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- Matty Z
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- 5y ago
Ask me questions And give me your specific symptoms I can find a way to help you all! I have struggling with harm ocd hocd rocd pocd etc etc and am now ocd free!
Ocd is an anxiety disorder and if there was no anxiety around the obsessions or thoughts we have, then we wouldn’t feel a need for compulsions. Anxiety is pretty much caused by not feeling in control, maybe you feel like you have no control over these thoughts and no matter how hard you try to justify them or even ignore them you just can’t? That is because the anxiety is still there. Every-time you form a compulsion you are rewriting your brain and rewarded it by feeding these anxieties so every time you have an obsession you are going to feel the need to perform a compulsion. Anxiety is needed in all mammals it is a kind of flight or fight feeling we need to survive, but sometimes the parts of our brain that work this can get messed up. There is a way to physically tell your brain “everything is ok. This is not something to worry about” once you practice this method the anxiety decreases and so do your obsessions. I have used SSRI and other therapy but they do not work like my method . If you would like to learn more comment!
Could you help with contamination OCD when there are real diseases everywhere?
I use a similar technique...a thought is just a thought and not reality.
@chelsbingy yup! These thoughts cause depersonalization in many sufferers. You are not alone. How can you feel like yourself if you can’t trust your thoughts and doubt your very own core beliefs ! It is impossible to feel like yourself and to not feel disconnected when these thoughts plague you. I my lowest point I would look in the mirror and get scared because I felt “this isn’t me!” I would feel as if I was in a dream, a simulation, I felt like I was a mindless sick ape in a world of mindless apes. But once u get rid of these thoughts you come right back.
@letsgo I don’t like to reassure people, but you are not a pedophile. The person you look up to the most has experienced those thoughts, even your favorite celebrity. Often people are so anxious about sexual thoughts because they feel as if they are not right and stigmatized and sexuality is very personal. You can think a child is cute or even beautiful handsome etc. it could even trigger a small response sexually in your groin. That doesn’t mean you are evil you are just human. You do not want to know what real pedophiles do and act like man. And it is not ok to act sexually on an infant you know that and you know the trauma it would cause both of you so you fear these situations. The reason you are so scared and anxious is because you know this is not you. That’s the easy part. The hard part is accepting this and not responding to your obsessions. Try to find the right meds for yourself and if there was a time you didn’t have these thoughts, then it will happen again. Email me for my personal methods.
@chelsbingy you are not crazy at all you are anxious. Keep working and you will find yourself soon. I am going to guarantee you that you will fully recover. It is more than possible it is 100%
1)Was ERP your treatment? I'm too afraid to do ERP :p (no psychiatrist), was it the best for you?/any other treatments that helped? 2)Did you see a therapist a lot? 3) is writing down the anxities in a small notebook helpful? 4) any medication? GOOD JOB btw !!!ocd sucks so I'm glad you are ocd free :)
I'm too afraid to even start the ERP exercises on here, was even thinking of getting another app or finding other treatments (distraction s only help short term)
It really frustrated me how OCD is seen as incurable, and if someone needed some help because this was taking over their life, then they would be prescribed SSRI that make things worse and do not attack the root cause. OCD is even joked about freely and people think it is just a tidy thing. It seemed to me when I was struggling with this that no1 was looking for a “cure” and that many therapies and treatments didn’t even help a lot of people. People are often even told to just learn to live with OCD because it is lifelong. Well this is not true. I was always a smart boy capable of thinking about things on another level then most people. OCD suffered are often smarter than most people actually because their brain is very active. The truth is anyone can get OCD AT ANY TIME. If your friend suddenly got thoughts about WHAT IF _____? And this thought gave them anxiety they would start the loop of OCD if it really did bother them. 90% of people have OCD like symptoms but the difference is they are able to pass these thoughts along and disassociate any anxiety or negative emotion from them. I know it’s extremely hard to just let these thoughts go because they feel so real, trust me I’ve been there. There is a way to rewire your brain though and it worked for me. I’m no psychologist therapist scientist etc. these are just my thoughts and I have experienced debilitating OCD and am now free. Due to the face that my methods may not be traditional or even acceptable on this platform I’m going to ask anyone who is interested to email me beastmodehuman@gmail.com Thanks!
@Doubts123 you are scared of diseases right? You fear them and feel you feel as if you have no control over them. They are everywhere that is true. There is nothing you can do about it. Think to yourself “why am I afraid?” Is it because you don’t want to die or get sick. Well everyone is faced with that fact that they could catch a disease and get sick, but they still go out and don’t seem to care? They have truly accepted the fact that germs are everywhere and it causes them no anxiety. There are also other things abundant in the environment that could kill you easily. Anytime your in a car another car could crash into you, it wouldn’t even be your fault. You could try to reason with the contamination and tell yourself that your immune system fights off almost all threats and even if there was a threat medicine could help you recover. This will put you through a loop. Don’t reward your brain that way. Your brain needs to learn that germs are not that serious. The only way is to fight your fear. If you haven’t already tried ERP I think you should. Your brain will literally learn that even if you touched a germinated object everything would ok. ERP has been done throughout all our lives without any of us realizing. You could try SSRI to relive anxiety which could help you process these obsessions. If you are interested In my personal way of defeating OCD email me. It may work just as well for you!
