When Im listening to songs and imagining, guys pop up in my fantasies instead of girls( It always used to be girls) , I dont get anxiety Im just afraid that my brain is changing in some way and I cant do anything to stop it or that my true self is finally coming out. I had another bad morning today, was fully convinced that Im gay, I saw a girl walk by when I was on my way to work, and In my head I just couldnt imagine myself with any women in that moment. It was even more convincing bc there was no anxiety everything felt real, occurences like this one have become so common for me. That was a couple hours ago, and that intial convinced feeling is still lingering in my mind. I feel so hopeless