I forgot what I said exactly I had to do/say while counting my pulse and trying to get it “just right”. Then I said something along the times of. If I didn’t, my heart rate would be high. Now it feels like it’s scary because I can’t remember and it’s higher.
I can’t remember! I wanna cry!
@Perfect Imperfectionist Sometimes complusions do that my friend. Remember to breathe.
@Overcomer I’m really irritated with trying to remember what the heck the compulsion was about. Then I’m worried I’ll never remember. What if that makes me feel bad. Ugh!
I’m a somatic OCD sufferer for over 50 years. A checker, watcher, etc. Every bodily function I have or you too, I know about! And you know where it got me? Nowhere. Nothing ever happened. Turn the what ifs into so what’s. Let the voices hash it out but keep them in the background. Never try to silence them or the louder they will cry.
@Scotchann Wow! You know how it feels for sure than with 50 years! I don’t know how to not worry or stress about what I forget or can’t remember. Then I say things like “If I don’t do this or remember I will feel bad, or my heart rate will be bad.” Therefore I think this is a fact or real and I get anxiety or feel bad. Then OCD wins again. Couldn’t do much last night and woke up about 20+ times because of all this last night. What do I do?