Calove
- Date posted
- 3y
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 3y
Is the rereading a compulsion? Just remember a thought is just a thought and not reality. When I get intrusive thoughts and try to not do compulsions for them I start thinking about lots of good things that I want to happen like “I have a million dollars” “I have a chocolate cake in front of me” etc etc to prove thoughts aren’t real, or I even think thoughts like some crazy scary thing that’s different from the one fear I’m focusing on will happen right now, to also prove the thoughts don’t actually do anything.
CaloveCalove
- Date posted
- 3y
That’s a really good way to look at it. OCD has a way of tricking your brain otherwise it’s so bizzare but I am really trying to push through and just not give any reaction to my thoughts.
Morpheus 75Morpheus 75
- Date posted
- 3y
I relate on this one. I think you re-read something because the moment you read you had a bad thought about yourself or someone you care about don't you?
CaloveCalove
- Date posted
- 3y
Yes sometimes the thoughts don’t even make sense, and I’m not even sure what I’m afraid of but it’s sometimes even a sensation. Usually when I push through it it goes away. Somedays are harder than others. I’m almost finished with my book though so I feel really accomplished. I’m trying to use reading as part of my erp now.
Morpheus 75Morpheus 75
- Date posted
- 3y
TBH I'm not even sure there's a real way to pass get through this except by understanding that the moment we get obssess we're literally owned by OCD. I try to focus more on myself to better understand how to manage my energies. When I read something if I'm triggered I try not to pay attention, when it works I keep on reading but if I'm too triggered I know it's over and I'll end up wircling round and round so I stop and listen to music for example (it really helps). I assume there's no real escape as aforementioned and the only way to get better, maybe at some points, is to stop putting ourselves under pressure by willing to feel "normal". Try to manage and understand and yourself more than changing who you are because that's often when the mess begins.
Peter !Peter !
- Date posted
- 3y
I have this issue too! I’m too afraid to read my book because then I will be alone with my thoughts and my imagination, and that’s a frightening experience.
OCDMMOCDMM
- Date posted
- 3y
I know. I feel like I spend 100% of my time distracting myself.
OCDMMOCDMM
- Date posted
- 3y
Ugh, I love to read and OCD has stolen the joy from me. When I went on more meds it got better but I lowered because of side effects and now it’s back.
CaloveCalove
- Date posted
- 3y
Thanks for all your comments. Really helps not being alone in this !
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