For anyone dealing with HOCD I really recommend watching this video https://youtu.be/1V6M1PLwhWs and going to 8:57 It showed me that people are gay because of Gene's and you cannot go gay when you feel like (or when your OCD does)

I mean 8:45

I am scared tho. What if I was always like this and I am just now realizing it? I don’t know. It’s just too hard

I understand. It's been 10 years for me and I have been too afraid. I've just been avoiding and trying to push through life. I'm really tired of it. I have to try. Just like going on a new diet or exercise plan, you have to know when you're ready. For me, I recently met the girl of my dreams and I feel miserable that I can't pursue her. If this is truly the painful path I have to take, then I'll do it. If I cant, then I'll accept how far I can heal and learn to be celibate. I don't want that though, so I'm gonna try my best. This app allows us at least some support system. We can talk and help each other

I listened to 20 minutes of it. It's actually good erp to try and listen through these conversations in my opinion. Non OCD related conversation, I don't understand how Conan going on Grinder is not offensive but Logan Paul's joke was. I actually dislike Logan Paul and like Conan, but inconsistency on what is outrageous and what is not is frustrating. Regardless, I'm going to try and take make ERP seriously and read this gay soldiers book

Yeah that guest is really biased against Logan or something