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- 7710 ❤️
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- tinydancer tinydancer
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- OCD Conqueror
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- 2y ago
I’ve been there friend! It really sucks and I’m sorry. Remember that your ocd latches on to what is important to you. Seeing as how it’s attacking your relationship means that you value it. Careful of confessing, it can lead to compulsion and hurting your partners feelings even though it brings us temporary relief. Sometimes this gets overwhelming but remember you aren’t your thoughts and you can control your actions even if the thoughts are pulling you down.
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- 7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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It’s more feelings.. I’m worried bc the symptoms aren’t as strong as before… 😢
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- tinydancer tinydancer
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- OCD Conqueror
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@7710 ❤️ It’s true, it may be real or it may be OCD. It’s hard to live with the uncertainty but that’s what these therapists keep saying to do! There’s a ROCD support group you should totally join (free). It’s very supportive, validating, and nonjudgmental. Just took a look at your profile and you said that if you obsess too hard it can feel like reality, that you want to love your partner, and that it gives you hope that y’all are together still. I hope you can talk about this with an NOCD therapist or in a group bc sometimes it’s all very heavy in our minds. It helps to get it out
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- 7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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@tinydancer I’m worried bc it’s like I subconsciously don’t want him… but why would I fight if I didn’t or cry if I didn’t love him… I just don’t want to leave but I am so tired..
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- 7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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- 2y ago
@tinydancer I even bought him blueberry muffins bc I know he loves them. My friend believes I really do love my partner but she says sometimes I love him too much
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- tinydancer tinydancer
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@7710 ❤️ Is it possible that you just want the panic breakup feeling to go away? I can’t speak for you but in my experience, I would feel the compulsion to break up with my bf when one of these rocd spikes hit. Because I wanted to have the doubt and guilt feelings go away. Even though I didn’t want to leave him, I felt like the only way to get rid of that horrible feeling was to break up. Back then I didn’t know it was rocd and I especially thought it was real, or a sign from God, or my “gut” telling me what needed to happen. OCD sucks but our brain is trying to protect us from the worse by preparing us for every situation which causes major anxiety.
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- 7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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@tinydancer It’s like I want relief…
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- 7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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- 2y ago
She said that because I’ve been going through this for so long I rewrote my brain Into thinking I don’t love him…
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- TyylerTyyler
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- 2y ago
ROCD is a tough one…I’ve ended a couple relationships and almost my current due to this subtype. I thought I just didn’t love that person but as soon as we broke up I just wanted them back. All what was going on was me transitioning out of the “honeymoon” phase. I had no idea that this was just my OCD. Trust me, you’ll really know when you don’t want to be with someone anymore. Our brains just get confused with “comfortable” and “not in love”.
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- 7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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How real did it feel? Did it seem like u knew even if you were fighting against the damage that has been done?
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- 7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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- 2y ago
Please how real did it get for u? Did you ever just get tired and exhausted and just went with it bc you just can’t keep fighting??
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- TyylerTyyler
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- 2y ago
When I started to have doubts in my relationship, it became pretty obvious and I told my partner that I was having doubts and that I wasn’t sure if I loved them/wanted to be with them or not. She knew that I was just in my head. She could tell when I was contradicting myself. We worked on it together. The doubts started to happen when we passed that “honeymoon” phase and the relationship began to mature. When you get out of that phase of excitement, you start to question if there’s love. For me, there was love. It was always there. I just didn’t see it and or acknowledge it.
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- 7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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I get worried… I don’t know how to fix things… I know I love him. When I don’t overthink I am fine.. I am scared… I am depressed, anxiety ridden, exhausted… I just wanna be with him like before…
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- TyylerTyyler
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- 2y ago
Most of us here fall under the burden of overthinking..it’s a struggle..we latch onto these negative thoughts so much that we start to believe them. It’s extremely frustrating.
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- Maureen
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- 5y ago
How do you know it's a false memory/OCD and not something that actually happened? I feel like a terrible person. I'm a very creative person, and the more I stress about whether I did this bad thing the more it seems real. The worst part is is that I have no way of reassurance without sounding crazy. I have ROCD and I randomly started obsessing over the 7 months of our relationship whether or not I've cheated on him. Even though I love him more than anything and I would never do that! I'm constantly triggered by coworkers or classmates that I've previously found attractive or liked and/or I know they've liked me or flirted with me. I'm at the point now where I'm rereading simple texts/straightforward texts of these people asking me about school work or if I could cover a shift trying to find proof of something I can't remember. My partner knows about my OCD and is very understanding and supportive. I feel like I'm living a lie. When this first started my rational brain knew this wasn't real, but the more I become obsessed the more it becomes more distorted. I feel guilty for being happy. I just want to be guaranteed it's not real so I can move on with my life. It's moving to specific people now and it's scaring me how real it feels.
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- BradOCD
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- 3y ago
Okay so I’m trying to accept it but it’s just making me feel depressed. I don’t want it. I want to be happy with my girlfriend again. She was the most important thing in my life and then the OCD hit back like it did when I was a child. And brought up all these insecurities that I had made piece with or hadn’t even realised I had. Now there feels like there’s a glass screen between me and her when she talks about our future I feel like a fraud. I hate ocd. Even if I have been in denial my whole life (which I didn’t think I was) I was happy and content and confident in myself. Now it’s all gone, and it feels like I have no choice but to just tell the ocd it was right all along and live that life because that’s what it feels like I want. But I don’t know what’s me and what’s ocd anymore (even saying that sounds like a lie).
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- EM77
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- 2y ago
My brain can’t stop trying to figure out my sexuality and it’s horrible. I can find both men and women attractive so thought I might be bi, but then I don’t often want sex with my boyfriend so I’m worried I could be a lesbian. I can identify with bi or asexual quite happily but thinking about being a lesbian fills me with so much dread and anxiety. On Saturday I had the best day with my boyfriend. I felt so in love for most of the day which was a triumph considering I’ve had ROCD for the whole of the relationship. There was a time I looked at him and I honestly could’ve cried because I loved him that much. Surely I wouldn’t feel like that if I was a lesbian? I’ve always had crushes on boys growing up, but they were always romantic ones. When I thought of love growing up it was always romantic, I always felt a little alienated because I wasn’t interested in sex and sexual acts. Now, I enjoy sexual things with my boyfriend but he has to work to get me in the mood. I’m worried this means I’m not sexually attracted to him and what this means. But the love I feel sometimes is so intense and fills me with happiness. My mind can’t rest until I’ve figured it out
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