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I was diagnosed 11 years ago at 14 but I’ve done compulsions from earliest memory at 6. I explained to my Peditrician at 14 she said I had ocd and referred me to psychologist and psychiatrist. Took the meds for a week went out my mind and stopped therapy and meds for the following 10 years or so. Mind you I took the meds for a week and had side effects for two years following( high prolactin levels and milk production with no pregnancy or baby) this last year I found a therapist through YouTube (Danielle Thornton) she changed my life and for the first time in 19 years I can say I have experienced little to no anxiety and only getting better by the day.
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Thanks for sharing. It's amazing how it can start at such a young age. If I think long and hard, I'm sure I can think of things I did when I was younger that was unusual. But it wasn't until my teen years when it started to affect my life so bad that I dropped out of highschool. I just looked up Danielle Thornton on YouTube and I'm loving her playlists. I'll have to check this out.
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@BlueGemini I got the package from her it’s about 1200 I think but I’m on a payment plan and at the point I was in it was worth my life. Put in the work and trust I’ve accomplished more in this past year than I have in the last 24. You just have to put in the work. If I can do it honestly anyone can
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Never officially diagnosed but my therapist has mentioned treating my anxiety “like” ocd. I first realized mine postpartum with harm ocd directly related to my firstborn child. Lots of intrusive thoughts and compulsions to avoid such harm. As I’ve learned more about it I’ve come to realize that I’ve suffered ocd tendencies basically my whole life in a variety of themes
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I’m sorry to hear that girl. I hope you’re doing better and can continue to recover
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I feel this. My husband and I have been on the fence if we want to start a family or not. He's open to it, and I know deep down I'd be a good mom, but I hold myself back. I'm scared to conceive on medication and I feel like I'd be genetically predisposing my baby to develop mental health issues like mine. Leave it to anxiety to be overprotective of a baby I don't even have. 😅 I hope you find some relief soon.
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Well I’m a late onset person which really sucked not have to deal with such a hard thing my whole life. I was diagnosed with ocd at age 36 which was may 2020. I had a nightmare about stabbing my spouse and it sent me into a frantic panic attack as I didn’t know what was happening to me. Immediately sought help because I was so afraid it was something I wanted to do since I dreamed it but it wasn’t who I am. Shit has been a heck of a year with all kinds of intrusive thoughts over harm. Can’t believe a condition like this exist but I’m taking it in stride day by day. Been in therapy ever since last May.
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Not sure if I had ocd when I was younger but I did have some crazy taboo thoughts from time to time when I was younger and I found out that a great aunt of mine had ocd before they called it ocd.
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@Dre83 That sounds so scary and I can imagine how distressing that must've been. I just turned 34 myself so I relate to your late diagnosis. I read somewhere that the human brain doesn't fully develop until age 25 so it doesn't surprise me that late diagnoses happen. But it doesn't make it suck any less.
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@BlueGemini Yeah it was and sometimes it’s still scary cause I’ve yet to get them to go away. We just moved from our house cause I thought it would be but I realized I was just trying to run from the problem in hopes I could make it go away. Now I’m afraid that something is in our new house shit is so crazy. Every time my dog barks I feel like she knows something I don’t know. It’s crazy I know
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@Dre83 It's not crazy, but I know it feels like it. I just moved into a 102 year old house and am still settling into it. My dog will bark at random stuff and my cat sometimes stares at the wall and I'm always afraid I'm going to discover a ghost or demon in the middle of the night or something. 😅 I have the most terribly overactive imagination mixed with a super Christian upbringing so it's the best blend of insanity.
