I've had OCD for 30+ years now. Started when I was 13. I live each day doing rituals in my head, pretty much 24/7, so that I can live a "good" life and that my family won't be harmed. I primarily suffer from Magical thinking. Like if I don't do my rituals or I screw them up harm might be done to things I love. It sucks. It's debilitating.

I I’m with you. And relate to you. Sending you strength blessings hope and love forever and always. It’s a hard journey but so worth it. As I have found even the hardest of times. Can be the most beautiful. Especially with those we love. Let the light come through the cracks. I hope you can get to a point where the darkness doesn’t define you but makes the light brighter. You will get there. I have hope. We will do it together.

I do rituals and mental ocd all day to I’ve been changeing my clothes and showering the same way for 15 years sometimes when I’m better it doesn’t bother me as much but I’ve still had to do them it was just a little bit easier and my other ocd was easier to I’m hopeing to get on medication soon when I can find a doctor and I hope I can get a therapist to that can help wit my ocd and I get ssi for my ocd it’s been really hard and I don’t have anyone to tlk to that actually understands me I’m trying to get into an inpatient place cause I had a big ocd trigger a few weeks ago and it’s been really hard on me but it’s hard to go to the hospital when they gotta touch your stuff and have you do stuff that you can’t cause of your ocd and noone there understand your ocd so your just kind of left there feeling like crap and trying to get better but can’t perform your rituals and I have contamination ocd and some of the contamination ocd is wit stuff that’s not dirty I just have to wash my hands when I touch certain things not just dirty stuff but I try tlk to my bf and other ppl bout it and they just don’t understand the way it feels when you can’t perform a ritual and wat it feels like all day to have ocd and that it’s really debilitating I’m very lonely and depressed and I wish I had some friends wit ocd I could actually tlk to.

I feel for you. Mine is similar. But I worry about everyone not just my loved ones. It’s awful. Lots of magical thinking here. Just started erp. Sending strength

Yes you are not alone. Sending you strength, healing, blessings light hope, the help you need and love. You are worthy and loved. Forever and always. 🌻 ❤️