Am I suicidal or not

Hello if anyone is out there with the same problem can someone help? I've been dealing with with intrusive thoughts about harming my self for a long time then they turned into having thoughts about hurting people around me and the people I love. I can't sleep can't eat can't really function. Also it's all I think about all day long and night when i spiral. I also go through periods where feel a little relief from the thoughts then they go right back to 24/7 because something triggers me? I'm really scared like really scared I'm desperate 😣

Username: Matthew..22Matthew..22

Date posted: 2y ago

Also I have a condition that causes a lot of stomach pain and the thoughts get real intense when I have a flare up and i feel like my condition is never going to get better. I can't sleep or eat because I think about death all day long and night. Also I though of ways hurt my self and others wich makes me feel like I'm a freak because I haven't had these thoughts until November of last year. Sorry I just wanted to vent and see if anyone else is like this ?

Username: dragon_calvesdragon_calves

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y ago

Oh no, that is a nightmare! Have you taken steps to commit suicide? That would be a promising sign. Do you have a therapist?

Username: Matthew..22Matthew..22

Date posted: 2y ago

could you explain what steps look like

Username: dragon_calvesdragon_calves

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y ago

What do you mean steps? Steps to get a therapist?

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 2y ago

I also have Harm ocd about my family and people around me. I try hard not to ruminate about it and do other compulsions. I have pretty severe OCD and take a crap ton of medicine to help alleviate the thoughts and feelings. I found ERPade me worse so I focus mainly on the ruminating. https://drmichaeljgreenberg.com/articles/

Username: Janiqua G.Janiqua G.

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y ago

if you are in distress about the thoughts, it would be ocd related. if you’re not worried about the thoughts and you’re looking for an actual way “out” then you are suicidal. either way, work with a therapist if you don’t have one already. I have extreme harm ocd and notice that when I’m in high stress periods, I have thoughts of harming myself or those I love. It’s terrifying and I wish it would go away all the time. ocd will make you feel that your thoughts are actually what you want to do and that’s not exactly true. I also suffer with a lot of other themes but harm is probably the one I have the most trouble with.

Username: Scc08Scc08

Date posted: 2y ago

Same here, i have so many types of OCD, and the more i think about my life the more ocds i find :( harm ocd is also the one i struggle the most out of. Of all types, this is the one that I really wish i did not have, and im also afraid of it not being harm ocd but sth else :(😭

Username: Janiqua G.Janiqua G.

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y ago

@Scc08 very, very common. I sometimes feel that there’s something deeper than just OCD going on.

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 3y ago

I’ve been dealing with intrusive violent images/urges/thoughts for months now. Lately it’s gotten worse. Sometimes when I see a person i automatically imagine hurting them, sometimes to see if I enjoy the thought or not, or sometimes it just appears in my head and I try to cut it off immediately. It’s like i just can not interact with people because I can’t tell if I’m a risk or not. If I’m capable of hurting them or not. I hate it because I’m all day trying to get an answer to whether I want to harm people or not. I’m constantly asking myself: have you ever desired the thought? Do you want to do it or not? And all of the above makes me feel anormal and like a psycho. And of course, another doubt comes into my head: do you really don’t want to be a bad person? And it’s a never ending disturbing and frustrating cycle... I can’t stop it, it’s driving me crazy and it makes me desperate. Is all this even normal?

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Username: Rydder

Date posted: 48w ago

Intrusive thoughts

Hello I am a 27 year old male who has battling with very aggressive intrusive thoughts, it is not letting me sleep or not letting me live my everyday life because I feel as if I could hurt myself or someone else, can someone please help me out, ever since I got the flu I haven’t been the same, I was rushed to the emergency room thinking I was going to have a heart attack, they just pumped me with Ativan and gave me a prescription, but I’m also a very heavy drinker at night, and when I drink heavy and wake up the next day, I have uncontrollable thoughts and anxiety all day! Someone please help me!

Username: 13vera

Date posted: 35w ago

tw for harm ocd and s***idal thoughts

i have been having a really depressive couple of months and i am having an especially bad day. I have never really had suicidal thoughts until this spring, but they keep spreading like wildfire. I would never do such a thing or even plan out taking my own life. I am not one to give up that easy and there are so many things I love about my life and so many people who need me. There are so many things I have yet to live and I am excited to see!!! I think it may just be a really intense intrusive thought. It pops into my head really graphically and it immediately upsets me to a point of panic attack, because for just one moment it feels like the only path. Today it has been happening like every thirty minutes since i’ve been awake and I really just want it to stop. Is this normal for others?? How do you get it to calm down. [I think I am planning on calling a hotline tonight, i’m not going to tell them i’m actually thinking about it(because i’m not). I just really need someone to talk to. I just wish it could be someone who knows me but I don’t want to worry them. No one in my life really understands my OCD very well, they kind of just think it’s basic level cleanliness and obsessive thought OCD.]

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