How can I get out of the rabbit hole?

I am in a spiral now because I gave in to my compulsions that I was desperately trying hard this morning to not engage, but in the afternoon I gave into one obsession then as expected it was just one after another and another and another! I’m also at work too and although we do have a lot of downtime (which is why I ruminate during that), it took me almost 40 minutes at least to do the rituals and say the phrases and unblocking and blocking someone else from the past to feel that relief but then the guilt comes in because I might be cheating on or hurting my partner and also the urge to do it AGAIN because my phone did not screen record everything that I was doing! Ugh I cannot stop 😭

Username: Scaredimtheonlyone

Date posted: 402d ago

Hi. I never knew this is what I had until I started to look into it. OCD has had this exact same effect on my relationship. I spiraled 3 weeks ago and I’m still climbing out of it. Some days are better than others but my intrusive thoughts pop back up just when I think everything is better again. I hate it so much and I am so sorry I can’t help with this feeling especially since it happens and in the moment it feels like the end of the world and then it takes time to climb out. You have got to change your thinking. It’s so hard I know but deep breaths and repeat to yourself that they are only thoughts. Everything is in your mind. ♥️ I’m holding your hand.