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- 4y
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- 4y
I had a strikingly similar obsession years ago where I thought i was just going to snap
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- 4y
Sometimes I get that tingling feeling you’re talking about and the only option is to let it be there bc it ain’t gonna go away so puff out ur chest at it
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Hey there. I know exactly how you feel. 15 months again harm ocd wrecked my world I was so afraid I threw the knife set away. It took me a long time to understand these are just thoughts and it’s ok to have them. They sometimes still bother me but for the most part they dont. I still have harm thoughts daily but I try to live my life best as possible. You can get through this even if it seems like it’s impossible. I know you can!
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Okay so it feels like I will lose control but I don't want too... I don't really have any anxiety because I try not to freak out.. But not freaking out has me thinking if it will come true. I avoid knifes a lot every time I see one I go 0-0 or when I'm cleaning one I'll not look at it and clean it fast... I just can't be comfortable with the thoughts... I wanna get rid of the thoughts and live a happy life.. Without thinking of this.
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Also worried I will lose my personality and the person I currently scared I'll be the opposite of who I currently am.
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Agh I don't understand when I cry cause of this I don't feel like I will lose control or I feel like I don't truly wanna be like this. It now feels as if I do I DON'T WHY DOES IT FEEL LIKE I DO! Idk what to do it feels as If I will no anxiety just plain confusion :/
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I'm just scared I will go from caring to not caring and do bad things..
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- 25w
I'm at my college and don't feel like being here. I didn't even want to come here. I woke up with anxiety bc i feel like i need to solve this. I had a bad stomach ache when i arrived to school and still havent even eaten breakfast yet bc i feel like i have to solve this. Im just so worried bc i have harm thoughts daily. If i could i would remove this! I dont want to think anymore. Its just, how do I know i dont have real urges when I'm feeling a negative emotion like anger or disappointment or annoyance? Im worried EVERY time i feel a negative emotion. Yesterday I was playing video games with my neice (we are close in age range) and she made us lose. She started blaming me and I guess i felt a little annoyed, it really wasnt my fault (dumb mini argument it was more playful since we started laughing but it was a bit annoying). Anyway i got a harm thought while feeling annoyed of me getting off the couch and lunging at her to attack. I immediately look at my bodily reaction and I tense up to stay as still as possible. My stomach was hurting and i wanted to leave as fast as possible. I stood up and turned off the game and said i was tired while making sure to stay back from her (and i had my hands away and stiff) but i felt so uneasy. I laid I bed and felt sad and heavy. And i kept getting thoughts that said "íts only a matter of time before you can't take it anymore". I started to reassurance seek using ai to ask if i was about to or if they are real urges or thoughts i mean until i eventually fell asleep in the middle of the compulsion. Im just so worried, what if I act out impulsevly one day? I dont want to! But what if when feeling a negative emotion, i suddenly dont care and do something? I really dont want to! I dont even want to feel negative emotions anymore since they trigger the thoughts and I dont want to think about any of that. As a result i tend to avoid my family as much as possible bc they are annoying sometimes. I just wish i was all alone sometimes so i wont get any more thoughts and so everyone can be safe. I usually just stay in bed under my blankets all day long to avoid my family and pets. I am constantly uncomfortable. I miss when i would never think any of this. Living life has become very scary for me now. 😞
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- 23w
I’ve tried living in the uncertainty today & kept myself busy but I can’t shake this feeling that I’m about to lose control & act on my thoughts. I keep feeling like I need to check in to see how I feel & keep my self safe & when I’m near my trigger it feels like I’m being pulled into doing it & feels like I want to but I’m not using compulsions. My thoughts feel like my own & feeling like I’ll be like this forever. Can someone relate or give advice 😩
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- 21w
I get these violent urges thats started randomly and now i feel like ill hurt someone it feels impossible to control almost gets me shaking
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