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I have similair problem. I recently became obsessed with my data online. I deleted facebook and searched my friends profiles in fear I will find some inapropriate photos that could ruin my reputation. It's all part of OCD. The only thing we can to is to embrace the uncertainty and stop thinking about it. That is extremely hard because OCD makes you believe it is a life or death situation, and I still struggle with it, but it is the only way.
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Yes this was the original reason I began seeing a therapist and it has been a shadow around me since. It has gotten better however - the more I work and become comfortable in a new job the less I worry about it. Finding old pictures of myself even in my own room is a huge trigger for me like what if someone took a screenshot when I had posted this/someone had posted it
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This is so true. I hate that feeling so much. I lose so much time googling myself and buying background checks. But you are very right. It’s nice to know I’m not alone.
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Omg, that is exactly what I'm worried about too! I posted stupid photos, a little bit sexy or whatever when I was a teenager and that haunts me now. Just hearing a word facebook makes me want to vomit out of anxiety. I deleted facebook and then I started to think what if someone saved those cringy photos. It's something we can't control and to me it is absolutely TERRIFYNG. I hate this digital era. It makes me feel like I can't fully move on from my past cause it will always be online. It's so hard to accept the uncertainty about this, but that is the only thing we can do, and what is a bit comforting is the fact that we aren't that important. I doubt anyone was so obsessed with us that he/she actually saved our photos. People are mainly focused on themselves just like we are. I don't care about other people cringy old photos so I doubt they care about mine.
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Exactly- my mom says this to me all the time and it helps. Still that feeling can be so haunting. If I can catch the feeling early before it gets too bad and breathe through it I can make it through. I remember telling friends about this feeling but they would kind of shrug it off like “yeah that would suck” but I felt like my feeling toward it was so debilitating. I also work in education so I feel like I have to be held to an extra high standard/role model
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- 19w
Hey everyone so I am having a really terrible bout of anxiety due to an exam I have tomorrow. It has sent me spiraling. And unfortunately my ROCD/anxiety has gotten ridiculously triggered. So I had a birthday party this past weekend. I got all dressed up and put on some cute makeup. It was a lot of fun. I then posted some pics from the party, some of them included him. They were cute! I had never posted him in anything in my feed. So I was a little nervy. I was hoping he would comment something on the post or repost or something, but he just dropped a like. I feel like he usually comments on posts that he is tagged in, so for some reason this really hurt me that he didn’t comment or interact more with it. Like he doesn’t like I posted it? Or is he ashamed of me? I don’t want to be shallow, but some validation on social media would be nice? Or maybe him just posting me would feel nice. I want to talk to him about this, but I am so terrified that this will make me seem so shallow and a fein for public validation. I’m worried he thinks this of me, as I have posted on social media. I’m worried this makes him like me less. Someone please provide some expertise on how it would be best to handle these circumstances, as silly and minescule as they may seem. I’ve read a lot online (I know it’s not good) about how to handle relationships online. I know it’s more important obviously how the relationship appears offline. But I’ve been pretty obsessive about this and have a hard time letting it go. Part of me wished I never posted anything. All of this anxiety could have been avoided.
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- 18w
Very brief mentions of pocd and nsfw jokes,id like this to be adults only . Repost bc i had to edit something Does anyone have experience with real event ocd attached to your online footprint etc? I keep checking old messages,trying to find old people i knew i used to talk to etc. To find out every problematic thing I did and if I've ever been unfollowed or blocked by anyone I used to be friends w online/atleast on good terms w. I am particularly concerned abt doing something bigoted,esp racist bc i have racism ocd,and doing something predatory bc of my pocd. I remember hanging around people who could use 'edgy' or offensive humour in my teens and i remember a lot of sex jokes and that i would join in on sex jokes sometimes . i dont remember details w the offensive humour as much,i feel like i didnt join in on it as much but i was definitely WAY passive abt things and prob let a lot of bad stuff slide i shouldnt have bc i didn't speak up it was wrong,I remember one friend in an online community would say slurs and horrible jokes when i was 16. I dont remember my response to it as much but i feel i didnt speak up abt it aside one time i found in the dms where he made a bad joke on a thing i shared for social justice. I cant stop going thru old messages and stuff or trying to find ppl from the past. I feel like if I don't check it now,that eventually it'll come to haunt me or that I'll stumble across it eventually. I worry what if someone messaged me on one of these apps I un-installed or on one of the accounts I don't have access to,confronting me abt all this stuff I did. I had an obsession w this back in 2020 and did check in depth on all my accounts,but now that it's been 4 years the obsession is back in full swing.
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- 6w
On Sunday at work I was stressed and I was anxious all day about ruining my relationship and I disappeared off camera for 2 min and 30 seconds and I’m trying to figure out why and it’s bothering me because I don’t remember I know all morning I was trying to stay on camera so I can prove to myself that I was fine but I think as the day went on like after I video called my boyfriend I felt better and wasn’t paying too much attention to being off camera but I went into the back of the store like the kitchen area and there’s no camera so I was off camera for 2 min 30 seconds and it’s scaring me because idk what I was doing so I’m trying to figure it out and it’s driving me nuts my mind is saying that I did something to ruin my relationship in those 2 min and 30 seconds and I’m so anxious and spiraling I can’t stop thinking about it and talking about it. I just want to enjoy my relationship without feeling guilty.
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