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I have similair problem. I recently became obsessed with my data online. I deleted facebook and searched my friends profiles in fear I will find some inapropriate photos that could ruin my reputation. It's all part of OCD. The only thing we can to is to embrace the uncertainty and stop thinking about it. That is extremely hard because OCD makes you believe it is a life or death situation, and I still struggle with it, but it is the only way.
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Yes this was the original reason I began seeing a therapist and it has been a shadow around me since. It has gotten better however - the more I work and become comfortable in a new job the less I worry about it. Finding old pictures of myself even in my own room is a huge trigger for me like what if someone took a screenshot when I had posted this/someone had posted it
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This is so true. I hate that feeling so much. I lose so much time googling myself and buying background checks. But you are very right. It’s nice to know I’m not alone.
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Omg, that is exactly what I'm worried about too! I posted stupid photos, a little bit sexy or whatever when I was a teenager and that haunts me now. Just hearing a word facebook makes me want to vomit out of anxiety. I deleted facebook and then I started to think what if someone saved those cringy photos. It's something we can't control and to me it is absolutely TERRIFYNG. I hate this digital era. It makes me feel like I can't fully move on from my past cause it will always be online. It's so hard to accept the uncertainty about this, but that is the only thing we can do, and what is a bit comforting is the fact that we aren't that important. I doubt anyone was so obsessed with us that he/she actually saved our photos. People are mainly focused on themselves just like we are. I don't care about other people cringy old photos so I doubt they care about mine.
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Exactly- my mom says this to me all the time and it helps. Still that feeling can be so haunting. If I can catch the feeling early before it gets too bad and breathe through it I can make it through. I remember telling friends about this feeling but they would kind of shrug it off like “yeah that would suck” but I felt like my feeling toward it was so debilitating. I also work in education so I feel like I have to be held to an extra high standard/role model
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Hi guys! I had really bad harm ocd about 2 years ago and I went through therapy and eventually got really good at handling it when it would pop up. The other day, I was scrolling on TikTok and came across a girl talking about a guy who was presenting a lot of schizophrenic symptoms but no one paid attention and got him help, he was having a lot of delusions, hallucinating, thinking everyone was out to get him, thought he was Jesus and his dad was the president and ended up doing horrific things. The day after that, I was dealing with some work drama and had the thought of “what if all my coworkers are against me and trying to get me fired”. That really stressed me out, cause I don’t normally think about them like that and I went down a rabbit hole of thinking that was the beginning of me developing schizophrenia, ended up googling stuff all night, taking tests, crying and seeking reassurance. I had a thought the other day “your dad is the president”, this one didn’t stress me out as bad as I knew it was just the video I had seen and it was an intrusive thought about it, and I also didn’t believe it. Today I was with some friends and I got a prize at a place we went and it said “lonely” on it. I do have my moments of feeling lonely and this week has been specifically trying so I had a thought like “oh someone’s out to get me cause I got this”. I know this isn’t logical and it wouldn’t make sense to just randomly get it if someone was truly after me and it was just a stupid prize at a random place, anyone could’ve gotten it. Im just struggling a lot with schizophrenic OCD and thinking I’m in the pre stages of it. In my good moments, I don’t think I am at all and it was all just sparked from the video I watched but in my bad moments, these thoughts feel real!! They really stress me out and make me feel like I’m going to lose my mind causing me to lose my job/ end up in a psych hospital/ never live a normal life/ end up alone, never see me my loved ones/ hurt my loved ones. I just want to feel normal and not like I’m about to lose my mind and everything I care about. Please help!!! Anyone else going through something similar and can help me get through this!
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TikTok makes me question if I’m a bad person every day Every time a story goes viral—like the Uber Eats woman lying about her delivery at the hillside hospital—I spiral. I know what she did was very wrong, but the way people drag it out and make wild assumptions (“she probably lies at work too!”) feels extreme. I’ve never lied about missing food, but I have gotten refunds for bad orders in hard times. Now I’m panicking that maybe I’m just as bad, even though I wasn’t trying to scam. My OCD latches onto stuff like this and won’t let go. I just wish people understood how damaging these mob reactions can be. And honestly, why don’t these apps do proper investigations before punishing drivers or customers? Not everything is black and white. Idk maybe it’s just me but things can be handled without trying to go viral on tik tok.
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UPDATE: ive reduced my posts to once per day in hopes of trying to overcome this... but right now... i genuinely feel so horrible and anxious that i need to post... (For context, in the past, I have been catfished by a man pretending to be a woman, had a minor on a dating app who lied about her age and i unknowingly flirted with her because I assumed she was 18+ and her bio said so, and sent a n00d to a "woman" online who now I suspect of being a catfish... this is the reason why I'm so scared of whether or not I unknowingly explicitly chatted wjth a minor... i know that this is all my fault, but still...) Its making me feel like I cant remember things properly... making me think i unknowingly explicitly chatted with a minor online or being catfished by a man or kid... making me question every woman Ive ever been flirted with or explicitly chatted with... intrusive thoughts of me "explicitly cybering with a minor or a man" and of me going to jail because my worst fear of "unknowingly cybering with a minor(s), or being catfished by one" coming true... im genuinely depressed... and I feel so alone... uncertainty has brought me nothing but hell... and theres no getting out... it feels like im waiting every day for my intrusive thoughts and fears to be proven right, and ending up with me going to jail... I have never felt more alone... I just keep getting intrusive thoughts that one day, when I become famous or get my dream job, im going to get a future moment of any girl I explicitly cybered with in the past, saying... "Hey, I was a minor when we cybered and while you didnt know, im going to get you arrested or cancelled." Or that im gonna get catfished by a dude pretending to be a woman online... Im genuinely scared of the future... and this is honestly why I dont want to be famous or an influencer... Because not only do i fear someone will "expose" me for my POCD and my Real Events OCD, but im also scared about this entire situation...
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