I think Ima lose control I have the urge to but I don't want too I don't want my arms anymore! I don't wanna be like that I wanna be how I usually am just shy, quiet and scared. I don't feel scared omg I have this tingling feeling in my feets my arms feel like they're gonna do bad things! I'm just so worried I'll stop caring! I wanna feel like my old self again!

I had a strikingly similar obsession years ago where I thought i was just going to snap

Sometimes I get that tingling feeling you’re talking about and the only option is to let it be there bc it ain’t gonna go away so puff out ur chest at it

Hey there. I know exactly how you feel. 15 months again harm ocd wrecked my world I was so afraid I threw the knife set away. It took me a long time to understand these are just thoughts and it’s ok to have them. They sometimes still bother me but for the most part they dont. I still have harm thoughts daily but I try to live my life best as possible. You can get through this even if it seems like it’s impossible. I know you can!

Okay so it feels like I will lose control but I don't want too... I don't really have any anxiety because I try not to freak out.. But not freaking out has me thinking if it will come true. I avoid knifes a lot every time I see one I go 0-0 or when I'm cleaning one I'll not look at it and clean it fast... I just can't be comfortable with the thoughts... I wanna get rid of the thoughts and live a happy life.. Without thinking of this.

Also worried I will lose my personality and the person I currently scared I'll be the opposite of who I currently am.

Agh I don't understand when I cry cause of this I don't feel like I will lose control or I feel like I don't truly wanna be like this. It now feels as if I do I DON'T WHY DOES IT FEEL LIKE I DO! Idk what to do it feels as If I will no anxiety just plain confusion :/

I'm just scared I will go from caring to not caring and do bad things..