I'm incredibly anxious right now. I can't tell if im feeling guilty or if my perfectionism and need to constantly "tell on myself" is just making me feel guilty. How can I tell? I'm worried that if I was doing something bad, if I will not be of any value anymore and I'm scared that nobody will trust me. I'm also anxious because I probably over-explained myself and sought reassurance a few times that it might wrongly make me seem guilty... that is unless I'm guilty? I'm so confused and feeling helpless.

It definitely sounds like you're in the middle of an OCD cycle. Many of us on this site, myself included and very recently, have been where you are. Let me start by assuring you that the things you're worrying about aren't real, it's OCD feeding on your greatest fears and insecurities. I think you already know this but when you're deep in it, there's no thinking your way out of it. In fact, the way out is to not think at all. Second, you will be fine! At this point, it might be a minute by minute process but be as patient as you can with yourself. If you're like many of us, it took a long time to get to this tricky point and it's going to take time and work to get out of it but it is worth it and you are strong enough. OCD plants uncertainty in your mind and then feeds off of your inability to accept uncertainty. The ERP therapy you get through this site teaches you how to accept uncertainty; that's what takes the anxiety away. Until then, it's okay to feel confused and helpless so show yourself some compassion - you deserve it! If you need to, use the S.O.S. feature on the app and know that you're not alone in this.