How can I get out of the rabbit hole?

I am in a spiral now because I gave in to my compulsions that I was desperately trying hard this morning to not engage, but in the afternoon I gave into one obsession then as expected it was just one after another and another and another! I’m also at work too and although we do have a lot of downtime (which is why I ruminate during that), it took me almost 40 minutes at least to do the rituals and say the phrases and unblocking and blocking someone else from the past to feel that relief but then the guilt comes in because I might be cheating on or hurting my partner and also the urge to do it AGAIN because my phone did not screen record everything that I was doing! Ugh I cannot stop 😭

Scaredimtheo...

Date posted: 2y ago

Hi. I never knew this is what I had until I started to look into it. OCD has had this exact same effect on my relationship. I spiraled 3 weeks ago and I’m still climbing out of it. Some days are better than others but my intrusive thoughts pop back up just when I think everything is better again. I hate it so much and I am so sorry I can’t help with this feeling especially since it happens and in the moment it feels like the end of the world and then it takes time to climb out. You have got to change your thinking. It’s so hard I know but deep breaths and repeat to yourself that they are only thoughts. Everything is in your mind. ♥️ I’m holding your hand.

Anonymous

Date posted: 21w ago

Acted on a Compulsion

Help me! I acted on a compulsion and now I feel like want to keep doing it. I’m scared. I had been doing okay for these past two days but idk. What should I do?

issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 18w ago

I’m sick of confessing, advice please

I don’t know how to stop confessing. It’s driving me insane. I confess every little thing to my boyfriend. I confessed that I liked attention (this is so obviously human), that I liked it when people found me pretty (also very human??) I confessed about a million other things and I feel out of control. I felt so safe with him last night that it just started pouring out of me. I felt guilty and awful and I just needed release, I couldn’t breathe I felt like I was dying. I’m stuck in a confessing loop and I know I’m only making things worse. Has anyone experienced this and been able to overcome it? It feels absolutely horrible and impossible. I tried to ERP this and I genuinely feel like I am suffocating if I hold off. I feel so disappointed in myself, but I can’t seem to stop. I even had a dream where I confessed to him and woke up needed to confess that. I’m scared I’ll start sharing my worst intrusive thoughts I’ve had if I feel too safe around my bf. Help please :(

issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 16w ago

I really need help please, please

I know a few of you saw my posts about my ERP and the googling urges. That didn’t end up going well. My therapist actually decided we needed to halt it for now. The thing is it’s almost like I learned googling is harmless from those few exercises and my brain keeps generating more things to google. Normally I would just spiral and be done but now I can barely hold back from searching for long. I eventually give in. I’m horrified because it feels like I want to find illegal content. I swear on everything I am, I don’t want to find anything even close to it. I’m freaking out because I don’t understand what’s happening. I keep compulsively searching/testing/checking or idk. I keep remembering details and I feel like I need to google again to be sure of something. I feel absolutely insane can someone please help me??? I’m petrified I’m going to get in trouble.

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