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No one can ever know for sure whether the exposures they're practicing are the "right" ones... and also, ERP is the best evidence-based treatment for OCD. These two things can be true at the same time. Remedies that get more to the root of a problem rarely show results overnight, and sometimes feel worse before they feel better... this is true in lots of areas - taking meds, chemo treatments, even things like studying for an exam, or married people working on their relationship. So only time will tell whether the exposures are hurting or helping more. The way we're taught to get through the exercises in the meantime is to work on accepting the uncertain parts. Like, we can't ever know for sure whether we might develop a certain condition in the future; we can't know for sure whether we might be the one person out there who properly-done ERP isn't healthy for. Maybe, maybe not 🙂
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I have the fear of psychosis AND ITS SO BAD im scared of hearing voices and hallucinating and having delusions
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That’s part of my fear too 😭 just seriously makes me want to cry because this all came out of no where and gripped on to me so fast.
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@alexisgonell Me too ive had this fear since January like at first i feared schizophrenia and around march and april i switched to psychosis and its soo so bad im like so scared
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@nayely🤍 What triggered you back then? I got triggered when I was watching to tv show and the girl on the show said she was diagnosed with it and I got a massive panic attack and then started researching all about it and went down the dark rabbit hole and couldn’t stop and now here I am today terrified that one day it could happen to me. Before that day I never once gave it a single thought. It’s like how can one small thing throw me into such a panic. And since it’s all in my head (the compulsions) it’s even harder to do the exposures
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@alexisgonell What triggered me was a intrusive thought i had that was liek “kill yourself kill yourself” and i knew it was a thought but idk i kept saying it was a voice bc it was so weird and then i started searching and schizophrenia came up and then yep thats how it started
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There is a book I think will help you get a better understanding of OCD and how it operates. Its called OCD Travel Guide by Michael Parker. It does a great job of explaining obessesions and compulsions and how to recognize an intrusive thought. He also teaches you different ways to do exposures and how to fight back against OCD. Its available on Amazon.
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Ugh i have expierenced this in the past as well. Also was triggered by a show where someone was diagnosed and similar to you had never once thought about it before. So frustrating.
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I had this fear back in college. I was a psych major for awhile and took an Abbormal Psych class. I didn't know I had OCD back then. I was terrified for an entire semester that I was going to develop schizophrenia. To the point where it kept me up at night and tormented me during the day. ERP is definitely terrifying. But it works. So when you give into a compulsion, it relieves your anxiety, but only for a very short time. It also strengthens the intrusive thought and makes your OCD worse. So you end up in a vicious circle. Years ago, scientists believed that once neural pathways in the brain were formed, they were permanent. The more you think a particular thought, strengthens the pathway and it actually makes a groove in your brain. But over the last decade or so, scientists discovered that current neural pathways can be changed. So what ERP does is basically reprogram your brain and teaches it that the intrusive thought is not a threat. So there will be no or very little anxiety attached to it.Everyone has intrusive thoughts. The issue isn't the intrusive thought, its the meaning and weight people with OCD attach to it. The anxiety relief from ERP is long lasting. But you will feel worse before you feel better. It's all part of the process. But ERP does work. It has made a huge difference for me.
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I don’t even really know exactly what my compulsions are so it’s hard to put my finger on. It’s all mental. A lot of the time I’ll just cry and I’ll feel better afterwards, or I’ll find support groups like this where I can read and relate to other people, or I’ll call a family member and just vent my frustrations (but never ask for reassurance). So are those a compulsion as well because they make me feel better? This is what’s so confusing to me. Or I’ll ruminate in my head about it but that certainly doesn’t make me feel better or alleviate the anxiety associated with the thoughts and fears.
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@alexisgonell I know how you feel. 95% of my compulsions are mental as well. So there are several compulsions you mentioned. Seeking reassurance is a compulsion, confessing is a compulsion, googling symptoms is a compulsion, avoidance is a compulsion, spiraling into what ifs is a compulsion. Trying to argue or reason with the intrusive thought is a compulsion. Ruminating is a compulsion. Basically, a compulsion is anything you say, do, or think in an attempt to relieve the anxiety caused by the intrusive thought or trigger. Even something like prayer can become a compulsion
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@Lms526 Wow yeah I do ALL of that. So what else am I supposed to do with myself? I think that’s why I just broke down a cried a few minutes ago because idk what to do.. I’m trying to get a stay at home job in hopes it will totally distract me but even that scares me.
