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I’ve been there friend! It really sucks and I’m sorry. Remember that your ocd latches on to what is important to you. Seeing as how it’s attacking your relationship means that you value it. Careful of confessing, it can lead to compulsion and hurting your partners feelings even though it brings us temporary relief. Sometimes this gets overwhelming but remember you aren’t your thoughts and you can control your actions even if the thoughts are pulling you down.
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It’s more feelings.. I’m worried bc the symptoms aren’t as strong as before… 😢
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@7710 ❤️ It’s true, it may be real or it may be OCD. It’s hard to live with the uncertainty but that’s what these therapists keep saying to do! There’s a ROCD support group you should totally join (free). It’s very supportive, validating, and nonjudgmental. Just took a look at your profile and you said that if you obsess too hard it can feel like reality, that you want to love your partner, and that it gives you hope that y’all are together still. I hope you can talk about this with an NOCD therapist or in a group bc sometimes it’s all very heavy in our minds. It helps to get it out
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@tinydancer I’m worried bc it’s like I subconsciously don’t want him… but why would I fight if I didn’t or cry if I didn’t love him… I just don’t want to leave but I am so tired..
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@tinydancer I even bought him blueberry muffins bc I know he loves them. My friend believes I really do love my partner but she says sometimes I love him too much
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@7710 ❤️ Is it possible that you just want the panic breakup feeling to go away? I can’t speak for you but in my experience, I would feel the compulsion to break up with my bf when one of these rocd spikes hit. Because I wanted to have the doubt and guilt feelings go away. Even though I didn’t want to leave him, I felt like the only way to get rid of that horrible feeling was to break up. Back then I didn’t know it was rocd and I especially thought it was real, or a sign from God, or my “gut” telling me what needed to happen. OCD sucks but our brain is trying to protect us from the worse by preparing us for every situation which causes major anxiety.
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@tinydancer It’s like I want relief…
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She said that because I’ve been going through this for so long I rewrote my brain Into thinking I don’t love him…
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ROCD is a tough one…I’ve ended a couple relationships and almost my current due to this subtype. I thought I just didn’t love that person but as soon as we broke up I just wanted them back. All what was going on was me transitioning out of the “honeymoon” phase. I had no idea that this was just my OCD. Trust me, you’ll really know when you don’t want to be with someone anymore. Our brains just get confused with “comfortable” and “not in love”.
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How real did it feel? Did it seem like u knew even if you were fighting against the damage that has been done?
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Please how real did it get for u? Did you ever just get tired and exhausted and just went with it bc you just can’t keep fighting??
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When I started to have doubts in my relationship, it became pretty obvious and I told my partner that I was having doubts and that I wasn’t sure if I loved them/wanted to be with them or not. She knew that I was just in my head. She could tell when I was contradicting myself. We worked on it together. The doubts started to happen when we passed that “honeymoon” phase and the relationship began to mature. When you get out of that phase of excitement, you start to question if there’s love. For me, there was love. It was always there. I just didn’t see it and or acknowledge it.
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I get worried… I don’t know how to fix things… I know I love him. When I don’t overthink I am fine.. I am scared… I am depressed, anxiety ridden, exhausted… I just wanna be with him like before…
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Most of us here fall under the burden of overthinking..it’s a struggle..we latch onto these negative thoughts so much that we start to believe them. It’s extremely frustrating.
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- 16w ago
I feel awful that I keep coming on here whenever I’m down bad but oh my gosh OCD is the most painful shit that I have EVER experienced in my life and I have a physical chronic illness…. I hate to say it but I hate living right now it’s too painful… im crying as I type to the point where my stomach is hurting, I have pretty severe ocd I do have generalized anxiety and idk if that is connected with ocd but because of that I have most of the subtypes REAL EVENT OCD,POCD,ZOCD,ROCD,SOCD HARM OCD, you name it and I got it!!! a lot of also why I have have those theme is trauma growing up and involving those things^ as of right now i’m 25 and a women with the most loving boyfriend in the entire world before my ocd hit me I NEVER questioned my love and care and attraction with the love of my life I always knew I was going to marry and be with this person the rest of my life! Now with ocd it confuses me soooo much and now I think I’m gay and didn’t realize or indenial and listen I get it “don’t look for reassurance!” “It’s not the thing ocd is attacking that is the problem ocd is the actual problem!” Here’s the thing with that if I’m in a relationship and I’m gay that would mean I would have to leave that said relationship and to say that “oh yeah that stuff happens and you’ll move on” is absolutely devastating to me this is THE LOVE OF MY LIFE and your telling me that iv been lying to myself this whole time or that I didn’t realize?!?!? And that sexuality can change (even though some say it can’t google says otherwise and some people have said it can’t idek anymore) and all this other BULLSHIT I can’t take it WHY?!?! why does this have to happen why can’t I just be with my love the rest of my life?!? and yes before anyone says anything I have been attracted to girls more so when I was younger watching lesbian porn liking the body’s and fantazing them sexually it stopped when I got older but I still don’t get disgusted with women who are pretty it just makes me uncomfortable because I’m with the love of my life and before I remember talking to my partner and discussing certain childhood things I experienced and we discussed that we both could be a little bi and for certain I’m (demi sexual so I don’t even really care about looks) and I truly didn’t care!! NOW I do care even with being bi because again I don’t like thinking about anyone else but my partner but I do also know my parents are homophobic and I do think about if I am gay they wouldn’t be okay with that and I also dont want to deal with that so now I sound like in indenial right?!???? I didn’t even care about labels before my ocd it just didn’t matter but now it’s effected my sex life and it’s hard for me to enjoy sex with being so confused I’m so confused I googled everything can you still have sexual fantasies with same gender but still be straight? Can you fantasize about same gender or imagine marrying them all of it !!! And non of that disgusts me it just makes me uncomfortable AGIAN only bc I just love the partner I’m with right now!!! I’m so fucking confused do I have to leave my partner and accept that I’m gay is that going to happen in the future if I get better with ocd and find out it’s been true all along?!???
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