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- 3y
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I don’t have harm ocd but the intrusive thoughts that you say no to in your head is something I am also currently experiencing. It is tough but I know that I don’t mean these intrusive thoughts and don’t want them. Even after reminding myself this it is difficult to stop having these thoughts. If you don’t want the thoughts, you probably aren’t having them on purpose. I have experienced that as well. Thoughts are just thoughts and they will pass and it will get better. You aren’t alone.
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- 3y
I think I have self-harm/harm OCD, have my first assessment appointment next week. But I wanted to say I feel the same way sometimes, like there are two parts of my brain fighting it out. But the self harm thoughts don't feel like "a voice in my head" it's my own thoughts, and THAT is what's so scary because it makes you feel like you actually might do the things you're so scared you'll do. And about getting help, the thing is people can't read your mind, if you need help, want help, you have to ask for it. I don't want to sound non-sympathetic, it's just the truth. It's hard, I had a really scary episode, told one friend about it and swore to myself I'd start therapy. That was 5 months ago. I got nervous about where to go and whether they'd understand, and eventually I got comfortable because things were ok and I was avoiding the situation that stressed me out. But I finally decided last week enough is enough. But the first step is reaching out, no one is gonna know what's going on in your head, unless it gets REALLY bad, and even then they probably won't understand.
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- 3y
Don't feel bad everybody's giving up on me. Heh.
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- 3y
I was trained to outreach SRS training and nobody could give a fuck about actual recovery.
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I'm taking it at least 8 years of outreach training honestly nobody really cares about outreach training. If they did they would understand what I'm trying to do now. People would have came and talked to me things would be better than they should be.
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- 3y
Seems like a waste of time to me if the people are getting help but nobody really cares.
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If people are helping, more than likely they do care. It isn’t a waste of time and getting help is tough but I’m guessing that those helping are actually caring.
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- 22w
Hi, I’m new here!! I’m praying I don’t get judged for this. But, back in late May of 2022 ( literally right before I graduated high school), I added this one random girl from my school on Snapchat. She posted something about a graduation party , so I swiped up on her story basically saying how I can’t believe we’re almost graduated. She replied and we had a really short and simple conversation. The next day ( i believe) , we started talking a lot , and I just so happened to see her at the highschool when we were grabbing our graduation outfits and doing the rehearsal. When I saw her irl, I kinda got turned off ( I heard she was kinda crazy) , and on top of that , she was a little ugly irl. I remember seeing her Snapchat bio , and she was close friends with my female cousin ( a year younger than me) , who I happened to experiment sexually with when I was 10-11 years old. I remember going to work later that day and having sort of a lightbulb flick thought ( it wasn’t a good thought though) , what if my cousin told her about what happened when we were younger? So I started to kind of panic and immediately distanced myself from that girl. I also experimented sexually with one of my female friends when I was 10-11 , and from that day onwards, I’ve been pretty much living in paranoia and a little bit of guilt about someone finding out and my life being ruined . On top of that, It’s gotten worse to now sometimes I wonder if a girl I added off of quick add ( Snapchat) is underage even if they told me they were 18+ or had 18 and above in their bio, and I get so much guilt and anxiety about that. I even had a quick thought last February on what if I did something inappropriate with my younger cousin when I was 15-16 but I just can’t exactly remember when it happened , and it still eats me alive when I think about it, because I don’t know if it happened or not. I’m sorry for the long vent, I just wish I felt normal again. No matter how much I try to do things that old me used to do, life always feels “ off”. I always kept the top part about when I was younger a secret up until early (ish ) 2024, then I vented to one of my best friends and he told me that that’s a normal thing to do at a young age. Since then, I have told multiple friends and they all say they did similar stuff, but my brain just can’t accept that. Please help me, I quite literally overthink everything nowadays. 2021 was the last full year that I felt normal ( coincidentally, the best year of my life so far) . It’s not just about sexual related things either, sometimes I’ll wonder if I messed up something at work or hit a car while driving/hit someone and drove off. I just wanna live my life how I was supposed to live it after highschool ( carefree and happy) before whatever it is ( I think it’s ocd) hit me unexpectedly. Thanks to anyone who read this , I just needed to pour it out regardless of how negative I felt typing this, I hope someone can relate , because I feel so alone in my head at times.
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- 19w
I find that the intrusive thoughts that hurt me the most are the quiet ones. The ones that, at a glance, can be hard to differentiate from your own thoughts. The louder thoughts are easy to diffuse, to say "maybe, maybe not" to but the quiet ones leave me ruminating for hours trying to figure out if they're mine or OCD's. They leave me feeling disconnected from those around me and even from myself. I can go from happily thinking about marrying my boyfriend in the future to feeling like I have never actually loved him in a matter of minutes all because a thought was a whisper rather than a scream. This is my first post and I'm not sure what I'm looking for in making it. Advice? To know I'm not alone? I guess if there's anything you feel the need to share I'd love to hear it.
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- 18w
i’ve been dealing with this “thing” since i was 15. (i’m 23 now) if i have a bad memory that i have done when i was really young or just an intrusive thought i feel like i need to tell my mom or boyfriend. it’s been on and off ever since but since January hit it’s been an everyday thing about the littlest things. mostly about my relationship. an example is i was talking to someone random at my job and we were talking about taxes and when im in deep thought or just thinking i do a thing where i bite my lip (not in the sexual way) and i had a thought when it happened “was that sexual?” and i felt like i did something wrong and i went for a while thinking that until i told my boyfriend about it. or like my ex’s face has popped up in my head in the most inappropriate times and i feel the need that i have to tell him. (my ex was not a good person) i feel like im a prisoner in my head everyday, trying to justify thoughts or remind myself that its just a thought. i didnt know that this was or could be a form of ocd. it runs in my family but i’ve just never considered it being this. i always called it anxiety or depression but i always felt like it is more than that.
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