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I I’m with you. And relate to you. Sending you strength blessings hope and love forever and always. It’s a hard journey but so worth it. As I have found even the hardest of times. Can be the most beautiful. Especially with those we love. Let the light come through the cracks. I hope you can get to a point where the darkness doesn’t define you but makes the light brighter. You will get there. I have hope. We will do it together.
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I do rituals and mental ocd all day to I’ve been changeing my clothes and showering the same way for 15 years sometimes when I’m better it doesn’t bother me as much but I’ve still had to do them it was just a little bit easier and my other ocd was easier to I’m hopeing to get on medication soon when I can find a doctor and I hope I can get a therapist to that can help wit my ocd and I get ssi for my ocd it’s been really hard and I don’t have anyone to tlk to that actually understands me I’m trying to get into an inpatient place cause I had a big ocd trigger a few weeks ago and it’s been really hard on me but it’s hard to go to the hospital when they gotta touch your stuff and have you do stuff that you can’t cause of your ocd and noone there understand your ocd so your just kind of left there feeling like crap and trying to get better but can’t perform your rituals and I have contamination ocd and some of the contamination ocd is wit stuff that’s not dirty I just have to wash my hands when I touch certain things not just dirty stuff but I try tlk to my bf and other ppl bout it and they just don’t understand the way it feels when you can’t perform a ritual and wat it feels like all day to have ocd and that it’s really debilitating I’m very lonely and depressed and I wish I had some friends wit ocd I could actually tlk to.
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I feel for you. Mine is similar. But I worry about everyone not just my loved ones. It’s awful. Lots of magical thinking here. Just started erp. Sending strength
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Yes you are not alone. Sending you strength, healing, blessings light hope, the help you need and love. You are worthy and loved. Forever and always. 🌻 ❤️
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i don’t want to do my compulsions. I feel like if I don’t somebody will get hurt, sick or die. It’s a very scary thought to feel like if I don’t do my compulsions it will be my fault even though it isn’t & nor will it happen. I know it’s magical thinking & my thoughts are not true nor will they come true. it’s just im so tired of doing these compulsions. im so tired of feeling like I can stop something bad happening if I don’t step on this or touch this 4 times. it even got me believing that if I do something I want to do & love, something bad will happen. I just want to be able to live & feel like I use to. I hate ocd. how can I calm this down so I can be able to navigate in my own life?
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(Long post warning) Hi, I’ve been struggling with severe OCD for six years now. it started in 2019 with my theme being getting sick/emetophobia. it devastated my life. I almost didn’t graduate high school from it. I remember washing my hands for three hours one day until they were nearly bloody while crying and asking why I could not stop doing it. I remember id have to write and rewrite sentences when I did my English homework and that’s why I nearly failed that class. I remember how I would spend up to thirty minutes to an hour pacing the halls of my apartment while my mom was asleep until I neutralized the thoughts about throwing up and I could finally go to bed. I don’t know when it happened, but my theme switched. Sometimes in late 2020 or early 2021, it switched to POCD. It started with a single thought, and I focused on it and it’s been my theme since then for four years. It has been absolutely destroying me. I feel so disgusted and lost and just tired. My compulsions are severe now. I thought they were bad before, but now they’re ten times worse. I can’t eat, drink, change my clothes, walk, or even do things on my phone normally. I’ve developed so many mental compulsions that it’s so intricate and complicated yet at the same time I’ve done them so much that they’ve become normal. An example I have is if im putting on a shirt and I have a “bad” thought, I have to take it off and put it back on two more times (that’ll make it 3 times I put the shirt back on - odd numbers are my safe number). I have to have a good thought on the third time otherwise I have to take it off and put it on two more times to make it five times I put on that shirt. If not that then I just put on a different shirt because the original is now tainted with my bad thought. I can’t open apps on my phone. It’s with the numbers again. If I open TikTok once while having a bad thought - I have to close it and open it two more times and so on. Sometimes I do it up to 30 times. So I just don’t do things usually. I don’t turn on the TV because I know I’ll redo it. I don’t open a book or grab it off my shelf because I’ll have to repeat the action. I can’t even lay in bed without getting up and redoing it even if im exhausted. I just feel so helpless. I don’t know what to do. I feel disgusting and even now my minds screaming at me that I am dirty and what I think is true. I just wish I was free of this, I wish I could just live my life. I’ve wasted hours and days because of my compulsions. I mask it so well around my friends. I don’t do them in front of anyone or I’ve learned to hide it well. But when im back home alone, it goes haywire. I just want to live again.
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