- Username
- Kasey2001
- Date posted
- 2y ago
Take a deep breath. You are giving you children the gift of your self sacrifice. You carry this cross for them. This same situation terrifies me in the future. But you fight this for them. That is love.
You can do this! You are stronger than you know. I’ll be praying for you.
So much love I understand what this feels like ❤️ remember you wouldn’t have these thoughts and fears so strongly unless it was the absolute opposite of what you want. Nobody fights and battles with nice thoughts or is overpowered by them - for a reason. Your brain wants to solve it and try and find safety and a solution because it sees the thoughts as threatening. Try to say to the thoughts ‘I hear you, be with me’ no matter how hard it is - it’s ok if it feels hard and the thoughts are still there. Thoughts aren’t facts ❤️
I understand completely, I struggled with bathing and dressing my children too because of my pocd. It was such a trigger for me but you have to push through. Your babies need you and you will get through this!! If you aren't on meds then honestly I suggest you try them. I take sertaline right now and clonazapam as needed for my anxiety attacks
I think it’s part of just accepting that we may always have the thoughts. But that doesn’t mean we like them. The goal is to manage them. Medicine is great but I tried it once but stopped. I tried Prozac and it made the thoughts worse. The tools you learn in therapy like mindfulness and separating the thoughts as ocd rather than you are the tools that help you beat it. Medicine is great to reduce anxiety about the thoughts though. But the tools like I mentioned before will help you the most. I’m no therapist but from what I researched and have been doing it seems to work for me. Exposure around children and slowing accepting that the thoughts will be there are the first step. Know that they are ocd thoughts. And slowly the anxiety will go down.
Accepting the thoughts will be there does not mean you like them.
You can do it!
Thank you so much guys your support actually means the world, to know I’m not alone and I’m not the only person in the world that’s been/going through this! I was on fluoxetine but seemed to fizzle out then I went on sertraline and got suicidal for some reason so around 6 weeks ago I went on to citalopram and a few weeks in it seemed I was happier but now I’ve gone downhill again 🤨 I think I may have to speak to my doctor and see what the next step could be! Has anyone got any advice for when I get these pedophillia thoughts? I haven’t quite found a way to shake them off yet, it’s hard when I do the school run twice a day too so I’m constantly around children! :( 🤎🤎
POCD Trigger: I really hate this disorder and I don’t know how much longer I can do this for. I work at a daycare and I’m constantly bombarded with these thoughts that I have hurt a child or even molested them. It is the worst feeling and part of me knows I’d never do that but my OCD really does take over my life. Today, for instance, I was rocking on of the children and I rocked them for two seconds by accident and it told me I molested them. And when I when to pick them up to put them in the play area my hand accidente touched the front of their leg and it told me again I had hurt them, a similar thing happened with another child today where I was feeding them and I accidentally rocked them and I was now a molester. It really is the hardest disorder to deal with. And I hate how it attacked my occupation, I love working with kids and child psychology and everything, but my ocd is really affecting everything.
Someone please read this. I’m suffering a lot with pocd. It is the worst thing I have ever experienced. It truly makes me feel evil and disgusting and I’ve never hated myself more. The worst part is I have a younger sister who I absolutely adore obviously but now I’m afraid to be around any younger kids even though I know they’re just scary thoughts. I can’t help but think that I should stay away from them even if I have just had these thoughts cross my mind. I feel like this feeling is never going to go away and it’s ruining my life I really don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like I can’t live with this ‘secret’ because I feel like I’m hiding an evil trait. And I can’t stress enough how much I know that they’re not my true thoughts and of course I think it is disgusting and the most vile thing I could think of. And I think that’s why it distresses me so much, because it’s my worst nightmare. But never the less the thoughts are still haunting me no matter what. I really need help because I can’t imagine living with this forever but I can never see it fully going away. When I think about the future even, I feel like I can’t live the life I want because all I’ve ever been sure of is that I want to be a mum and now I feel like I cannot be. What can I do, I feel so helpless and out of control of my own mind.
I'm really struggling today, I've had OCD diagnosed for around 12 years and it comes and goes but recently I'm experiencing some of the biggest waves I've ever had. I have a 2 year old daughter and I love her with everything I have, she's my absolute world but the OCD centres around her and it's really intensified recently. I try not to avoid anything but my OCD is saying to just try it out, just once, to see if I like it then I'll know for sure. I'm sat here in floods of tears because I'm so scared. What if I do? I don't want to harm her in any way at all, but my OCD just keeps saying I need to try. I brushed it away yesterday saying yea, yea OCD whatever you say we'll try tomorrow and now tomorrow is here my brain is just making me feel like I have to, to know for certain and I'm scared. I want to call the Samaritans but I'm scared they'll think I'm a risk to my daughter and lock me up. I'm so tired of feeling this way, just scared all the time that I'm going to give in and just try it once to shut the OCD up but I feel sick at the thought. Someone help me please.
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