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@BlueGemini Yoooo I feel the same way. I wasn’t brought up Christian but I am a Christian now. This dang brain is cray cray lol
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Some background: I’m a woman in my 30s who’s been struggling to find the right diagnosis for years. Since 2022, I’ve had multiple psych hospital stays, and with each stay came a different diagnosis and different sets of medications: Bipolar II, CPTSD, MDD with psychotic features, “high functioning BPD,” and most recently, Schizoaffective Disorder (depressive type). Before all of that happened, I had been seeing a therapist for CPTSD and AuDHD traits for 2 years, but after they left the practice, I struggled to find someone I trusted again. Most of my breakdowns happened during my last relationship. Looking back, I was in survival mode with them, leaving who *I* am behind. I got to the point where I started doubting my own reality from the abuse. This eventually added up and landed me in my first episode of psychosis. That combined with my attempts is what got me my schizoaffective diagnosis. After finally leaving that relationship 1.5 years ago, I’ve slowly rebuilt my life: new town, new job, new friends. Many of my old symptoms (major ones) haven’t returned, which makes me believe I may have been misdiagnosed due to reliving past childhood trauma and stress responses from the abuse. Through all of this, I’ve felt like nothing ever truly fit. I journal, I reflect, I replay the recordings and I’ve even watched old vlogs –the puzzle pieces still don’t come together. It’s left me feeling like I’ll never really know what’s going on, and I’ve started to fear that my diagnoses will just keep stacking up without ever leading to effective treatment. Recently, I opened up to a friend about this. She mentioned that her neighbor went through something similar not exactly like me but she thought it would give me a starting point—multiple diagnoses that never felt right—until a new doctor finally identified it as OCD. That one diagnosis changed everything for her. It made me realize I really don’t know much about OCD beyond the stereotypes. I didn’t know OCD could involve intrusive thoughts, rumination, or mental compulsions. My friend encouraged me to look into it, especially as I start searching for a new therapist. Facebook and Google lead me here… So now I’m wondering: could OCD be a better explanation for what I’ve been experiencing all these years? Questions for the community: 1. What steps did you take to find out if OCD was what you were dealing with? 2. If you had a long history of misdiagnoses, how did you finally find a clinician who got it right? 3. How did you advocate for yourself when people dismissed your concerns? 4. Is there anything you wish you had done earlier in your OCD journey? Thank you so much if you made it this far. I’m really grateful for this space and just want to start finding answers and the right kind of help.
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I’m kind of frustrated because for YEARS I’ve been trying to express my concerns. For about 6-7 years I’ve been concerned about having OCD. I’m not diagnosed and I want to talk to a professional to confirm whether or not I have it. I have been struggling with several symptoms over many years of my life and it has been absolutely distressing. I’ve expressed my concerns to two doctors. One of them pretended like they didn’t hear me and the other did give me scenarios that I experience. When I said yes to the ones that applied to me, she said “well it’s very normal for people to wash their hands a lot and check door locks” well yeah but what I experience is so much more than that and it’s been absolutely horrendous. I have super bad compulsions and intrusive thoughts, at some point I broke a TV because I felt like I had to throw these little coasters at it for 5 times. And then after those 5 times, the way I threw it didn’t feel right, so I had to do it again and again until it felt right and then it broke :/ The doctor later told me that they can recommend me to professionals but my mom didn’t want me to because of fear that I can get medicated. But I just want to talk to a professional to be able to express my concerns about it. I also feel bad about talking about what I experience because I don’t want people to think that I’m trying to self diagnose myself. I just want to be able to recognize my struggles and try to overcome what I go through. All I want is help. At some point I went to therapy and I had three sessions and then my mom pulled me out. But in those sessions I haven’t talked about my struggles with OCD yet, I was talking about other issues and my therapist was still trying to get to know me. :( Sometimes when I’ve talked to my parents they don’t really try to listen. Sometimes they tell me “well everyone has a little bit of OCD”. Okay, well I’m not talking about everyone, I’m talking about ME. And back when I struggled so much with violent intrusive thoughts, it was also a time where I felt like I HAD to tell my parents about every thought that I had. And my parents were concerned and thought that I was just in general violent. But I’m not violent, I don’t believe these things. And they STILL don’t want to hear me out on my concerns after all of that. I just want to feel validated with what I go through. I am convinced that I struggle with OCD, but I want to be SURE. I don’t want to feel like I’m self diagnosing. I want to KNOW what I’ve been experiencing all these years. I really do like this app because I feel like I finally relate to other people and that I can REALLY talk about my struggles while being understood. Whether or not if I do have it, I feel really understood and I really understand and relate with others. But anyways I hope I can figure this whole thing out one day😓🙏
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