Individuals, like us, tend to take our thought to seriously and focus our attention on them. But, Remember...a thought is not reality...
@KarlThomas yes that is very true, but you still wanna be able to trust your thought and think freely without fearing certain thoughts. This happens but getting rid of anxiety associated with thoughts. Yes your thoughts aren’t you. Your thoughts mean literally nothing. Most of what you do is subconscious and no matter what you reason will not change. Your sexuality won’t change based on little thoughts, your mother really won’t die if go through that doorway. It’s true. No matter what you think these thoughts don’t mean anything. but thinking is also something we all do and we all wanna be able to think freely without fear. In your dreams you don’t have intrusive thoughts. Your dreams are subconscious. So yes I agree dissociate yourself from your thoughts and any negative thinking around certain ones because they are not you and your brain is anxious and treating them as threats because it is confused
I'm doing ERP now I can't seem to get over the fact that I could be infecting others and also that maybe I could prevent this if I do a little extra washing.
@doubts123 email me and try my methods. Both of my methods that gave me any relief out of all the medicine and erp I tried are completely free and natural. One physically tells your brain everything is ok. It has been used since ancient times. And is free ( no weekly appointments no medicine no side effects no time loss)
Did you ever experience depersonalization
What if with POCD I used to have thoughts about children, sometimes sexual. Before my spike in October, I don’t really remember them bothering me. Ever since the spike, I’ve been an anxious mess, and feel like a horrible disgusting person. I’ve made advancements with an SSRI. But I feel like I’m stuck thinking I’m a P because of my current thoughts and my past. Also! Appreciate you coming back and helping people out. It means a lot.
Yes that is exactly how o feel. I don’t feel like me at all anymore. I feel like I’m going crazy
@matty z Hard for me to admit. But in my past I have looked at a form of hentai featuring young girls called Loli. It’s not my proudest moment. And I would never do it again. But my mind won’t let that go. It kills me that I did it. And if only fuels what I have going here.
@letsgo try to find a good therapist and be open about those experiences. Keeping things in hurts people even more. Many people experience things like this that give them trauma throughout their life and fuel ocd. It is important to admit to yourself “I did look at these things , yes I know I maybe shouldn’t have and accept that I did it, but it’s ok it doesn’t change me” the anxiety caused by the things you looked at needs to be destroyed before you can recover. You need to accept your past and move on.
I've shared this story on the app before but I struggle with a very intricate form of OCD. My current scenario involves me driving to a specific sidewalk I walked on many months ago otherwise I'll lose my intelligence. I know this is not true but if I refuse to perform the compulsion the thought starts to feel so real that I am left with no other option. I begin to question everything I do and say and am practically disables unless I perform this compulsion.
What would you recomnend for schizophrenia OCD...though i was diagnosed with OCD it still scares the heck out of me...still working on letting them be just thoughts, but anxiety is often stronger
I emailed you, but I've had this one obsession for a year and it's gotten a bit better but half a year ago I considered killing myself over it. I don't anymore but it's still so annoying and ruining my every moment
I always had anxiety, but started struggling with pocd in January. Ive always had a habit of overthinking and making myself believe lies but never to this extent. I’ve tried my own erp but I wasn’t sure about it. I am not talking with a cbt therapist. Any advice on what to work on or what I should do personally would be appreciated! ☺️
I don't. OCD has its pitfalls, its horrors, and its crippling themes. But why do I have to constantly focus on its harmful symptoms in order to overcome its harmful symptoms? My experience with OCD forced me to perseverate on so many meaningless things. Even worse, it forced me to RUMINATE on shameful, terrifying, and traumatic memories, thoughts, and feelings. I've obsessed over religion and morality, sexual orientation, cleanliness and illnesses. When I was in my teens, undiagnosed OCD lead me down the dreadful path of anorexia and bulimia. I was obsessed with my weight and fitness. I was thinking magically, forcing myself to knock three times on bona-fide wood with my right hand only to stop myself from jinxing something. I sometimes still repeat prayers, asking God to show me a sign regarding some unforeseeable event in the unknown distant future. I would say "God, if I'm going to get fired from work today, then let me find a parking spot!" Needless to say, I always found a parking spot and then went into work shaking like a leaf all day. Looking back, I wager that that alone helped me be one of the lowest performing employees in the lot. And oh boy, was I frightened as all get-out when I thought - believed - I was HOMOSEXUAL! (The audience gasps). What if, though, I wasn't homosexual... What if I was worse? What if I wanted to hurt... God, please no. I can't stop. It won't stop. MAKE IT STOP! How do I stop this? I have no idea. I need to learn how to stop this. I need to learn. I need to learn everything. If I don't KNOW FOR SURE, then how can I BE sure that I am none of those things? How can I be sure nothing bad