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Take a deep breath. You are giving you children the gift of your self sacrifice. You carry this cross for them. This same situation terrifies me in the future. But you fight this for them. That is love.
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You can do this! You are stronger than you know. I’ll be praying for you.
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So much love I understand what this feels like ❤️ remember you wouldn’t have these thoughts and fears so strongly unless it was the absolute opposite of what you want. Nobody fights and battles with nice thoughts or is overpowered by them - for a reason. Your brain wants to solve it and try and find safety and a solution because it sees the thoughts as threatening. Try to say to the thoughts ‘I hear you, be with me’ no matter how hard it is - it’s ok if it feels hard and the thoughts are still there. Thoughts aren’t facts ❤️
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I understand completely, I struggled with bathing and dressing my children too because of my pocd. It was such a trigger for me but you have to push through. Your babies need you and you will get through this!! If you aren't on meds then honestly I suggest you try them. I take sertaline right now and clonazapam as needed for my anxiety attacks
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I think it’s part of just accepting that we may always have the thoughts. But that doesn’t mean we like them. The goal is to manage them. Medicine is great but I tried it once but stopped. I tried Prozac and it made the thoughts worse. The tools you learn in therapy like mindfulness and separating the thoughts as ocd rather than you are the tools that help you beat it. Medicine is great to reduce anxiety about the thoughts though. But the tools like I mentioned before will help you the most. I’m no therapist but from what I researched and have been doing it seems to work for me. Exposure around children and slowing accepting that the thoughts will be there are the first step. Know that they are ocd thoughts. And slowly the anxiety will go down.
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Accepting the thoughts will be there does not mean you like them.
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You can do it!
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Thank you so much guys your support actually means the world, to know I’m not alone and I’m not the only person in the world that’s been/going through this! I was on fluoxetine but seemed to fizzle out then I went on sertraline and got suicidal for some reason so around 6 weeks ago I went on to citalopram and a few weeks in it seemed I was happier but now I’ve gone downhill again 🤨 I think I may have to speak to my doctor and see what the next step could be! Has anyone got any advice for when I get these pedophillia thoughts? I haven’t quite found a way to shake them off yet, it’s hard when I do the school run twice a day too so I’m constantly around children! :( 🤎🤎
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Hi NOCD community, I was hoping to get some advice from fellow sufferers. In December we welcomed the first baby into the family, my beautiful niece. Since then, my POCD has been awful, which I know is probably very normal. Last week, in the middle of a very high stress day in my family, I was changing my niece and as usually happens, I got intrusive thoughts about awful things people do to babies when changing them. The thoughts were so harrowing to have as I was also changing her at the exact same time, and I felt my hands just quickly want to finish patting her dry before putting her nappy on, and for some reason, my heart dropped with that hand movement, because I was afraid that I had acted out the awful thoughts in my head, in a moment of mania because my morals, values and heart do not align with abuse of any kind, especially to children. My niece is my everything, and I know I would never want harm to come to her in any way, shape or form. I love her endlessly. I am having therapy, but have only had a couple of sessions. But, I cannot shake the 'what if'. I am tortured over trying to remember what it was I did that made my heart drop, but I can't, and its getting fuzzier and fuzzier the more I try to remember. Could anyone offer any advice on this please? Thank you.
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I have to be alone with my children tomorrow and I'm scared. Harm OCD has me panicking and ruminating. I don't want to hurt my babies they mean everything to me. I keep fighting for them, I got a better job for them and I want to create a better life for them. I'm so afraid that I might hurt them so I need to be away from them but I also don't want to be away from them. The thoughts and images are so much. I'd rather die before I hurt them. Accepting the uncertainty of possibly hurting them is not something I can accept or live with. And it doesn't help having existential ocd because that says none of it matters anyway. I just want to be the old me, I hate this disorder I hate this disease I hate me for having these thoughts. I'm sorry for ranting. I just need to get it out. I hate this worry disorder!
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Let me start by prefacing that I developed ocd as postpartum ocd after having my first child. I had harm and pocd. I had it on and off for years and then it just eventually went away completely for many years until recently after a stressful life event. Now that it’s back it again targets my children but now my grandchildren also. It’s been horrible and makes me pull away from them. Last night my 6 year old granddaughter threw up in the car when my daughter was about to take her home so my daughter brought her back in the house and asked me to clean her up while she cleaned her car. I had some anxiety about it because of my ocd but I couldn’t say no to helping so I opened the bathroom door and my granddaughter was standing in her underwear waiting for me to clean and dress her. Everything was fine and normal but then for some reason, I have no idea why, I looked down at her chest area. I immediately got so upset and didn’t know why I looked there and now my ocd is saying it’s because i’m a monster. I tried to tell myself it’s just normal human behavior when someone is standing there naked that you look where you shouldn’t simply because it’s just there in front of you but I feel horrible. I don’t feel any inappropriate way about her or any child but my ocd is saying it was inappropriate. Has anyone else been through this?
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