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Sexual orientation is not black or white. It is more like a spectrum. You could be attracted to women and men, a lot of people are although they don't admit it. I used to have a similar fear until I realized it was normal. Sometimes I am attracted to a woman. Not a big deal... I honestly wouldn't act on it because I am already married to a man, but I felt like normalizing it helped me a lot.
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- 6y
Stop right there. This is not about normalizing anything. Telling someone with ocd to "admit it" is pulling the fucking trigger. Saying that is not gonna help with an compulsive obsession, you are just going to cause more pain into the ill person. The theme of the obsession is not exactly the problem here so please don't say those things so easily. None of the sufferers think having others sexual orientation is bad, they just can't stop thinking about it because they have an obsessive behaviour to treat, shut up.
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Wow, nice way to disagree politely. The point is that I have had similar thoughts and by normalizing it, it didn't have power over me anymore. You can't disagree with someone's own experience.
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You should not generalize. Your perspective is yours and honestly is not the adequate to deal with this. "The fear" you said is not the real problem, again. We are people who overthink too much, we are obsessive sometimes and we autoboicote ourselves. That is what treatment is going to take care. Seriously is like if you tell someone here with intrusive thoughts of being a pedophile to actually admit they are pedophiles. Or someone with selfharm or suicide ocd to hurt themselves, because they have to face it. The theme is not what matters here. We are going to obsses with everything that we disagree and reach our minds. Do you understand? There are also a lot os people with soocd who are bi, gay or lesbian who think they are just straight now. And is the same as the hoocd. They are not afraid on turning straight, they just can't stop thinking about because their behaviours are not really healthy.
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- Date posted
- 6y
Stop googling. Its a compulsion :) you have OCD. I had to take google off of my phone when I was deep in OCD.
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Something that causes you distress is never going to be something that you enjoy. Simple as that. Believe in your behaviours and not in your intrusive thoughts. Is not that you feel attraction. Now you see a woman and that scares you. Is angsty and with just that you ask yourself all the time "so what do you think about this?" that makes insecure about yourself and the doubts are bigger and bigger until desperation comes to freak you out. You are waiting all the time, in alert, for a reaction.
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That you all for those words, means a whole lot. I know I’ll get through this... also side comment how do tag someone
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@idont241 yes I can picture it, but I can picture anything. I don’t know if I’d like it because I make myself picture it. I’m not against being gay, but I don’t think it’s who I am and if it is I’m not supportive of the thoughts I have. Anything is possible, and being gay is so normal so I think that’s what makes it so hard. Not saying any other theme isn’t just as hard but fearing killing a family member is not as normal and common yk? You said besides sex and tbh I think same sex, sex doesn’t make someone gay or bi it’s just experimenting so I can picture that much more than really being with a women.
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By the way, its the fear that has power over you. If you take the fear away, the power is gone.
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@emimilu28- I appreciate your honesty. We all have different backgrounds and make sense as best as we can. I get turned on by women as well. My ocd keeps telling me I want a girl and it’s so convincing. I have already left a bf for this type of thing and regretted it. I think ocd is the worst. Distinguishing true desires from others can be extremely hard.
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- 6y
@brooklyn33- what do you know about people that are bi with hocd? What are there fears/ thoughts like?
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Cool- id like to understand it better
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With bisexuality is more about the feeling that you are faking it. That you are not real and you just are looking for attention... the worst is that now you don't even know what sex you like now, so it feels like you are turning ace too... but that's not true. The good thing is that you can apply the same soocd treatment.
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Besides sex, do you see yourself being in a relationship with another woman?
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I have type 1 diabetes, and for a long time I had a fear that I would accidently overdose myself without thinking about it. Kind of on autopilot. So I came up with these intense rituals/routines and checks to make sure I didn't do it... and still, the fear would creep up and I would go into a panic attack. I started giving myself a comforting thing to say each time I had the fear, "I trust myself" and relief would just wash over me. I don't fight that one anymore. I have new ones, but giving yourself something positive to redirect yourself to in order to remind yourself that you have nothing to fear can go a long way.
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I am one.
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- 6y
Ocd is not about accepting your "fears". Is about accepting you have unreal thoughts and a way of thinking with an obsessive behaviour. You can be afraid of spiders and that is a fear. But if you obsess about the idea or being biten by them is another matter. Don't generalize, please. People with hocd will be really happy just saying they have another sexuality if with that their obsession will stop right there. But they can't because they are not and their thoughts are in a mess. And with the lgtb community is the same. If you tell this people they are just afraid of being what they are not, well, Im sorry but that is a trigger bigger than a dinosaur. Accepting this is a extremely hard treatment called erp. That is when you face anxiety Without Giving a Response. Even if you answer to your doubt "I am X or I am Y" in the end is only reassurance, and in the future a compulsion that is going go hurt you...
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- 6y
Someone put this here not so long ago. Read it if you can, is really interesting https://iocdf.org/expert-opinions/homosexual-obsessions/ :)
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- 6y
Is there anything about bisexual fears in there? I skimmed and didn’t see anything
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Honestly I have to say accepting that you could be what you fear is helping me in some ways. Or more so accepting the uncertainty of it. Maybe this wouldn’t work for other themes but when I just say “yup I could be bi, or gay who knows” and changing the thought in my head kinda helps give the thoughts less meaning.
