those thoughts. If u were crazy and did want to do those they wouldn’t cause u immense anxiety. That’s ocd attacking your most loved things your life, the people you love etc. I’ve had these thought for over 7 years. My first major episode left me helpless I didn’t know I had ocd just thought it was anxiety attacks. Once I started to do erp I was scaired to even try it. My first therapist made me carry a cardboard knife around because I was scaired shitless of knives. I promise you will see the ERP is hard very hard for all of us but once you do it after sometime you won’t be scaired anymore and that’s the key. We’re all just scaired of these thoughts. Everyone gets them even my wife but for them it goes away because they know it’s dumb useless for useless it repeats like a broken record. But it’s ok. ERP is the best for defeating ocd. 1) ERP 2) Exercise 3) meditation - mindfulness, Deepak’s Chopra app is very good.
- Date posted
- 4y
Hang in there and be positive Focus on getting better and doing the homework. It’s a mind game you need to do the exposures as hard as there are even if they drive your anxeity up the wall they only help in the long run. Listen to the therapist and believe in yourself that you can do it. The ocd doesn’t define you as a person it’s just an angry bully trying to take over your amazing life!! Keep working I promise it gets better. If you ever need tips message me. Mike
- Date posted
- 4y
Ugh gurl. It's the process. Stay tough
- Date posted
- 4y
Jenna Overbaugh mentions an Instagram post regarding “extinction burst”. It tends to fight back while you re-address your habits.
- Date posted
- 4y
Thank you guys so much for your replies and advice!💖 I actually have been doing daily meditation for around a year now, and it's been so freaking helpful! I'm not currently taking an SSRIs bc they had some pretty bad side effects that outweighed the positives for me. And Mikeb63, I'm trying to hang in there, thank you for sharing your experience with ERP💖
Related posts
- Date posted
- 24w
so I need to get back into ERP, but it’s so hard to manage these thoughts and learn to deal with them. like I swear my mind has to make everything about it. Like every time I clean my room, my mind’s like yup make sure it’s clean so when your parents find you, or something so stupid like if I get a headache, my mind convinces me that I like the pain and that that’s why I get my thoughts because I actually want to do it. It’s so exhausting. Because I know I would never want to take my life and I treasure my life so why does it do it to me? It’s hard to comprehend the fact of these thoughts too because I don’t know many people with this exact theme. It’s such a scary feeling. And I’m constantly questioning whether I have actual depression or if it’s just my OCD. Yes I have been diagnosed with suicidal OCD, but my mind still tries to convince me otherwise. I just don’t know how to let these just sit and pass without panicking.
- Date posted
- 24w
so I need to get back into ERP, but it’s so hard to manage these thoughts and learn to deal with them. like I swear my mind has to make everything about it. Like every time I clean my room, my mind’s like yup make sure it’s clean so when your parents find you, or something so stupid like if I get a headache, my mind convinces me that I like the pain and that that’s why I get my thoughts because I actually want to do it. It’s so exhausting. Because I know I would never want to take my life and I treasure my life so why does it do it to me? It’s hard to comprehend the fact of these thoughts too because I don’t know many people with this exact theme. It’s such a scary feeling. And I’m constantly questioning whether I have actual depression or if it’s just my OCD. Yes I have been diagnosed with suicidal OCD, but my mind still tries to convince me otherwise. I just don’t know how to let these just sit and pass without panicking.
- Date posted
- 13w
I’ve recently been struggling a lot with OCD. I have had OCD for a long time I just didn’t realize it until more recently. About seven months ago I developed panic attacks one day randomly at work. I thought I was having a heart attack and went to the hospital where they told me it was just a panic attack and I assumed I would snap out and be better within a few days. However it didn’t. Here’s where it gets scary, I was staying at my then boyfriends house while dealing with blurry vision, anxiety attacks everyday, and more (unsure of what was going on). But at some point I saw my bfs (pew pew 🔫) on his table and it sent me into an anxiety attack after sudden thoughts that I was going to hurt myself with it. I begged him to put it away when I’m not looking so I didn’t know where he put it. He did. These thoughts lasted for about four days but began to go away. (I thought that was it and I would be back to normal). Unfortunately though I ended up moving back in with my family when we couldn’t get my panic attacks under control in time for me to get back to work and pay bills. However, coming home brought up a lot of trauma from when I was kid. My anxiety got worse but I didn’t have those thoughts again. About two and half months ago though, I got sick and went to the hospital where they gave me steroid pills and a steroid shot but sent me into some kind of psychiatric event. Ever since then though, I have been suffering from harm OCD, I have had moments of intense anger that I usually have to completely walk away and go on my own because of how intense they are, and it feels like it’s getting worse. Today I felt fine until about and hour and half ago where I started to dwell on the fact that my suicidal thought was influenced by my OCD and at the moment my OCD is at the worst it’s been. This caused me to get suddenly really depressed and I started crying thinking about how I can’t handle this. I then saw a post talking about how suicide rates are high for people with this form of OCD and it made me question if I am mentally strong enough to pull through this. I fear that at times I’m getting worse. I have good days but I have a lot of bad days. Unfortunately this sent me into such a bad panic attack I went over to my nanas crying about how I can’t deal with this. I took a 0.25 mg Xanax which helped calm down the panic attack portion of it but my brain is still uncomfortably active. I guess I just need hope. I’m so saddened by this. It’s like my life took a total 360 in 10 months and got even worse since the steroid shot. Idk what to do about it. I can’t stop the spiral. I talk to two different therapist weekly and start more next week, making it 5 times a week. I feel no improvements…
Be a part of the largest OCD Community
Share your thoughts so the Community can respond