Good morning. In my experience I view recovery (a daily commitment) as an active choice I must make to face life wholly and to accept and feel my fears and worries. For example, when I am “triggered” by an obsessive thought and the resulting “ping” of emotion, I have a simple (yet often impossible) choice to make: I can choose to not react to the thought->emotion (nor attach meaning to it) or I can let my brain run wild into compulsions. The challenge for me has always been the frequency and speed of my OCD thoughts which eventually wears me down and makes this choice very difficult. However, we always have that choice. We can choose to face our fears and not let them control us.
Along with this choice, we also have the ability to accept the thought->emotion and sit in the feelings. Feel everything without reaction. Don’t do your compulsion!! Make that choice (as hard as it is) and do your best to stick to it.
You are so strong for being on this app. You are so strong for wanting to be better. That alone tells me that you can do this!!! You can!!!
Good luck. And sorry for long post. I’m just feeling very passionate this morning about all of us truly kicking this things $$$. 😁