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I have similair problem. I recently became obsessed with my data online. I deleted facebook and searched my friends profiles in fear I will find some inapropriate photos that could ruin my reputation. It's all part of OCD. The only thing we can to is to embrace the uncertainty and stop thinking about it. That is extremely hard because OCD makes you believe it is a life or death situation, and I still struggle with it, but it is the only way.
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Yes this was the original reason I began seeing a therapist and it has been a shadow around me since. It has gotten better however - the more I work and become comfortable in a new job the less I worry about it. Finding old pictures of myself even in my own room is a huge trigger for me like what if someone took a screenshot when I had posted this/someone had posted it
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This is so true. I hate that feeling so much. I lose so much time googling myself and buying background checks. But you are very right. It’s nice to know I’m not alone.
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Omg, that is exactly what I'm worried about too! I posted stupid photos, a little bit sexy or whatever when I was a teenager and that haunts me now. Just hearing a word facebook makes me want to vomit out of anxiety. I deleted facebook and then I started to think what if someone saved those cringy photos. It's something we can't control and to me it is absolutely TERRIFYNG. I hate this digital era. It makes me feel like I can't fully move on from my past cause it will always be online. It's so hard to accept the uncertainty about this, but that is the only thing we can do, and what is a bit comforting is the fact that we aren't that important. I doubt anyone was so obsessed with us that he/she actually saved our photos. People are mainly focused on themselves just like we are. I don't care about other people cringy old photos so I doubt they care about mine.
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- 5y ago
Exactly- my mom says this to me all the time and it helps. Still that feeling can be so haunting. If I can catch the feeling early before it gets too bad and breathe through it I can make it through. I remember telling friends about this feeling but they would kind of shrug it off like “yeah that would suck” but I felt like my feeling toward it was so debilitating. I also work in education so I feel like I have to be held to an extra high standard/role model
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- 18w ago
When i was between the ages of 11-18 i was a very mentally ill and hyper sexual kid. I did a lot pf sexting, sent nudes, and even one video of me doing inappropriate things that haunt me to this day. I have changed a lot since then and realized that this was all jn relation to (TW!!) sexual abuse i experienced as a child/teen. I still feel horrible for the things that I have done and think about this daily. I beat myself up because I know it was wrong of me to act that way growing up. Im afraid that someone will find these texts/pictures/videos one day and it will lead to my complete humiliation. I want to throw up at the thought of people i know and love seeing me act that. Its not who I am or who I ever was. I regret that part of my life so deeply it hurts.
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I’m really struggling right now. My mind is racing and I’m panicking about the content that I watched in the past because I don’t have a way to ‘prove’ that it was safe and consensual. I stupidly caved in and googled “what happens if an accidentally saw illegal porn” and I ended up making my anxiety so much worse. What if the images I saw in the past had underage people in them? Am I going to jail? Will my ip address be tracked? My brain is making all sorts of scenarios up and they feel so real. At this point I don’t know if I’m a bad person or not, I just feel like something terrible is about to happen. Although I know I’d never intentionally look for that kind of stuff there’s still a chance that I could have seen things without realising, and I actually don’t know what to do. I’m in total panic mode
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- 10w ago
Very brief mentions of pocd and nsfw jokes,id like this to be adults only . Repost bc i had to edit something Does anyone have experience with real event ocd attached to your online footprint etc? I keep checking old messages,trying to find old people i knew i used to talk to etc. To find out every problematic thing I did and if I've ever been unfollowed or blocked by anyone I used to be friends w online/atleast on good terms w. I am particularly concerned abt doing something bigoted,esp racist bc i have racism ocd,and doing something predatory bc of my pocd. I remember hanging around people who could use 'edgy' or offensive humour in my teens and i remember a lot of sex jokes and that i would join in on sex jokes sometimes . i dont remember details w the offensive humour as much,i feel like i didnt join in on it as much but i was definitely WAY passive abt things and prob let a lot of bad stuff slide i shouldnt have bc i didn't speak up it was wrong,I remember one friend in an online community would say slurs and horrible jokes when i was 16. I dont remember my response to it as much but i feel i didnt speak up abt it aside one time i found in the dms where he made a bad joke on a thing i shared for social justice. I cant stop going thru old messages and stuff or trying to find ppl from the past. I feel like if I don't check it now,that eventually it'll come to haunt me or that I'll stumble across it eventually. I worry what if someone messaged me on one of these apps I un-installed or on one of the accounts I don't have access to,confronting me abt all this stuff I did. I had an obsession w this back in 2020 and did check in depth on all my accounts,but now that it's been 4 years the obsession is back in full swing.
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