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I was diagnosed 11 years ago at 14 but I’ve done compulsions from earliest memory at 6. I explained to my Peditrician at 14 she said I had ocd and referred me to psychologist and psychiatrist. Took the meds for a week went out my mind and stopped therapy and meds for the following 10 years or so. Mind you I took the meds for a week and had side effects for two years following( high prolactin levels and milk production with no pregnancy or baby) this last year I found a therapist through YouTube (Danielle Thornton) she changed my life and for the first time in 19 years I can say I have experienced little to no anxiety and only getting better by the day.
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Thanks for sharing. It's amazing how it can start at such a young age. If I think long and hard, I'm sure I can think of things I did when I was younger that was unusual. But it wasn't until my teen years when it started to affect my life so bad that I dropped out of highschool. I just looked up Danielle Thornton on YouTube and I'm loving her playlists. I'll have to check this out.
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@BlueGemini I got the package from her it’s about 1200 I think but I’m on a payment plan and at the point I was in it was worth my life. Put in the work and trust I’ve accomplished more in this past year than I have in the last 24. You just have to put in the work. If I can do it honestly anyone can
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- 3y ago
Never officially diagnosed but my therapist has mentioned treating my anxiety “like” ocd. I first realized mine postpartum with harm ocd directly related to my firstborn child. Lots of intrusive thoughts and compulsions to avoid such harm. As I’ve learned more about it I’ve come to realize that I’ve suffered ocd tendencies basically my whole life in a variety of themes
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I’m sorry to hear that girl. I hope you’re doing better and can continue to recover
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I feel this. My husband and I have been on the fence if we want to start a family or not. He's open to it, and I know deep down I'd be a good mom, but I hold myself back. I'm scared to conceive on medication and I feel like I'd be genetically predisposing my baby to develop mental health issues like mine. Leave it to anxiety to be overprotective of a baby I don't even have. 😅 I hope you find some relief soon.
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Well I’m a late onset person which really sucked not have to deal with such a hard thing my whole life. I was diagnosed with ocd at age 36 which was may 2020. I had a nightmare about stabbing my spouse and it sent me into a frantic panic attack as I didn’t know what was happening to me. Immediately sought help because I was so afraid it was something I wanted to do since I dreamed it but it wasn’t who I am. Shit has been a heck of a year with all kinds of intrusive thoughts over harm. Can’t believe a condition like this exist but I’m taking it in stride day by day. Been in therapy ever since last May.
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Not sure if I had ocd when I was younger but I did have some crazy taboo thoughts from time to time when I was younger and I found out that a great aunt of mine had ocd before they called it ocd.
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@Dre83 That sounds so scary and I can imagine how distressing that must've been. I just turned 34 myself so I relate to your late diagnosis. I read somewhere that the human brain doesn't fully develop until age 25 so it doesn't surprise me that late diagnoses happen. But it doesn't make it suck any less.
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@BlueGemini Yeah it was and sometimes it’s still scary cause I’ve yet to get them to go away. We just moved from our house cause I thought it would be but I realized I was just trying to run from the problem in hopes I could make it go away. Now I’m afraid that something is in our new house shit is so crazy. Every time my dog barks I feel like she knows something I don’t know. It’s crazy I know
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@Dre83 It's not crazy, but I know it feels like it. I just moved into a 102 year old house and am still settling into it. My dog will bark at random stuff and my cat sometimes stares at the wall and I'm always afraid I'm going to discover a ghost or demon in the middle of the night or something. 😅 I have the most terribly overactive imagination mixed with a super Christian upbringing so it's the best blend of insanity.
