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I was diagnosed 11 years ago at 14 but I’ve done compulsions from earliest memory at 6. I explained to my Peditrician at 14 she said I had ocd and referred me to psychologist and psychiatrist. Took the meds for a week went out my mind and stopped therapy and meds for the following 10 years or so. Mind you I took the meds for a week and had side effects for two years following( high prolactin levels and milk production with no pregnancy or baby) this last year I found a therapist through YouTube (Danielle Thornton) she changed my life and for the first time in 19 years I can say I have experienced little to no anxiety and only getting better by the day.
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Thanks for sharing. It's amazing how it can start at such a young age. If I think long and hard, I'm sure I can think of things I did when I was younger that was unusual. But it wasn't until my teen years when it started to affect my life so bad that I dropped out of highschool. I just looked up Danielle Thornton on YouTube and I'm loving her playlists. I'll have to check this out.
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@BlueGemini I got the package from her it’s about 1200 I think but I’m on a payment plan and at the point I was in it was worth my life. Put in the work and trust I’ve accomplished more in this past year than I have in the last 24. You just have to put in the work. If I can do it honestly anyone can
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Never officially diagnosed but my therapist has mentioned treating my anxiety “like” ocd. I first realized mine postpartum with harm ocd directly related to my firstborn child. Lots of intrusive thoughts and compulsions to avoid such harm. As I’ve learned more about it I’ve come to realize that I’ve suffered ocd tendencies basically my whole life in a variety of themes
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I’m sorry to hear that girl. I hope you’re doing better and can continue to recover
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I feel this. My husband and I have been on the fence if we want to start a family or not. He's open to it, and I know deep down I'd be a good mom, but I hold myself back. I'm scared to conceive on medication and I feel like I'd be genetically predisposing my baby to develop mental health issues like mine. Leave it to anxiety to be overprotective of a baby I don't even have. 😅 I hope you find some relief soon.
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Well I’m a late onset person which really sucked not have to deal with such a hard thing my whole life. I was diagnosed with ocd at age 36 which was may 2020. I had a nightmare about stabbing my spouse and it sent me into a frantic panic attack as I didn’t know what was happening to me. Immediately sought help because I was so afraid it was something I wanted to do since I dreamed it but it wasn’t who I am. Shit has been a heck of a year with all kinds of intrusive thoughts over harm. Can’t believe a condition like this exist but I’m taking it in stride day by day. Been in therapy ever since last May.
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Not sure if I had ocd when I was younger but I did have some crazy taboo thoughts from time to time when I was younger and I found out that a great aunt of mine had ocd before they called it ocd.
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@Dre83 That sounds so scary and I can imagine how distressing that must've been. I just turned 34 myself so I relate to your late diagnosis. I read somewhere that the human brain doesn't fully develop until age 25 so it doesn't surprise me that late diagnoses happen. But it doesn't make it suck any less.
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@BlueGemini Yeah it was and sometimes it’s still scary cause I’ve yet to get them to go away. We just moved from our house cause I thought it would be but I realized I was just trying to run from the problem in hopes I could make it go away. Now I’m afraid that something is in our new house shit is so crazy. Every time my dog barks I feel like she knows something I don’t know. It’s crazy I know
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@Dre83 It's not crazy, but I know it feels like it. I just moved into a 102 year old house and am still settling into it. My dog will bark at random stuff and my cat sometimes stares at the wall and I'm always afraid I'm going to discover a ghost or demon in the middle of the night or something. 😅 I have the most terribly overactive imagination mixed with a super Christian upbringing so it's the best blend of insanity.
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@BlueGemini Yoooo I feel the same way. I wasn’t brought up Christian but I am a Christian now. This dang brain is cray cray lol
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