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- Alina Lilac
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Don’t worry @cinnamongirl22 . I’ve had the same thing my whole life I’m 40 now. Step one never seek reassurance but soemtimes u might need it. *You will never act on those thoughts. If u were crazy and did want to do those they wouldn’t cause u immense anxiety. That’s ocd attacking your most loved things your life, the people you love etc. I’ve had these thought for over 7 years. My first major episode left me helpless I didn’t know I had ocd just thought it was anxiety attacks. Once I started to do erp I was scaired to even try it. My first therapist made me carry a cardboard knife around because I was scaired shitless of knives. I promise you will see the ERP is hard very hard for all of us but once you do it after sometime you won’t be scaired anymore and that’s the key. We’re all just scaired of these thoughts. Everyone gets them even my wife but for them it goes away because they know it’s dumb useless for useless it repeats like a broken record. But it’s ok. ERP is the best for defeating ocd. 1) ERP 2) Exercise 3) meditation - mindfulness, Deepak’s Chopra app is very good.
Hang in there and be positive Focus on getting better and doing the homework. It’s a mind game you need to do the exposures as hard as there are even if they drive your anxeity up the wall they only help in the long run. Listen to the therapist and believe in yourself that you can do it. The ocd doesn’t define you as a person it’s just an angry bully trying to take over your amazing life!! Keep working I promise it gets better. If you ever need tips message me. Mike
Ugh gurl. It's the process. Stay tough
Jenna Overbaugh mentions an Instagram post regarding “extinction burst”. It tends to fight back while you re-address your habits.
Thank you guys so much for your replies and advice!💖 I actually have been doing daily meditation for around a year now, and it's been so freaking helpful! I'm not currently taking an SSRIs bc they had some pretty bad side effects that outweighed the positives for me. And Mikeb63, I'm trying to hang in there, thank you for sharing your experience with ERP💖
Anyone else who is pure O confused on how to do ERP? If you have harm OCD do you intentionally think about harming someone??
My Harm OCD is out of control. I’m trying so hard to keep living my life, but it’s scaring me even more. It’s starting to feel more real. It’s feeling like I’m right on the edge of acting on my thoughts and that I actually want to do it. It feels like this is never going to go away and I’m now this person who is going to harm someone. I’m at work because I’m supposed to keep living my life and not do compulsions. But not doing them is terrifying me. I feel like a complete monster and I don’t know what to do.
Is anyone else scared to not fight their intrusive thoughts about seriously hurting people and even killing them? Like the premise of ERP is to just let the thoughts flow and not do compulsions, but I’m scared if I don’t stop them or ruminate to keep them in check, then they will get out of hand and I will suddenly want to act on them. I’m terrified that suddenly I won’t be the kind, empathetic, harmless person I’ve always been. It doesn’t make any sense to me. I also fear that it’s not OCD and I’ve just been faking it or trying to convince myself that it is OCD.
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