To my peeps with suicidal ocd... How do you let the thoughts be?? I find myself saying I don't need to figure it out yet ruminating on it all the same moments later. How do I let it go, OR how do I stop letting it rule my life like it has for the past year? And also, is it helpful to have the same routine every time the thought pops in your head, like the same thoughts or something?? It's been hard, but I'm still here, and I don't plan on going anywhere, but I would like to feel better, calmer, happier and less worried, I guess. If anyone could share their own tips with me, that would be great.

The key thing you said here was “I’m still here, and don’t plan on going anywhere” . I don’t have that thought but, it’s not the thought it’s the way we react to it. You said it’s been a year. “Still here”. Tell yourself that every time. And move forward.

It takes time. At first you have to learn your thought patterns and recognize your compulsions. Study yourself. Letting it go takes time. It’s going to pop up here or there. In the beginning you will still feel uncomfortable and anxious. Sometimes you will question the process at the start because it doesn’t seem to be getting better fast. That’s all normal. It’s not a magic transformation that happens overnight. The brain needs time to calm down.

Hey, I suffer with this. But after months of ERP and self homework I'm at the point where I'm starting to get control. Rumination was a huge thing for me and working on this was a huge help. The biggest thing is to not try and solve the thought, it's only a thought. Whatever comes into you're mind allow it and move on. At first it's so so hard and there is no quick fix but over time it will start to settle.

I did exposures that really helped with this. I wrote the word suicide and carried it around with me in my pocket. I’ve also written “I may kill myself” over and over again. My latest recently was sitting in the room that I’ve had intrusive thoughts about committing suicide in “maybe I’ll lose control and do it.”