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Take a deep breath. You are giving you children the gift of your self sacrifice. You carry this cross for them. This same situation terrifies me in the future. But you fight this for them. That is love.
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You can do this! You are stronger than you know. I’ll be praying for you.
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So much love I understand what this feels like ❤️ remember you wouldn’t have these thoughts and fears so strongly unless it was the absolute opposite of what you want. Nobody fights and battles with nice thoughts or is overpowered by them - for a reason. Your brain wants to solve it and try and find safety and a solution because it sees the thoughts as threatening. Try to say to the thoughts ‘I hear you, be with me’ no matter how hard it is - it’s ok if it feels hard and the thoughts are still there. Thoughts aren’t facts ❤️
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I understand completely, I struggled with bathing and dressing my children too because of my pocd. It was such a trigger for me but you have to push through. Your babies need you and you will get through this!! If you aren't on meds then honestly I suggest you try them. I take sertaline right now and clonazapam as needed for my anxiety attacks
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I think it’s part of just accepting that we may always have the thoughts. But that doesn’t mean we like them. The goal is to manage them. Medicine is great but I tried it once but stopped. I tried Prozac and it made the thoughts worse. The tools you learn in therapy like mindfulness and separating the thoughts as ocd rather than you are the tools that help you beat it. Medicine is great to reduce anxiety about the thoughts though. But the tools like I mentioned before will help you the most. I’m no therapist but from what I researched and have been doing it seems to work for me. Exposure around children and slowing accepting that the thoughts will be there are the first step. Know that they are ocd thoughts. And slowly the anxiety will go down.
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Accepting the thoughts will be there does not mean you like them.
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You can do it!
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Thank you so much guys your support actually means the world, to know I’m not alone and I’m not the only person in the world that’s been/going through this! I was on fluoxetine but seemed to fizzle out then I went on sertraline and got suicidal for some reason so around 6 weeks ago I went on to citalopram and a few weeks in it seemed I was happier but now I’ve gone downhill again 🤨 I think I may have to speak to my doctor and see what the next step could be! Has anyone got any advice for when I get these pedophillia thoughts? I haven’t quite found a way to shake them off yet, it’s hard when I do the school run twice a day too so I’m constantly around children! :( 🤎🤎
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Okay so In the moment I get intrusive thoughts about children which I hate. I get the gronal responses which I always so many compultions after. My ocd is very bad and I’m showering and changing my bedding around 8 times. Therapists have told me I’m the worse they’ve ever known. That’s how bad my life is atm. I hate this disorder. I want to know if ocd can cause these things as it will help me to fight my compulsions and just except it’s ocd… In the moment the gronal responses are genuinely pleasurable and I struggle to ignore them and stop them, in the moment t I want them even if it was due to a thought of a kid My OCD will tell me I’m aroused I’ll feel aroused then when moving around in my bed it’ll tell me to make my vagina touch my bedding for a feeling while I’m turning over and I purposely do it in the moment… I hate it. After I do so many compilations, it’s not even me it’s like someone else controlling my body When I try to fight my compulsions I think in my mind “I like this anyways” and actually like the thoughts and gronal responses over the children, which then makes me not be able to fight them. For example my ocf was telling me to spray my feet with anti back, but then I tried to fight it and I was thinking to myself “nah l like this one I like this feeling over the kid it’s the real me” like I didn’t even feel stressed from it it’s like I wanted it. Of corse after these I do lots and many compultions Please I just want to know if ocd can do this
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so I’ve been seeking therapy for my OCD for a few years. The theme that I’ve been dealing with most recently is the fear of becoming a pedophile, which then has led to intrusive images of me doing things to kids.Which now is just causing me so much distress and 24/7 constant thought cycle. I am starting to not be able to tell the difference between thoughts that are wanted/ unwanted- the line has become some blurry and these things are starting to feel like someothing i want to do. My brain keeps telling me to just test these thoughts and the “maybe”or”i don’t know” isn’t working. This has become such a barrier because the second layer is that I’m afraid that if I just let the thoughts be there it’ll make me be OK with doing those things and the fear is what’s keeping me from actually doing something inappropriate. It’s also transitioned into intrusive thoughts and images of me doing something very disgusting to my dog and that when I’m cuddling with him I get the thoughts to just do it or try it to see if i am actually a p*do. it’s almost like the compulsion would be to do the inappropriate thing, even though I know it’s wrong just to see how it would make me feel. I feel like i can’t control these urges even though i’ve never acted on it. At any point i could just do it. I’ve never had these thoughts before up until about a year and a half ago when my friend‘s boyfriend got arrested for soliciting a minor then all these thoughts came to life.Has anyone experienced something like this and have any advice?
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(Long post warning) Hi, I’ve been struggling with severe OCD for six years now. it started in 2019 with my theme being getting sick/emetophobia. it devastated my life. I almost didn’t graduate high school from it. I remember washing my hands for three hours one day until they were nearly bloody while crying and asking why I could not stop doing it. I remember id have to write and rewrite sentences when I did my English homework and that’s why I nearly failed that class. I remember how I would spend up to thirty minutes to an hour pacing the halls of my apartment while my mom was asleep until I neutralized the thoughts about throwing up and I could finally go to bed. I don’t know when it happened, but my theme switched. Sometimes in late 2020 or early 2021, it switched to POCD. It started with a single thought, and I focused on it and it’s been my theme since then for four years. It has been absolutely destroying me. I feel so disgusted and lost and just tired. My compulsions are severe now. I thought they were bad before, but now they’re ten times worse. I can’t eat, drink, change my clothes, walk, or even do things on my phone normally. I’ve developed so many mental compulsions that it’s so intricate and complicated yet at the same time I’ve done them so much that they’ve become normal. An example I have is if im putting on a shirt and I have a “bad” thought, I have to take it off and put it back on two more times (that’ll make it 3 times I put the shirt back on - odd numbers are my safe number). I have to have a good thought on the third time otherwise I have to take it off and put it on two more times to make it five times I put on that shirt. If not that then I just put on a different shirt because the original is now tainted with my bad thought. I can’t open apps on my phone. It’s with the numbers again. If I open TikTok once while having a bad thought - I have to close it and open it two more times and so on. Sometimes I do it up to 30 times. So I just don’t do things usually. I don’t turn on the TV because I know I’ll redo it. I don’t open a book or grab it off my shelf because I’ll have to repeat the action. I can’t even lay in bed without getting up and redoing it even if im exhausted. I just feel so helpless. I don’t know what to do. I feel disgusting and even now my minds screaming at me that I am dirty and what I think is true. I just wish I was free of this, I wish I could just live my life. I’ve wasted hours and days because of my compulsions. I mask it so well around my friends. I don’t do them in front of anyone or I’ve learned to hide it well. But when im back home alone, it goes haywire. I just want to live again.
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