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Do you ever question if what you said is really what you said or what others really said ? Or what you are doing? I think this is derealization where it doesn’t feel real or feels like im making it up. But it does scare me and make me wonder if im really even doing what im doing or saying. And sometimes i get scared im going to lose track of time .
This sounds like it could lead to a lot of time in the mind trying to figure things out (rumination). This can become a compulsive process and keep the cycle of anxiety alive. Wondering if you've had a chance to check out any of our articles that might have more information for you: https://www.treatmyocd.com/learn/blog. There are a few different OCD types in the chart that could describe your experience. ERP and mindfulness can definitely be helpful strategies.
Thank you :) i will look at the link shared.
I have experienced this couple of times. First time i have strongly experienced this was when i hanged out with two of my friends, all of us were talking to each others about ourselves and about our lives, we were laughing and truly having a fun time, but after coming back to my house i started wondering about what i was saying. Did i truly said that or did i wanted to say that but i didn't actually say it? Did i truly said that or did i imagined myself saying it? What if i actually said it? But what if i actually didn't say it at all? I remember that i set for hours forcing myself to remember every single word which came out of my mouth and every single action which i did. And sometimes, some things happen to me, but i wonder if these things actually happened to me or am i making it up? This happens often. At first i was too afraid, i was too scared of what i was experiencing and passing through but then i stopped arguing with my brain, and i started telling myself that whatever comes to my mind is the right thing . For example: " Did you said that? " " Yes ! I did " " No you didn't! You imagined that you said what you said " " Okay then i imagined" " It means you are losing your mind " " Yes maybe i am, who knows ?" " ... " .
Does anyone else have depersonalization? I don’t feel as dreamlike lately but I just don’t feel like me anymore. I question everything, am I real, I look at a pic and think is that really me, will I ever feel like me again? Does anyone else have this?
Why does life sometimes not seem real? Like I’m in a dream or something? Like I was thinking if I were arrested it wouldn’t matter cause life isn’t real. I know it is but it just feels like that. Is this me going crazy or??
im beginning to doubt my own memories and fundamental things about myself :\ every time i make a claim it's like my brain gets a little foggy and i start questioning it. for example i might narrate an event, or state a fact about something or someone, and question whether that really is true or happened. and when i get that thought it's like my brain goes blank and i don't know how to get back on track. i constantly feel like a liar. i also had a phase where i excessively doubted my identity and personality. every time i expressed a strong opinion or emotion, or made a statement about who i am as a person i got an unwanted thought that said "is this really who you are" and my mind would go blank again. id also feel anxious and hopeless. i compensate for this by taking personality tests on the internet to reassure myself that im secure in my identity and have an actual personality, but it can also be triggering sometimes because when im unsure about something i start feeling like i have no identity again ;( this is stupid i know
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