Friend, you are so extremely hard on yourself. Do you really believe in a God that cares so much specifically on those particular details? I believe in a loving and understanding God. Do you really want to have to live a life where you have to constantly do things perfectly in order to be good enough? That’s impossible. We are humans therefore we are imperfect. And who ever said we need to do things perfectly? I can’t live that way. We aren’t robots. And saying you “fail at everything” sounds like quite an exaggeration! I don’t know anyone who fails at everything. And even if you did, who cares. You can go about and enjoy your life and choose to love yourself anyway.
What is your salvation prayer?