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- Romans510
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- 3y ago
Try to avoid mental checks and rumination no matter how hard it is to. If your anxiety shows up out of nowhere just at the thought of him and gives a false signal that something might not be right, don't go looking for a reason or checking that everything is fine or so, just try to let it be there and move on. Once your brain gets used to registering the anxiety as a false alarm, it'll stop showing up.
That’s a good reminder, thank you!!
Have you noticed that big events, (such as getting married) seem to make your doubts and feelings considerably more intense and painful?
Yep, literally what’s happening lol
I’m actually functioning now but I have a lot of confusion around that because I was put on Lexapro so I don’t know if the medication is pulling a lot of the weight or not. My thoughts had me agoraphobic and I couldn’t even leave my house without panicking. This is NOT like me at all. I was actually extremely excited to get married! I got engaged October 2020 and I was thrilled and full of nothing but love for MONTHS! I had a thought sneak in after inviting a dr I worked for at the time to my wedding that threw me into a panic. My brain told me that if that man came to my wedding, I would be more worried about how he saw me than the man I was actually marrying. I was DEVASTATED and instantly was thrown into the OCD cycle. I did a lot of research and realized what I had and am now trying to fix it but the wedding definitely made thoughts worse. There was suddenly so much guilt that I may be leading him on. It’s just so mind boggling to me that one thought at the drop of a hat could derail me so bad. I’m still struggling with this. The hardest thing I have ever experienced. I have had other subtypes in the past that showed up during big changes in my life but I didn’t know it was OCD and it just went away on its own after about a month. I’m going on 3 months with ROCD.
I've been living with ROCD for 3 years now. The first year was with my kids mom who left and the last 2 years has been with my wife. I have had the exact same thought patterns and feelings through out both relationships and I had terrible anxiety and dread months before the wedding to my wife. I was anxious and unsure the entire ceremony too but after all was said and done I actually enjoyed the reception quite a bit. I still go through this shit every day but I have grown so much through it and believe it or not I feel it has brought us closer and humbled me more then anything I've ever been through in my life. I have to believe there's a reason for this more then just a struggle. I believe struggle is the bedrock of growth so I can't see this being any different
I don’t do anything differently. Avoidance is the worst thing you can do.
She's right. It's also the hardest thing not to do.
@JLG323 It gets easier the more you do it.
This is my biggest issue. I don’t know how to shut off the mental compulsions. I genuinely don’t know how to ever look at him and NOT have mental checking or see a text on my phone from him and not ruminate. Even though I know I can. I’ve done it before but that was before I knew what OCD was and I dolt remember why or how it went away on its own. A few years ago I had harm OCD towards him and almost broke up with him. Now we’re married and I fear I don’t love him. It’s so painful
This happens a lot! You could work with a therapist to do some exposures that are "challenging but manageble". It might be an exposure for you to simply think about this person while resisting rituals. if you are in a situation where you need to interact with this person, it might be helpful for you to try to reduce rituals or postpone them. for instance, instead of reassurance seeking immediately you could try to postpone this for 10-15 minutes and see how that goes.
I actually have started working with a therapist here at NOCD. I appreciate your feedback.
I've gotten pretty good at not doing physical compulsions. My main thing is mental analysis. Basically rocd, intuition, rocd??? Nah... Intuition.
Advice please! I have OCD, and it’s wormed it’s way to my relationship. It particularly revolves around social media, trust and the security of being together “forever”. I whole heartedly trust my partner. However, we all know that OCD causes doubt in the most rational things. Lately, if I get an irrational thought, I ask my partner if it’s true or not true, I get the affirmation I need, and then I feel intense guilt. The cycle begins again because I feel insecure for asking such questions, How do I work through these nagging thoughts and not bring my boyfriend into it? I get super impulsive and just ask him to reassure me. When I don’t ask him and challenge the thought, I’m really moody with him. I’ve had OCD my entire life and have “cured” other obsessions/rituals but for some reason, this one is tough, since another person is involved. Any advice?!
I have really terrible relationship OCD. The second I sense something is off, I overthink it until I’m exhausted and then I become uninterested in the relationship. At this point I don’t want to speak to my partner because ok afraid I’ll get triggered further. Any tips, thoughts?
Hello guys, Im new here and seeking for advice. Im in a relationship with an amazing guy. I love him so much and that’s why my ocd and anxiety are latching onto my connection with him. He was staying over at my place and 2 events happened (something to do with his disease and he had an allergic reaction to food) that caused my stress and anxiety levels to be higher than normal. Followed by a night of bad sleep made things worse. I became very alert and was easily triggered. Something occurred that I completely miscalculated and we talked about it but my anxiety was through the roof at this point. I got these disturbing images of me hurting him in my head. I have had intrusive thoughts in the past but it didn’t affect me this much. Because of the lack of sleep and my high anxiety level made me so afraid of myself that I made the decision to sent him home. I have cried so much since that happened. I feel so bad for having that thought. I love him so much. Our communication is very healthy so I’ve told him about this the day after (why I sent him home). I couldnt do it in the moment because i didnt want to make the situation worse. We werent in a fight when i sent him home but both emotional and hugging each other. I have the feeling that my anxiety and ocd have won the battle by sending him home (avoidance). But i care so much for him that I didn’t want him to be at risk (thats what my mind tells me, i know its showing me disturbing images the opposite of what i want). Im in the early stage of having this type of OCD but I don’t want to lose him. But for me the only way to get this relationship to work is to get rid of this. Can anyone relate? Like, having intrusive thoughts about your partner? I know its latching on to the things you love the most and I hate it so much. Thanks in advance :)
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