will happen? Maybe... Just maybe, I can Google the answer. I just have to be smart while doing research... (12 hours and many BS websites later) By this time, I haven't eaten, showered, brushed my teeth, slept, or drank water. I would crawl up and out of isolated research, checking, rechecking, rereading and reassuring myself... Only to later find out that my attempts at quelling the insatiable obsessions were in vain. My compulsive activities only bolstered my fears, and I lost all of my insight, leaving me paranoid and almost clinically psychotic. I felt hopeless, and so I drank into oblivion. Only when I was sloshed and seeing stars did I find peace and sleep (albeit very dissatisfying sleep, and the peace was just a lie I told myself until I believed it). I took medication that doctors told me would help, but I drank away all the benefits of those prescriptions. On the other hand... Did you know that anxiety is not just an emotion, but an instinct? We adapted it throughout evolution to help us survive before civilization. If you are a creationist, the idea still stands: it is an alarm that warms us when the enemy is near. Isn't that nifty information. I wonder how I can use that... Did you also know that perseveration is the umbrella term used for multiple psychological diagnoses that means to fixate on one thing - emotion, thoughts, or external things - for longer than normal periods of time? It's associated with autism, ADHD, OCD and other anxiety disorders, depression, and more. Fancy that. You know... now that I'm sober and continuing therapy, I look back on the dreadful days wasted obsessing over themes of my own design, acting compulsively to eliminate them only to find out I made them stronger, and I realize that I've actually learned quite a lot of useful information. Through compulsive checking, I accidentally learned how deeply rooted OCD is in my genes. Instead, I was trying to learn the signs of being 100% gay. Now I realize that I'm just some bisexual dude with anxiety. I also learned that mindfulness meditation isn't just a Buddhist idea. It actually spans across every continent, every culture, in different forms. Pacific Island cultures practiced a form of meditation where a person would focus their gaze on a single point, without looking away. Blinking was necessary, of course, but their goal was to notice things in their periphery, as muted and blurry as those things might be. How amazing is that? I don't want to beat OCD, but I certainly do not want to let OCD overtake me again. I would say that "OCD once beat me", but it didn't. If it truly won, then I wouldn't be able to share this with anyone. I wouldn't be able to look back and say to myself "That experience taught me a lot about myself and the nature of OCD." Today, I can share my experiences and knowledge with others and I can say with 100% certainty that there is hope. The light at the end of the tunnel does not need to be checked and turned off and on multiple times. Instead, it can be what it is - the light at the end of the tunnel. So, I've quit drinking for good. I am continuing therapy, and I am aiming to restart medication management on top of all that. OCD may have taken a lot of time, energy, and health from me in the past, and as much as I WANT to completely get rid of it... I can't. It is a terminal diagnosis... So, how can I use it to benefit others? Well, I'm doing that right now by writing this. If it has become an issue, then that is okay. Asking for help does not mean defeat; it means refusal to give up. Embrace the unknown, and go forward fearlessly.
Hey all, I was recently diagnosed with OCD and MDD a few months ago. I’ve been experiencing symptoms for the past 11 months though. I used to be a person who would downplay depression, reasoning that if someone is depressed, they should be able to snap out of it. This year has taught me the truth behind how debilitating mental health conditions can be. My OCD has been absolutely tearing my life apart. For the past year, I’ve been coping with excessive guilt over past and recurring mistakes, my anxiety of which has recently been causing me panic attacks and throbbing headaches. I’ve also been coping with feeling unnatural sexual attractions, to those of the same sex and to children, which contradict the values I hold at heart. At one point, even simply shaking someone’s hand would cause sexual arousal, due to my hyper-vigilance surrounding physical contact. My OCD and depression nearly led me to take my life a few months ago. There are no words to describe the amount of pain I’ve had to endure. My thoughts and feelings have been absolutely tearing my life down, bit by bit. I feel like I lost who I was, and like it’s impossible for me to know who I am. This isn’t me. Over the past couple weeks, I’ve been feeling constant sexual arousal, it’s so easily triggered now. I don’t know if it’s because of the OCD, if it’s a result of the SSRI I’m on, or if it’s just a product of me being a young adult—Or maybe a combination of all of the above, but it’s debilitating. How easily I get aroused causes me so much guilt. There is a girl in my life that I love, but it doesn’t help that I get aroused around her because of the simplest of things. It’s not what I want for us. I want to be able to hone in on my self-control. I can’t help but constantly compare who I am now to who I was just over a year ago. My happiness has suffered, and my endurance is draining. I know there is a long road of insight and recovery ahead of me, this is just the beginning. If there’s anyone who can relate to me in any way, feel free to let me know. Comfort begins with feeling understood.
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