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@BlueGemini Yoooo I feel the same way. I wasn’t brought up Christian but I am a Christian now. This dang brain is cray cray lol
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Hi I kept seeing this app on repeat on TikTok over and over and I thought I give it a shot. I have never been diagnosed with OCD but I know that I have it. I’m a young adult and I found out the first time I had OCD was watching lelelons truth video? I was 14 at the time She had to resist sitting back down in a chair after her having sat down she started having a mental break down when she was told to resist. That’s when I knew. It started with myself going up and down a staircase twice buckling unbuckling my seat belt everytime I’m in the car ect I have always been super anti social but trying my best I can socialize but my mind wants to make it sexual with family and friends ughhhh I hate it because that’s not me when I graduated thoughts of hurting my loved ones corrupted my mind I broke down outside of church one time asking if this was really me or not i question if I’m a good enough friend or person in this world to begin with thinking everyone is judging me so so close how can I make this situation better did I do something wrong I struggle with depression as well not to bad but it’s there I come from a loving family but broken as well i believe in god and my OCD makes me go often he’s not real that stuff isn’t real no one is there to save you the list goes on. Anyway I struggle a lot and I really hope that this will help me because I feel extremely hopeless. Lucky for me I do have the ability to seek therapy and I am excited. The only person I ever tell my thoughts to is God no other human has heard so I’m really really hoping this helps me out if your reading this thank you it means a lot because this is my first time ever admitting all this it’s a lot to take in I know and I hope you are ok and that you have a great night and know that we got this
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Hey friends, I hope you all are well. I just wanted to check in and ask people's experiences about being on medication. I have had OCD pretty much my whole life, just got recently diagnosed 4 months ago and my therapist recommended that I get on meds for it so I have a psychiatrist appointment set up. I'm a little apprehensive about getting on them, but I've realized that I do have some sort of chemical imbalance in my brain that plays a part in my OCD and anxiety. I would love to hear anyones experiences or words of encouragement. Thank you, I hope you all are well.
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Looking back, my introverted nature and struggles to find belonging in high school may have set the stage for how OCD would later impact my relationships. I had my first relationship in high school, but OCD wasn’t a major factor then. It wasn’t until my longest relationship—six years from age 18 to 24—that OCD really took hold. The relationship itself wasn’t the issue; it was what happened after. When it ended, I became obsessed with confessing past mistakes, convinced I had to be completely transparent. Even when my partner was willing to work past them, I couldn’t let go of the intrusive thoughts, and that obsession landed me in the hospital. From there, my struggle with ROCD (Relationship OCD) fully emerged. For years, every time I tried to move forward in dating, doubts consumed me. I would start seeing someone and feel fine, but then the questions would creep in: Do I really like her? Do I find her attractive? Is she getting on my nerves? What if I’m with the wrong person? I’d break things off, thinking I was following my true feelings. But then I’d question: Was that really how I felt, or was it just OCD? I tried again and again, each time hoping I could “withstand it this time,” only to fall back into the same cycle. The back and forth hurt both me and the person I was with. By the time I realized it was ROCD, the damage had been done, and I still hadn’t built the tools to manage it. Now, at 28, I know I need to approach dating differently. I recently talked to someone from a dating app, and my OCD still showed up—questioning my every move, making me doubt my own decisions. I haven’t yet done ERP specifically for ROCD, but I know that’s my next step. Just like I’ve learned tools for managing my other OCD subtypes, I need a set of strategies for when intrusive doubts hit in relationships. My goal this year is to stop letting uncertainty control me—to learn how to sit with doubt instead of trying to “figure it out.” I want to break the cycle and be able to build something healthy without my OCD sabotaging it. I know I’m not alone in this, and I know healing is possible. I’m hopeful that working with a therapist will help me develop exposures and thought loops to practice. I don’t expect to eliminate doubt entirely—after all, doubt is a part of every relationship—but I want to reach a place where it doesn’t paralyze me. Where I can move forward without constantly questioning whether I should. And where I can be in a relationship without feeling like OCD is pulling the strings. I would appreciate hearing about your experiences with ROCD. Please share your thoughts or any questions in the comments below. I’d love to connect and offer my perspective. Thanks!
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