Few months ago I witnessed my father die infront of me ever since then I’ve been obsessed with Death and Mortality , Obsessing over Aging,Death, losing loved ones. I have been trying to Accept it because it’s unavoidable but I just don’t want to think about it 24/7 I’ve been doing ERP by watching Finding Nemo Soul Lion King Matrix The Bucket List The Green Mile Any other ideas on how to deal with it

When i did therapy, i had to write my thoughts on a paper like this: "My mind gives me the following thoughts: 1. That i will harm my loved ones 2. That i will loose control, and i will go insane, and put in a hospital 3. That i will have kids and harm them. 4.... 5.... 6... Maybe this will happen or not, i choose to live with this uncertanty." I was reading this 1-2 hours daily, after 1-2 weeks, i got so tired of these thoughts that when they appeared in my mind, i was getting very bored.

Hey! I think a good exercise will be to write all your thoughts on a sheet, and read them over and over and over, till you get rid of them. The brain will get bored, and when you will think again at it, the brain will not be triggered again. Its similar to when you listen a weird nice song that stays in your mind. But if you listen it many times, you dont get trigged anymore.

When i say you have to read them over and over, you have to spend around 1-2 hours daily. I had harm ocd, and this helped me. When i had intrussive thoughts, my brain was so bored of them after reading so many times, that it was making me laugh :D

Can you write here all your bad thoughts that annoys you? Exactly like your mind says

I’m gonna die, I’m gonna get old , I don’t know what after life

I also had some small notes, that i kept them into my wallet . The goal here was to make me anxiety spike, and after it was decreases over time. Notes like: "I dont understand the point of living, life makes no sense." Imagine how my anxiety spiked when i knew i had that in my wallet, and someone can see it. Some people were leaving those kind of notes in bars, restaurants, taxies. LOL , like i said, the goal is to initially increase the anxiety. It will loosen after some days/weeks OCD is funny, its like a silly kid is inside of your brain, and tries to play with you.

What are you willing to do to increase your anxiety? Can you set a wallpaper on your screen with this message? "Life makes no sense". This will trigger you? What triggers you the most?

You can watch “Midnight Sun” too or “Five Feet Apart”