I can really relate, especially at the beginning of March I was exactly where you are. It does get easier and can become better. But a lot of it is work that you have to consistently work on, I’m currently having what’s called a “back door spike” and it really blows. I’ve overcome the ROCD before tho and I believe I can overcome it again. Just stick with your erps and do your best not to give your ocd thoughts the attention they want. Unfortunately, ocd just has a habit of picking on the things we care about most it seems like. I wish you success and happiness in your ocd recovery
You need to do ERP for this, you will feel soooo much better!
In the begining love is a choice then it becomes a feeling and a choice. I am going through the same thing. Its only been 6 months for me with him but ive had bad pasts with men so this gives me anxiety.
I’ve been through exactly the same as you, crying everyday and barely eating and functioning on some days , it gets easier , since doing ERP I feel a lot stronger , I’m not fully healed and I know this can take time months or maybe years , but the point is it’s getting easier and I don’t want to give up! You can turn things around and it’s not going to be easy, don’t listen to the advice of those around you in couples or people who don’t understand ROCD as they will not get it , they will make your ocd worse and I know this from experience ! Listen to professionals , watch the ocd videos posted on the app, and take each day at a time 🙏🏻