Harm ocd and depression

Is anyone dealing with really bad depression and harm ocd. I have come learn that the harm intrusive thoughts are thoughts and I would never act on them but the depression and panic attacks are awful. Not just the panic attacks but I just generally have this terrible feeling in my chest. I am a stay at home mom with a four year old I just cry all day it’s so hard to do anything and I am waiting on therapy. Does anyone have any tips or advise? How do I deal with this sadness I find no joy in almost anything I love my children and I don’t want them to see me like this

Username: Tsm95Tsm95

Date posted: 2y ago

I went into a depression bc of the harm OCD, I didn’t want to get out of bed out of fear and just being mentally tired.. BUT I started fighting it, and here’s how I got better, I know this will help you to, This might sound a little ridiculous but, when you wake up, just start saying how thankful you are for everything, especially the small things we take for granted, I’d say how thankful I am for having running water, I’m able to walk, see, smell, that my health isn’t the best but it’s not the worse, after a few days of that, i noticed my mood slowly changing finally!

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 2y ago

@Tsm95 Thank you I will start doing that My ocd and anxiety is especially bad in the morning

Username: Teresa1Teresa1

Date posted: 2y ago

Hey, I feel your pain. You're in a really tough phase. I'm at home with my 4 year old and 2 year old who are both super energetic and we live in a small apartment. I have ocd, anxiety and probably depression too. I had the thought of jumping out the window today. I obviously would never, ever do it but man, oh man.. It was a tough day and Im also trying to figure out how to feel better and not have to deal with such horrible thoughts and feelings. This probably sounds too simple, but it's important to plan time outside of your home. You need to get outside or just recharge somewhere that makes you feel better and I find it's best if I'm alone cuz I'm a total introvert and Im soo overstimulated all day.. It's soo hard listening to whining and crying and soo hard to meet all their needs. I also love my kids soo soo much and I'm actually a teacher cuz I've always loved kids and teaching but being a mom is waaay harder than I thought.. I feel like I'm failing all the time and I feel guilty when my kids see me crying and even more guilty when I yell when everything builds up. Take it one day at a time and definitely take breaks from being at home for starters. If you already do that, that's great. It's soo good that you're starting therapy. It will help!! I've also done talk therapy and it helped but I need to start ERP which I don't have the courage to start yet... I hope you feel better soon!

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 2y ago

@Teresa1 Thank you for replying and bless your heart a two year old and four year old, I have two other children but they are older Yea I have been trying to walk every evening it really helps but mornings are awful I wake up in a panic I think I’m gonna start doing yoga in the morning Not sure if you have high anxiety in the morning And I feel you on the guilt why are we so hard on ourselves And yea I’m afraid to start ERP too Have you ever heard of Dr Michael Greenberg he uses a different approach check out his website I’m looking into doing therapy with his therapists if my new therapist doesn’t work out Hope you feel better soon too do you take medication

Username: Teresa1Teresa1

Date posted: 2y ago

@Anonymous Sorry for not replying sooner. I'm sorry to hear you have a lot of anxiety in the morning. I do too and I realized my habit of drinking coffee first thing was making it worse so just recently I started having a huge camomile tea in the morning. I try to wake up before my kids every morning so I get some peaceful, quiet time and I pray a bit which helps too (I'm Christian). I don't do and have never done yoga. I just do regular stretches when I can and it feels good to move my body at least a bit. I also noticed that having a big, filling breakfast helps me feel better. It might sound silly, but I noticed my anxiety is worse and I'm way more irritable if I have a small breakfast. The more fat and protein, I find, the better. (Then after my big breakfast I can have a coffee. I had to mention that cuz I look forward to my coffee so much. I feel like it's my antidepressant. It makes me feel hopeful and happy. Lol.. My husband says that's pretty lame. Lol. But he doesn't have ocd or depression.) Anyways, I have never taken any medication for my OCD/anxiety or depression. I'm too scared of side effects and of becoming dependent and I also want more kids so I'm afraid of what would happen if I got pregnant while on them etc. Etc. I'm sure they help some ppl, but I just don't want to take them. My plan is to do erp first. I do apply everything I know about erp and it really does work. It's just that some days are still so hard.. I've never heard of Dr. Michael Greenberg but I'll check out his website. Thank you! I really like listening to Kimberly Quinlan's podcast. Shes all about self-compassion and I find what she shares very useful. She has a 6 part series on mental compulsions and it was soo, soo good. I recommend that. It's all in the podcast.

Username: Teresa1Teresa1

Date posted: 2y ago

@Teresa1 Kimberly Quinlan's podcast is called "Your Anxiety Toolkit" and you can find it on Spotify. Just wanted to share that too. Take care!!

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 2y ago

@Teresa1 Thank you I will check her out! And yes coffee can help ease a little bit of the depression lol but I don’t drink it as much as I use to because I’m afraid I won’t sleep

Username: AngelarmAngelarm

Date posted: 2y ago

I'm dealing with Harmos the the depression. My wife just left me after 27 years of marriage. I travel a lot for work so it's hard for me to focus on myself. I've done some counseling and have gone to see a psychiatrist and done exposure therapy. If you ever need to talk just let me know. I'll try to help in anyway I can

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 2y ago

@Angelarm I’m so sorry you are going through that Did the therapy help your ocd symptoms and do you take medication? My psychiatrist really wants me to take Prozac but I’m scared it will make me worse The depression makes ocd so much worse

Username: AngelarmAngelarm

Date posted: 2y ago

@Anonymous I did some exposure therapy and I have to say it has helped. Sometimes I forget what I have learned and have shitty days. But when I do practice my ERP it actually does make things easier. I'm not big on psychiatrist because they usually recommend medication. I'm a nutritionist for Conor McGregor and many other athletes and fighters. So I try to do my best to take holistic medicines before pharmaceuticals.

Username: Janiqua G.

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y ago

HARM OCD

I have horrific harm ocd towards myself and my son. I’m so sad and distressed by it. I cry often because I feel like a complete monster. The thoughts just won’t stop. I have issues with other themes as well but harm is really the main one that beats me down!!! I was doing okay. but the tragedy in TX has triggered me and I am really suffering! Does medication help? I’m trying to avoid compulsions but I believe I have mental compulsions as well. I’m just over it!!! This is not a way to live!

Username: Lisseth27@

Date posted: 1y ago

Intrusive thoughts/depression/anxiety

Hello I am new to this application. I am 34 years old and I’m not sure if I have OCD but I’ve noticed that the last two weeks I have been having these horrible thoughts I can’t believe I am having them. It makes me so sad and scared and I can’t seem to stop crying. I’m going on week two feeling this way and can’t seem to get myself out of it. How can I possibly have thoughts about harming my child? They are the precious gift from God. They’re my flesh and bone how can I?? The anxiety I get every day has turned into having it all day and night, just the thought of How I can could possibly think of such thing, now followed by depression and lack of sleep. I have never had this problem ever up until now. I can’t even watch any crime shows or the news because it spikes my anxiety. I can’t even look at anything like knives, guns because it causes me major distress.

Username: butterfly23

Date posted: 1y ago

Mom with harm OCD

Is anyone else here a mom with harm OCD? It makes me question everything. If I love them enough, if I really want them, it's horrible I don't wanna have these questions or doubts. I wanna be a happy mom that is sure of herself and sure of wanting her kids and the love I have for them. OCD has taken a lot from me. I even was hospitalised for it because I couldn't take it anymore. Please tell me it gets better. Is anyone in the same position?

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