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Yes! That thought keeps me up at night. I feel defeated.
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Oh yes. I felt this way often. I felt that life couldn’t possibly be worth living if I have to feel this way all the time but the grass really is greener and if you hold on and get help, you will get to that side just like I did and be in awe of how far you came. I know how it feels to be in the thick of it. It feels so impossible but you are so incredibly brave for coming here to get help. You’re not alone. This is only the beginning of something you will live with forever but that you can take control of and maybe even one day be thankful for. Because it will lead you to so many people who need your help in the way you needed. You will be a God send for them. And you’ll be at peace and in control of your OCD.
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Thank you so much. What has helped you?
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@Anonymous Therapy is really helping so keep on doing that! I know it’s hard but you can do it. Having a relationship with God is crucial for me. Reading the Bible and praying often. He gives me peace and strength and hope! Staying busy. Watching things that make me laugh. Getting rid of caffeine COMPLETELY. That’s a HUGE one. Guided meditations to help me fall asleep and giving myself permission to worry later so I can really get some sleep or meditate. Sometimes I would take stock of my fear and let myself have a day to relax from it and let myself worry later. Sometimes I wouldn’t even go back to it because I was able to let my mind and body rest and it made it easier to work it out logically. Time with friends and family. Exercise is huge! Inositol (powdered B vitamin) helped a lot. I worked my way up to 6 grams, 3 times a day over the course of a few weeks. 1 mg methyl folate. 2 mg methyl b12. Pure encapsulations Sero Plus. A lot of times people with OCD or other mental illness are highly deficient in B vitamins and the vitamins and minerals essential for sending Serotonin to the brain which is what anti-depressants do. Supplements, exercise, and time outside is CRUCIAL. It’s so hard to sleep when your constantly worrying. Try writing down your worries and give yourself permission to worry later so you can get some much needed sleep. Maybe give yourself a week and just add to the list if something pops into your head. The mental rest will do wonders and you might be able to approach those fears with more strength and the ability to see them logically. Prayers for you my friend.
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Science and medicine is always making discoveries so i have hope that maybe they’ll figure out the true root cause of OCD and maybe even find a cure. Believe it or not, many mental illnesses can be cured (take depression as an example)
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But don't they say that mental illnesses never fully cure?
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@Miro Depends on the illness. But what I’m saying is that certain illnesses that were previously thought to have no cure may turn out to be curable someday.
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@cmac1339 Hopefully
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Yes this is my biggest fear... and I feel like the only way I can get out of it (through crazy ruminating) is to sit in a room of my house for 24 hours straight.... unfortunately the way I do my rumination and compulsions has caused this to be the only answer to being happy again
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I’d love to chat, I relate to that so much. I have to be forced to leave my room or house
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@em887766 Me too
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@babs7119 Let’s set up a convo!
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@em887766 Let’s set up a convo !
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@LucyA5118 @emidrew_xo on IG (:
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Yes. It used to bring me immense panic. But I’m slowly accepting it and working towards recovery. It’s similar with depression and anxiety as it’s not something that can be cured, but someone can recover from it and live a pretty normal life, only difference is that just like anyone we have bad times- but typically our bad times are related to ocd. The channel ocdrecoveryuk talks about how there is a chance to not have chronic guilt/anxiety/intrusive thoughts/etc and live and not even notice you have ocd most of the time
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On YouTube channel?
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@babs7119 Yes youtube! They also have an Instagram
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@c.cat Thanks
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@babs7119 Of course!
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@babs7119 Why don't these OCD channels hardly ever mention my theme, illness anxiety OCD or like mine biggest obsession is fearing cancer and death.
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Yes absolutely. The feeling that I'll never be normal again and the thoughts will never go away. And I'll feel that especially when my anxiety is at it's peak. It's so overwhelming.
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Where is this channel? YouTube?
