I have been struggling for only about 2 years

Do you ever feel as if you are the only one going through this particular OCD crap and it will never end? I can’t tell you all how many times I cried out to God exhaustively and emotionally to take this away. Yet He still hasn’t….. That is the reality of this struggle. Wanting “it” to die. I have a challenging combo of POCD, ROCD, and Somatic OCD. My particular issue is this…. I get a weird head pain and pressure in my head in which has been conditioned as a “spiritual problem.” The head pain and pressure at times is so excruciating that I CANT HELP BUT CONSTANTLY CHECK, ANALYZE, or desperately pray it to “go away.” No medial explanation for this issue. Yet it feels so real!?!?! How I have conditioned Jesus into misery and pain just doesn’t make any sense….. any time trying to read the Bible, pray, listen to sermons, go to church or even mention anything associated with Jesus triggers this head pain/pressure/annoyance…. Then I can’t stop analyzing why I am reacting this way and then question everything about faith, my relationship with Jesus…. Is it true? Am I really saved? Do I belong to God? How come scripture doesn’t bring peace or hope? Then the cycle continues and then I end up saying verbally…. ok I guess I don’t believe. I’m not saved. There is no such thing as Jesus…. Etc…. Then feel wrong and bad about that… ask Jesus to come back into my life but then the cycle starts up again…. Starts up first thing in the morning “every day!!!” Thus, I’ve created OCD Jesus and OCD God… Anyway….. the most difficult thing treating this is to do absolutely nothing…. Letting compulsions die and not ruminating…. Not give the “it” meaning is the goal….. Just sharing on here and if anyone wants to talk or has any advice tips I am open. I hope we can all get better and be healed. In Gods timing and grace is what I say….

Dee C

Date posted: 2y

Sorry you’re going through this. Ocd latches on to anything you love and it lies too. By constantly checking, analyzing & ruminating you are giving in compulsions. How about letting the thoughts be? Watch them flow on in a nonjudgmental manner and not react to them. No matter the content. It takes time & practice to accept the uncertainty. I won’t offer you reassurance but I will say, there are some things that inherently we cannot answer and we leave that to our higher power. Hope this helps you and know that you are not alone.

Anonymous

Date posted: 2y

You have gone through a lot! Better days will come! You doing great job by not doing compulsion . You have got this! I believe in you and God beloved in you too!

Ababe8764

Date posted: 2y

You got this! :) you are strong!

Anonymous

Date posted: 11d

Religious OCD Christian

Please help anyone else here with Religious ocd and is a Christian? My brain is going hay-wire and want to know I'm not alone... what do your thoughts say and how do you overcome compulsions? Im going through a rough moment and feel sick with anxiety and stiff. I want to obey God but my thoughts won't stop. I surrender to the Lord and then I have peace with the compulsions and they go away but the thoughts are the scary part please - is this spiritual or is it mental? Or is it both? Would love to hear a Christians opinion on this... because my thoughts latch on and won't dissappear but I know that the Bible commands us to take control of our thoughts and to renew our minds...yet God has grace for this and mercy for our every need... I know God is in control (completely) and my mind creates a lot of the issues for me without any spiritual stuff (it's a very powerful thing) but it's still scary. Lord help me, I surrender myself to you Jesus, counsel my soul and help me.

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