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@alexisgonell Distraction is also a compulsion. The best way to break the OCD cycle is by doing ERP. The key to a successful exposure is not doing any compulsions during or after the exposure. I know its scary and uncomfortable. You may also need to do the exposure several times before your anxiety gets low enough. But you CAN do this. Do you have a counselor that specializes in ERP and understands OCD?
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@Lms526 Yes I found her on this app. She is very knowledge and I do love talking to her. I feel so confident that I can do the exposures while I’m talking to her during our sessions and then when I actaully have to do them I’m like “oh shit”.
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When you do an exposure, you have to do the response prevention part- meaning you can’t do any compulsions, which especially includes rumination. Also I would rather have schizophrenia than OCD honestly lol
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Yeah ocd is horrible.
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I’m getting ready for a job interview right now, stressing, but I caught myself ruminating and I stopped myself and for some reason just thought of your comment when you said you would rather have schizophrenia than ocd and I actually laughed because I said “she’s probably right, it would be better because then I wouldn’t even be aware and I would be off in another reality” 😂 so thank you for making me find humor in this lol it was a pleasant surprise to laugh about it for once.
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@alexisgonell You are very welcome. I’m an ocd therapist who also has ocd and this is how I often get my clients on board with treatment 😂 I honestly feel like at this point I’d rather have all my ocd fears come true that continue to deal with OCD. What’s the point of worrying about all this shit if experiencing OCD itself is the worst part.
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@Maybe,MaybeNot Oh I love this!! Totally making me laugh 😂 so so so so true!!
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Hey all, This is so strange to share this, and I have been judged by others and misdiagnosed many times. About a year ago I worked with an OCD therapist and it was really triggering. For me my thoughts are mainly about suicidal ocd and harm ocd centered around my children of all things. Fear that I could or would want to hurt them, then feeling so horrible that I believe I’m suicidal then I go back and forth on that. After reading a few of your posts, it makes me truly have a bit of hope that I can overcome this.
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Not sure what to say. Just that I am so tired of dealing with OCD - I’ve had it for most of my life and as a 40 something woman, I’m exhausted. I’m tired of being misunderstood and mistreated. I’m tired of seeing relationships that I have dwindle bc my friends and family are overwhelmed with my ruminations and reassurance. I’m embarrassed bc I overwhelm my friends and family with whom I’ve trusted my personal thoughts with and I keep thinking that they can help me through stuff only to be let down. I’ve yet to meet another mind like mines who is complicated but trying to survive because I have children and want to see them grow. I’m tired of feeling defeated because someone took advantage of me and my thoughts. It’s so exhausting but I’m ready to try this because I know I need help. Not sure if this is triggering I’m just ranting bc I’m so lost.
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I’m on track to getting my diagnosis and i’m already questioning it. Pocd feels so real, and even though i once saw someone say “it has to feel real or you wouldn’t worry” which is like god level reassurance honestly, it hurts. I can’t look at children, they deserve better. My usual attraction seems to be gone and i can not think about anything else. At the same time i don’t really feel anxiety. I’m scared i don’t feel bad enough, if i just smiled maybe i honestly wouldn’t feel bad? I don’t have many other ocd symptoms either, except for some stuff when i was a kid and like questioning everything about myself. I’m clinging to the hope that this is Pocd instead of me being a Monster and at the same time i’m so sad that i have to go trough this. I don’t like myself but i’m sorry for my younger self. I just want to be held and be told that everything will be okay but how can i know? Even then i feel like comfort of that kind only really applies to others who are struggling and aren’t horrible like me. In so many ways i sm convinced i am a monster even though it might be a bit irrational. Maybe i’m a monster after all and then i should really get away from everyone i love. They deserve better :( After a lifetime of struggles (nothing super serious) i’m just getting started with therapy and i’m so.. scared. What if it won’t help? What if it turns out i’m the bad person i fear to be. Is there any way i can prepare or some tips or literally anything else? I would appreciate any wise words
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