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- 3y
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I don’t have harm ocd but the intrusive thoughts that you say no to in your head is something I am also currently experiencing. It is tough but I know that I don’t mean these intrusive thoughts and don’t want them. Even after reminding myself this it is difficult to stop having these thoughts. If you don’t want the thoughts, you probably aren’t having them on purpose. I have experienced that as well. Thoughts are just thoughts and they will pass and it will get better. You aren’t alone.
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- 3y
I think I have self-harm/harm OCD, have my first assessment appointment next week. But I wanted to say I feel the same way sometimes, like there are two parts of my brain fighting it out. But the self harm thoughts don't feel like "a voice in my head" it's my own thoughts, and THAT is what's so scary because it makes you feel like you actually might do the things you're so scared you'll do. And about getting help, the thing is people can't read your mind, if you need help, want help, you have to ask for it. I don't want to sound non-sympathetic, it's just the truth. It's hard, I had a really scary episode, told one friend about it and swore to myself I'd start therapy. That was 5 months ago. I got nervous about where to go and whether they'd understand, and eventually I got comfortable because things were ok and I was avoiding the situation that stressed me out. But I finally decided last week enough is enough. But the first step is reaching out, no one is gonna know what's going on in your head, unless it gets REALLY bad, and even then they probably won't understand.
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- 3y
Don't feel bad everybody's giving up on me. Heh.
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- 3y
I was trained to outreach SRS training and nobody could give a fuck about actual recovery.
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I'm taking it at least 8 years of outreach training honestly nobody really cares about outreach training. If they did they would understand what I'm trying to do now. People would have came and talked to me things would be better than they should be.
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- 3y
Seems like a waste of time to me if the people are getting help but nobody really cares.
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If people are helping, more than likely they do care. It isn’t a waste of time and getting help is tough but I’m guessing that those helping are actually caring.
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- 25w
harm ocd is the bane of my existence. people always tell me that if you have anxiety over a thought, that’s ocd. and these intrusive thoughts cause me IMMENSE anxiety. i’m constantly looking for reasons why i’m not what these thoughts tell me i am. but WHY DOES IT FEEL SO REAL?? it’s like i can’t reassure myself that this isn’t me and i don’t want to do it, but i also look for reasons why it’s not me. my brain is constantly telling me “if you don’t act on this, you’ll never feel free”. WHAT EVEN IS THAT?? and why does it feel real?? anytime i think about getting therapy, i constantly think that it’s not going to help me positively but help me realize i am this person. i just wish someone with harm ocd could get into my brain, understand me, and tell me everything will be okay. i wish someone in recovery could tell me that they’ve been where i am, felt the same feelings, thought the same thoughts, and got through it when they thought they wouldn’t. i feel like i’m drowning in it. another thing is i think about how my mom knows a surface level understanding to this form of my ocd, but if she knew it all, i’m scared she’d never look at me the same. i’m scared she’d be scared of me and think i need psychiatric help. IM TERRIFIED.
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- 21w
Hi ❤️ I’m really struggling right now I’m in my sophomore year of Highschool and I’ve finally started planning or thinking abt my future (for context I was extremely depressed and suicidal from 6-9th grade) After conquering my depression this is a huge leap for me and I’m proud of myself ❤️ But there’s something still holding me down :( and I’m not sure what to do anymore that thing is OCD. Since 6th grade I have had strong and invasive intrusive thoughts all the time they scare me so bad and make me feel as though I’m not even real anymore :( I’m sick of taking the time to do ridiculous compulsions to rid or ease these thoughts it’s a waste of time and energy and it hurts me so bad I feel like I will never get to just live my life without this :( How can I plan my future when I can’t even find myself in this mess of anxiety 💔 I’m so tired of fighting my mental health it’s been years from anxiety attacks to sh to survived suicide attempts (I got help dw❤️🩹) and recovery there. Just to be thrown into a storm of awful scary sickening thoughts day and night-when can I just be a normal teenager and possibly a happy adult? How do I conquer this so I can love myself to the fullest and live my life free and happy? :( ❤️❤️🩹 I’m so scared to talk to my parents about it I’m ashamed of my thoughts and every time I bring it up they just say I shouldn’t be diagnosing myself or it’s just ADHD. It really really hurts me they have no idea how awful this feels and it makes me feel so alone sometimes 💔
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- 17w
It’s like my brain is doing everything in its power to convince myself and also justify an attraction to teenagers. I hate myself. I don’t want to be this person, but what if I don’t have a choice. How do I get these thoughts out of my head permanently. I feel like my life will never be the same if they don’t leave forever. I can’t tell what is a real desire and what OCD is trying to convince me is a real desire. I can’t do this every day for the rest of my life. I don’t want to hurt anyone, or I don’t think I do but how do I even tell anymore. This might not even be OCD at this point, I can’t separate my thoughts from OCD thoughts I think because I’ve had OCD for so long so it all just feels like me. Maybe it is me. TMI but I haven’t pleasured myself in like a week because my libido is so low now, I don’t want to do it with these thoughts.
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