Having intrusive thoughts all day ever since I woke up, I was fine earlier this morning but now it just feels real and at times I don’t feel like myself, as if something else has taken over. It wants me to turn into things that I don’t want, it wants me to hurt, and I don’t know what to do anymore. It’s like after my exposures I feel like myself again but then my thoughts come right back saying it was a lie. I honestly feel numb, the numbest I ever felt. I’m so tired.

One thing that works and I know this sounds crazy but try actually bringing on the fear. Try bring on the panic attack and try make your self anxious. Tell OCD is that all you got? give me more.! The problem we have is the fact that we’re all filled with self doubt and that doubt has made us all extremely sensitive and hyper vigilant to body symptoms, and intrusive thoughts! Ya see by deflating the fear and actually trying to call it on in times of peace you’ll find that it’s virtually impossible to become anxious! Why is this? It’s because your not afraid of anything at that particular moment. The same can work for when your having a panic attack so the first thing you need to do is ACCEPT! Accept the sensations and the body symptoms and know that they cannot hurt you. No one has ever died from a panic attack and yet tons of people wind up in the hospital after having one. They often run tests and then tell you your fine. Why do most people calm down when they get to the hospital in the middle of a panic attack? It’s because there telling themselves that they are in a safe place! That what you need to learn to do for yourself. You are your only safe place ,and you need to be the one that you need to turn to for help ! FEAR. Is not real FALSE EVIDENCE APPEARING REAL. The biggest issue that we all have with OCD is it scares the fucking shit out of us! That’s unfortunately what keeps it alive and as mentioned before you need to learn to deflate the fear. Sit with it. Let it try hurt you ,and when it’s coming on strong stand up to the fucker and ask if that’s all it has! Demand more !!demand it to get stronger and to be worse! What you’ll be doing is standing up to your worst nightmare and overtime with enough practice it really starts to work. Great Audio book out there called DARE. It’s the dare response which is a lot of what I’m talking about. Hang in there you got it this ! There’s a good chance your an extremely incredible person with tons of great things going for you. Focus on the good shit and when the bad stuff comes tell it to fuck off and stand your ground. Don’t let the self doubt disease of OCD take you down. I know it’s easy said than done but what do you got to lose ! Each one of us on this page would not be here if it wasn’t for the lack of one simple method of practice called ACCEPTANCE! Only when we can learn to accept the way we think, accept that stupid fucking intrusive thought ! Accept that part of our brain is broken and accept that part of the brain cannot be healed. It can be treated! But unfortunately cannot ever be cured! We need to learn how to accept the hundreds of dark days that are yet to come and accept when things go terribly wrong !! When we all can accept and most importantly not be afraid of the thoughts we think then they lose their power. When you let your thoughts be they will let you be ! That saying comes from a recovered individual that suffered from OCD and I can tell you in my experience it does work. I’m far from Recovered myself and every fucking day is a struggle , but I still keep pushing forward! I’m not going to let this bastard take me down and I’m not giving up till she’s all said and done. I wish you and everyone on this site the best of luck and remember if you can look up you can get up

I’m totally here to listen . I feel your pain and you just spoke some pretty real feelings that are hard to accept. I’m Totally going to bed right now but I will respond to this post tomorrow

Hey there. How are you holding up with everything?

Doing okay. Some days are fair. Other days worse. Recently had a panic attack