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I feel like I’ll never lead a normal life again with OCD, my thoughts have begun to be convince especially about POCD. I feel like so sad and down that this will be my life forever. I’ll never get to fall in love again without intrusive thoughts. I’ll never be worth falling in love with. I can never be intimate again. I’m just done, my life is over. I can’t even look at my nephew and niece anymore without the smile fading. It feels like I’m so nasty and then my brain convinces me this is how I feel. That there’s some part of me that is a p*do and that’s it. I’m a disgusting human being for that. I just feel hopeless
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back in october i made my first post about my specific type of ocd, how it mixes in with my day to day and how i “deal” with it. i talked about the starting point, how it gradually got worse, and then how it was going just a few months ago. i always think it’s insane how much can change in just the course of a small to a large amount of time. right now, i honestly feel like garbage. to be quite sincere i really want to give up, i’m barely holding on by a thread. and if i cut that thread, i really doubt anyone would care. i’ve never considered myself to be a suicidal person, and i still don’t consider myself that right now. it just gets to a point where it’s just, a lot to deal with. i don’t really enjoy things a lot nowadays. sure i have good days like everyone does, like today, when i was just enjoying my day without worries. but then it all comes crawling back twice as bad the following days. i take online college so i’m usually just stuck at home most of the time. but, when i do decide to actually go out and leave my house, my ocd just explodes because i have this whole routine i need to do or else i feel like i’ll contaminate wherever i end up going. i’m not going to go really deep into my compulsions because it’s hard enough to live with them, much more having to type them all out in detail. but when i go out my compulsions go from wiping down all my stuff i’m going to use after showering, to washing my clothes/cleaning the washer + dryer. i also have separate things (or two of the same thing) i use specifically in my house, and items i use when going out. such as shampoo/body wash, deodorant, lotion, hair curler, etc. as if that’s not draining enough, i also feel the need to fast a couple days prior to any plan i make because i’ve forced myself to believe i need to feel empty in order to be clean. i’m not sure if that’s my past eating disorder talking, or my ocd, but my brain can’t help but think any food in my house is utterly and completely contaminated. i’m so tired of this feeling, feeling like nothing will ever be clean again. feeling like my ocd is trapped in my childhood home. feeling that wave of diseases rushing through my veins the moment i step foot into what’s supposed to be “home”. and i’m so scared of therapy because what if i do get healed, and then everything comes rushing back the second i step into my room. i’m planning on moving somewhere far from my current house in this next coming year, so sometimes i feel like just waiting it out. but it’s insufferable when going to hangout with someone. i miss my friends, my family, and my partner. it’s crazy to me that i’m dealing with all this at the young age of 18 but, i’m sure lots of people have it way worse. i just want to find a way out, any possible way. but i keep pushing myself deeper and deeper that when i finally find a way, it will no longer exist.
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I started dealing with OCD when I became fixated on health issues, particularly the fear of contracting a life-threatening disease. If I experienced any kind of medical symptom, no matter how small, that even remotely hinted at something potentially fatal, it would drive me crazy, and I couldn’t stop obsessing over it. Then one day, I started having intrusive thoughts about accidentally hitting someone with my car, and I would end up driving in circles to check if I had. Eventually, I found myself overwhelmed by a flood of new obsessive thoughts and compulsions. One day, while I was at the park, a squirrel came near me, and for some reason, I felt like it attacked me. I Googled it and learned that squirrels could carry rabies, which spiraled me into a deep fear of rabies. I became consumed with the thought I received a bite from a squirrel, raccoon, or bat any time I’m in areas that trigger me. It started off only being inside then transferred to even being in my own home. This made me obsess over every physical sensation in my body, compulsively checking to make sure nothing was wrong. One compulsion that I hated the most would to be putting rubbing alcohol on me to make sure that I had no open wounds. Every day feels like I’m walking around in a fog of anxiety, constantly worrying that I won’t even make it to old age. Sometimes, it gets so overwhelming that I just want it all to end. It stresses me so bad at times to where my brain feels like I’ve been studying all day.
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