What would would happen if we follow our doubts and change our will? (instead of following our morality and suffering because of our ocd) I am wondering (Probably just another ocd doubt) All the toughs that let us scared, take us that way because our will is "against" the toughs, right? I meant, obviously only for those thoughts that doesn't harm anyone! For example I have the doubt "maby my man don't like me anymore/ maby I don't like him enough" what if instead of struggling with anxiety, stress and my own body I just broke up with him? That's not what I want; yeah, but I don't want to be always questioning and stressing myself either! What if we follow ocd instead of our will?

Lately I’ve been having moments where I want to be single and explore other possibilities, like new relationships or flings. Sometimes I even feel like I do not want to marry my partner. Those moments honestly scare me. In the last two days alone, I almost broke up with my boyfriend three different times. I love him, and I want to love him without these moments/urges to leave. I’ve been feeling especially numb and distant this past month, and while my OCD has been quieter, my connection to the relationship feels like it’s slipping. I feel like I might be glorifying the idea of being single, like the freedom and exploration seem so idealized. I’ve been looking for posts that sound similar to what I’m going through (yes, I know that’s a compulsion), and I’ve found a few that made me wonder if maybe OCD is more involved in this than I initially thought. I just really don’t understand how. Could it be a mix of my numbness and OCD? Could the urge to explore or the emotional flatness around the relationship be OCD showing up in a different way? One other thing I’ve noticed: whenever my boyfriend is sweet or romantic, I feel this deep guilt or just nothing. Like I cannot say “I love you” back without feeling like I’m lying. It makes me feel like a bad partner. I just want to understand how OCD might be playing a role in all of this.

Hey, I have been dealing with ocd for a while now and it has gotten to the point where every little decision could impact my whole life or something bad could happen. For example, ordering a coffee. If I pick 1st option on the menu, "you'll be a murder, evil, murdered." 2nd I would be okay. 3rd, " You'll be a pe*o, priest so you can't get married." (Not even catholic btw. Used to have obsession over it) It's tied to numbers and decisions. To the point it affects anything I do. It is tiring.

Hi, I have been experiencing the worst relationship anxiety. I have been with my boyfriend for well over 3 years. He is truly amazing and helps me in almost every way. We are both faithful Christian’s. About 7 months ago is when I began having doubts and intrusive thoughts about the relationship: “Am I attracted to him?” “Do I love him?” “Why am I doubting?” “Does God want me to leave?” And it has taken its toll on me. I am to the point now that my worries have worsened into “Do I actually want to be with him?” “How do I know if I want to be with him?” No matter how many times I tell myself that I DO want to be with him, I still question it. Can someone please help me. I don’t want to break up with him. I just can’t even trust myself anymore. I also have not been officially diagnosed with OCD. But, I relate to everything ROCD and have been diagnosed with anxiety.