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if u have pocd i wanna tell you that shit is absolutely debilitating and disabling. U literally feel fully disposable. It's sick.
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It doesn't matter what you are, gay or trans etc, but don't make any immediate decisions about surgery etc, don't feel repulsed there are so many people like you. Whether you're gay or trans. Or both. It's okay what ever you are. I suggest dressing how you want to dress at the time, being with who you want to be with at the time, just let them know what's going on that you're unsure about your sexuality. You'll be okay in the end xx
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well ive identified as gay and trans for a long time but now that my ocd came thru i literally feel no sexual attraction and no desire to look a certain way. all i feel like doing is shutting down.
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It's okay to feel like that. It's okay to not know. I think we all look for answers with ocd and we end up not finding any. You have to be comfortable with the unknown
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what if i already have the answer and im denying it. i hate this feeling. i feel like this is the end.
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You may have the answer but it doesn't matter what the answer is. From an outsiders perspective, your ocd seems silly, no offense obviously. I'd so rather have yours over mine. I use to worry I was a lesbian, but it went away eventually. I use to feel disgusted etc, but I experimented and realised I'm not a lesbian but only recently, I sat with that thought for about 7 years. Some days I'd think my family would disown me etc. But I have worse OCD thoughts now, looking back the fear of being a lesbian was nothing.
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Even if I was a lesbian now, I wouldn't even worry about it because I have worse intrusive thoughts now.
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This is so extremely difficult, i’ve never experienced having thoughts of being a different gender. i’ve always been comfortable being a girl. i’ve always been a girly girl. this all started a couple months ago and it’s increasingly getting worse. i’ve had times where i didn’t like my body but i always thought i could just go to the gym and fix it, never did i think i wanted to be a man. ever since these thoughts started i hate looking at myself in the mirror, i hate looking at my body, i’m aware of my breasts all day everyday, i can’t look at pictures/ videos of myself. from the moment i wake up to the second i go to sleep i have these thoughts. i’m in a panic EVERYDAY. i don’t want to be trans but my thoughts are convincing me i do. i’ve never bat an eye when someone calls me a girl but now it’s like i’m aware of it which i hate. i hate that i’m having these thoughts & it’s convincing me that i want them & that i have to just come out and change. i want to be able to go back to being comfortable as a girl. this has left me feeling so hopeless and depressed, i can’t help but cry every day. has anyone else felt like their whole world was turned upside down?
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Idk if this post is even worth it but it seemed like a normal day for me, called off work due to the weather so I get to just stay home and play games all day. Easy day besides dealing with the constant and unbearable battle with my intrusive thoughts/feelings. Took a shower and I just had constant thoughts, (heart palpitations are pretty constant) ended up breaking down and bawling my eyes out. I was diagnosed with HOCD and ROCD about 2 months ago and since it's just gotten worse. It feels as real as it can get and after talking to my girlfriend about the anxiety attack, it feels even more real. I have no desire or enjoyment from what comes from my brain, and at this point I'm on my knees begging the big man upstairs for my old life back, how do I go from being obsessed with women (sexually and emotionally) to pretty much doing a 180 overnight (with the obvious anxiety and worry behind it. No real desire obviously). I'm just at a loss, I've done a little ERP and it seemed to help with the brain fog but besides that, everything that it does to someone, I have. And again there's the doubt I even have OCD and I'm in straight denial. It just sucks.
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I cant afford therapy which is why i’m not diagnosed with ocd. The first time i had heard what ocd was truly abt was 6 years ago when i overthinking my sexual identity and it fit. Additionally, i struggle with debilitating health anxiety and when i was in a rlt i was extremely anxious that i might not love my partner. This is the third year i experience distress around my sexuality but this year it feels real. And it could also explain my rlt anxiety. Comphet is a concept that really scares me. I dont want to be with a girl. I would rather die than discover i was lesbian. I cant accept uncertainty cz i dont want to be homosexual. Chat GPT told me it wasnt ocd + the thoughts dont distress me anymore. I experience 3 intense weeks of anxiety prior to now. Maybe its internalized homophobia. Maybe its comphet. I do find women to be attractive but i dont wanna be with them. Maybe i’m in denial. Idk anything anymore. I’m remembering times where i would find an actress attractive and try to shift my focus towards the man cz it would make me anxious. I’m not well at all.
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