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Breathe. I suffer from barn ocd as well. Its an awful thing but remember these intrusive thoughts and feelings aren't yours. You're better and not sure if it will help you but its done wonders for me to look up statistics. I have found that 98% of people that suffer never act on these terrible thoughts. Simple reasoning is that they aren't yours to act on. Exposure therapy helps as well but make sure you are working with an expert that knows how to guide you with that. Its a trying thing and I know this is hell I'm living with it every day. I hope it gets easier for you. Remember you are strong and important and loved. You got this! We fight together!
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I suffer from harm ocd as well and can relate to this but my ocd is like 98% don’t act in their thoughts but what if I’m one of the small 2% that does. Ocd just sucks it makes me feel like I’m going crazy and the worst thing is that I feel lost in who I am I just want to get better!
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Exactly how I’m feeling right now :/
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Your mind isn’t necessarily trying to turn you into a bad person, it’s giving all these thoughts to “protect” you from turning into a bad person. All the compulsions are to make you feel like you need to do them so you don’t turn into that. When in reality, you don’t need to pay attention to those thoughts. I know much Easier said than done. But with ERP you will be able to tolerate the thoughts more. And even if you are in ERP now, it will get better soon I promise! :)
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That’s a great way to look at it. Never thought of that before
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I meant I suffer from harm* ocd. My phone put barn by mistake lol. Anyway remember to stay strong. You are a warrior!
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- 15w
Hey so a couple months ago (7-8) I remember being upset at my family member. Like she was talking too much while I was annoyed and remember wanting her to be quiet. I got an intrusive thought like a really bad image of doing something really bad to her, and my hand twitched to the side a little? Like it felt like I was about to?! And I remembered thinking "if I do this, I'll get in trouble". I got up and left to the bathroom and felt horrified! I was thinking "did I want to act out? Did the only reason I didn't act out was because of getting in trouble? If there was no consequences, would have I done it?! Does this mean this whole time I've been using OCD as an excuse?" I remember I couldn't sleep for 3 nights because of how bad the anxiety was, I was crying and I felt very guilty like I should turn myself in to a mental hospital. I couldn't eat for many days or be near her because of that thought and twitch I had! I'm worried it was an impulse or I actually wanted to hurt her. And even to this day I still ruminanate about this. Like last night I couldn't sleep well I kept waking up every two hours and asking myself "am I capable?" I couldn't eat last night. Sometimes I move on from it like I forget that happened but when I remember, I feel distressed about it! I don't want to be an evil person or do bad actions towards anyone! I'm even scared to be angry because of this because I'm scared I have more "chance" of acting out due to anger. Like was it an impulse and I held back? Is this even OCD? Please help, I'm really scared!
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- 13w
Why the h•••ll did this happen to me? Seriously, I felt like a normal person yesterday, and now this morning, I feel like I am now a p•••do. When I first woke up, I kept thinking about about the usual things about a kid, only this time it felt real. It was like I was into them sexually and because of that, my private parts growed. Even though I kept saying "no, no ,no" a lot, I felt was only talking to open air and it didn't feel like I meant it God, for the last couple of days, I truly felt normal for once, and against these thoughts. But now I know that I am a p•••do and a piece of s••••it for seeing kids that way. If I could go back before all of this happened, I f••••cking would. Because I KNOW I was never like this before.
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- 12w
Recently ive been getting very scared to even be angry bc of the horrible thoughts I have and it feels even more real when I'm angry or even annoyed. Rn I was not even super annoyed at my neice but I felt a twinge of annoyance since she went up to my face and was yelling at me while I was resting on the bed and I got this image of doing something bad to her and I felt my hand twitch very little. I got nervous and felt relieved when her dad told her to stop screaming for no reason. I've been hyperfocusing on my bodily reactions (mainly my hands or how I'm feeling like did I just enjoy that? Was I considering???) And I've noticed the small twitches whenever I'm mad or annoyed and it's scaring me so bad! Like do I want to act out? Am I holding back??? I used to not even twitch at all when mad and I felt 100% sure I'll never act out but now it feels like I don't know bc what do these twitches mean?, I do know I don't want to ever act out but it's so scary. Recently whenever I feel angry once the argument is over I cry really bad after I'm alone and I pray so i never want or act out. And when the annoyance passes I also feel so guilty and want to stay away. Im scared these are real urges and i research for many many hours to make sure they arent urges or impulses and i also tend to ask chatgpt or here if the anxiety gets so bad 😕
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