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- 6y
If you do that when the doubt is not in your head and you don't have anxiety that's a good thing, if not is only reassurance. You should not give that as a response when the doubt appears. Or at least do it with some treatment of your therapist. Doing erp without it could be dangerous... And also accepting the uncertainty is not accepting that you are something else :)
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- 19w
i had recently been triggered to have so-ocd. its been on my mind non-stop. (i am a heterosexual female) and my mind has been all over the place questioning if i have been in denial the entire time. ive always had people tell me they sort of got that vibe it it never really affected me until my own mother had her suspicions. so i would constantly get triggered un public around the same gender, while knowing my true sexuality. ive always been attracted to men but as of recently ive been having super bad anxiety to where i cannot eat or sleep and feel weak all the time. it was like that for a week or so. now im in the calm where i have been trying accept the uncertainty but it still isnt fair as im getting triggered. im a little worried because it feels like i have been lying to my parents the entire time although ive never had the desire to be with the same gender. and i keep getting intrusive thoguhts that make me feel anxious and uncomfortable. its all starting to affect my friendships as im constantly getting triggered with the intrusive thoguhts. i feel a little less anxious compared to how i was a couple days ago. im really scared on why im having these thoughts now when i have been having romantic feelings for a guy the past year or so. ive also been struggling with false attraction and loss attraction to men. it makes me feel uncertain of my life the entire time
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- 14w
I’ve always been straight my whole life and I’ve never considered being different nor have i ever had attraction to women but lately I’ve been going through a lot of different thoughts that definitely feel unlike me. When I was a kid and I don’t remember how old I was but im sure like 7 or 8 and my cousin that was I very close to had me do inappropriate things to her that I didn’t really know anything about at that time. After that happened to me I knew it was wrong and I felt so bad and disgusting and scared but at the time I didn’t really know anything and I remember when my mom would drop me over my grandmas house while she would work, I’d take my grandma’s phone and I looked up kissing videos and I saw the kissing scene from Jennifer’s body and looking back on it I just feel so much shame and confusion bc it certainly feels embarrassing. My cousin always liked girls but I never did. I loved sitting and watching Disney movies preferably princess and the frog and wanting to be a princess getting married to a prince just like in all the movies. I knew who I was from a very young age and that never changed about me. When I learned what porn was at an older age, I started becoming hyper sexual so I watched tutorials videos of women to learn how to pleasure myself. When I was a kid and to now I’ve never looked at women in that way. I’ve had best friends and sleepovers it’s never been anything sexual, romantic, or intimate. Just simply innocent friendships and hangouts. When I got to high school that’s when i started remembering what happened to me and i remember how the girls would talk about their first kisses and i remembered my sa and how I felt so scared to say anything to anyone bc I didn’t want people to think badly of me simply bc my first kiss was like that so I would simply just not say anything. Lately I’ve been having obsessive thoughts out of nowhere wondering if my sexuality has changed or if im bi or is it just my thoughts? I’ve always had ocd and even in school, the kids would pick at me because I always eat my food in order and by the lightest color. But lately it’s gotten worse. It’s like I’ve never had thoughts like this nor have I ever been like this. Not even when I was a child. And humans question themselves of course but this feels like something different. I’ve gotten distant from my best friend who’s also a girl and I’ve just cut off social media and female friend relationships at all because for some reason my brain tells me that it’s “gay” to even hug your friends or hold their hands anymore like you used to do when you were kids. I even got to a point where I would watch women porn and try to masturbate just to see if I was attracted to it or not like that’s how bad the thoughts got. It felt like an evil voice was in my head trying to convince me and sweet talk me to do and enjoy those disgusting things even when my body didn’t want to. I eventually had confided in my bf about it because he was also a victim of sa and so he helped me through it and I stopped doing it but then and my bf (now ex) broke up a couple days ago and now ive been dealing with this alone which feels like the hardest part for me. So I’ve texted my bff a lot to catch up because I’ve been distant dealing with this and I was just checking my phone awaiting for her responses to my texts because she tends to type slow and usually I never think anything of it because I used to check my phone all the time when I would await my boyfriends reply or simply just a text from him and so now im having thoughts like “why am I awaiting her texts” “do I like my friend?” Its just so many obsessive thoughts and so much overthinking that I am getting tired of because It’s been going on for months so I know this is a lot but please if anyone can please help me I beg, it would be such a great help appreciated bc this has became a really big impact on my life and not in a good way lol. Thank you !!
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- 11w
I remember another thing from the past where it was a sexual thought and I don’t remember if I was talking to or dating my gf at the time but it was like “if I was talking to someone else like _____ I’d be able to have sex already” and I feel terrible bc I don’t want sex. I would rather be with my girlfriend than any other girl. Idk if the thought was intrusive or not. I think the people or person I was thinking of may have been intrusive. I’m just terrified bc I really love my gf and don’t care about sex
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