Stuck and frustrated

I keep bouncing from feeling awful, to not feeling so awful but having non-stop intrusive thoughts, even practicing my ERP for this. It's like I have two options, constant fear and dread, or constant intrusive thoughts and it seriously won't leave. This is maybe the most stuck I've been in a long long time. Maybe because it's the first loop like this I'm using ERP so it's harder to get out of, versus my old ways of ruminating and reassurance? I'm hurting right now.

eyeforaneye

Date posted: 3y

i know how you feel. if it’s bothering you to an extreme point, i reccomend using the sos function. i am also feeling stuck and confused and longing for help. you are not alone. i know it’s hard to focus on other things except the intrusive thoughts, but something that helped me was listening to music and reading the lyrics while i listened. i know it sounds strange, but focusing on other words helped me not focus on the words my brain is constantly throwing at me. try and and let me know if it helps. you are NOT alone.

cj4ebay

Date posted: 3y

Thank you, it’s been fairly nonstop for about a week. I suppose it’s not too unfamiliar. I stop worrying so much, then the thoughts ramp up almost like they’re drowning and desperately trying to pull me back in with them. I just want to be at peace like I know I can be. I think reading a book has a similar effect for me if I get immersed in it

eyeforaneye

Date posted: 3y

@cj4ebay unfortunately there isn’t a lot of peace with this disorder. i completely understand how you feel, i know what it’s like to feel as if you’re drowning in your own thoughts and compulsions. but it will eventually pass. yes reading books is great!! they relieve anxiety for me, too😊

cj4ebay

Date posted: 3y

@nolaurenr Thank you again! I hope you are doing well. I’m going to cut out the internet too because that always makes things worse lol

issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 20w

I don’t know what this is. Help please?

Two things are happening: I get thoughts that just keep looping. They almost feel like song stuck in my head. Also, I’ll imagine something and I feel my stomach drop. Then as the seconds go by I keep getting fragments of the this thought but with different details. For example, it’s kinda like how a “vision” is portrayed. I’ll get a glimpse of the thought and then it’ll rapidly expand into something worse every few seconds. I don’t know if I’m causing this or if it’s just an automatic thing like any other intrusive thought. It feels unavoidable, idk if this is a compulsion or if it’s just another manifestation of an intrusive thought. Apart from that remembering an intrusive thought triggers the full thought again and then it just keeps looping or expanding. I don’t know how to stop any of this. Help?

Mika05

Date posted: 20w

Ocd pattern

Sometimes I notice my intrusive thoughts cause me to spiral and sometimes not. I've been practicing ERP for quite a while so it's a bit easier for me to not spiral. But I wonder why that happens. Does anyone else have it? Also I'm on medication idk if that plays a role.

Looping

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 11w

ERP/Therapy

I find while doing exposures, rarely does my anxiety lessen. It usually amps up and stays that way for the remainder of the day. I could be having a fairly decent day, but dutifully do my exposures and then the rest of my day is anxiety filled. I guess that’s just how it is now? Also, I’m wondering if my therapist even believes I have OCD. I totally understand my therapist cannot provide reassurance. But it’s to the point it seems my therapist acts like I actually did the thing I fear. I feel so isolated.

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